~ my mother has cancer ~
while she is not meant to b with me much longer, i find myself @ a loss as to ask god what i can say for her in my prayers. i dont think anything can prepare me for the loss of another parent. am i supposed to b ready for this? if so...i cant say i feel it. chemo is suppose to extend her life...but i dont see it giving her any quality. all i know is that all the joy in my life has left..it is replaced with a knawing sorrow of what is eniveitable. i understand what its like to not b able to do anything for someone whom u love n cant......... the uneviable position of feelin helpless ....
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