off meds - kinda need support

[WheelieStrong]

i'm off my meds and no this time it's not my doing, i can't get to them which i won't go into right now.

the people in my head and starting to bother me, and i am definately not alone any more.

i'm trying not to tell anyone around me but i guess some of them might read this sorry.

Yesterday i had a shower for the first time in a week, at least the man in my bedroom seems to be leaving me alone right now.

listening to loud music isn't helping and even drinking isn't doing anything.

yesterday i scrubbed my hands so hard in the shower i made them sore and well i can't stop thinking about doing stuff that would hurt me.

i am not doing ok, i am really really trying to be ok, i swear

is it ok to ask for support here?

[nycfem]

I'm so sorry that you are going through such a hard time. I am worried about you my friend! How about going to the nearest ER and checking in? Sending thoughts of care and support, Jennifer

[Soon]

I have to echo nycfembbw's advice.

Wheelie, it sounds like you need some medical intervention to help stabilize things for you -- from there, I am sure a longer term plan of care will help you.

It seems that things are becoming overwhelming, and you shouldn't have to suffer like this. I would suggest finding a nearby hospital and letting them help you.

I'm sorry you are going through this.

[Corkey]

I hear if you go to the ER they will help you til you can get your meds.
Use all your coping skills, and go as soon as you can.

[WheelieStrong]

i once rang my local hospital and begged them to help me cause i was having a seriously bad day with my moods so much so it actually scared me..
They said they could only help me if i had taken recreational drugs :(

And even when i said i wanted to go the hospital, things stopped me so i don't think i have that option.

And my shrink while prescribing meds keeps telling me i don't have mental health issues, i get the impression because i don't fit her neat little box she somehow thinks i would make stuff up.. Especially after i mentioned my sister was schitzophrenic.

But then my shrink doesn't pay attention, i took my sister to one of my appointments, i won't go alone anymore, cause she makes me cry..
At my next appointment when i mentioned my neice stays with me occasionally, she asked if my sister was aware of my problems

[adorable]

I see you are in England. I am honestly not sure how it works over there. Here you can walk into any emergency room and they will admit you. Call an ambulance right now and go to the hospital.

We cannot help you here other then to listen. If you went to the hospital they can help you and get the voices to stop. I know that it's difficult. It's fantastic that you realize you need help. My ex suffers from psychosis and hears voices - I know it's hard. If you suddenly stop your medications that can be very, VERY dangerous. Please, take everyone's advice and go to the hospital. They can give you enough medication to get you through this.

Also for your medications not sure if this link can help you.
http://www.pparx.org
A lot of companies are offering certain medications for free if you qualify.

[nycfem]

I worked in a psychiatric hospital for twelve years, though not in England. I understand how hospitals turn away admissions who are uninsured and taking rec drugs. That being said, you are going to have a much better chance if you present in person. Tell them specifically that you are thinking of seriously hurting yourself (if indeed you are) and that you have a sister who is schizophrenic (meaning, of course, that there is much more chance that you would also have a psychotic illness, as opposed to your hallucinations being the sole result of rec drug use). Refuse to leave until you are admitted. When people did that, it created a legal issue for the hospital not to take them in.

[Medusa]

Wheelie,

I am very sorry you are going through this and hope you will seek proper medical attention and get the help you need.
It appears that you are in crisis and while Im sure this is incredibly upsetting to you, it is also upsetting to the people who read this.

Due to the legal ramifications to the site, we would rather folks who are in crisis seek help with the proper medical personnel. I am going to close this thread and encourage you to reach out to your local crisis center, a trusted in-person friend, a relative, or even a neighbor.

Our best to you,
m