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Had the usual grade school "play mates" being taller than all the other kids the little femmes seemed to gravitate towards me. I didn't really care for femmes then. I always liked the tom boy girls who never seemed to look at me in that way. When I was 14 a new neighbor moved in..in my small white bread town everyone knew everyone's business, her name was P****..she was much old had to be in her late 30's..she was AMAZING...she wore jeans, t-shirts and a leather jacket. She rode a motorcycle..and drove a truck. Made my knees weak whenever I'd look at her and if she looked back at me I couldn't breathe. My mother and her bitter flock of hens would call Pat "that Dyke"..I spend the entire summer being Pat's helper whenever she would work on her truck or bike. We talked about everything and laughed constantly. I'd cook for her and clean her house too. (Even then I was a submissive femme and didn't realize it lol )Pat taught me how to slow dance..although I knew how I played like i didn't just so I could be that close to her just to inhale her scent. P***** would make jokes all the time and say " If you were only legal" then chuckle. I'd get in all kinds of trouble with my mother for hanging out at Pat's house but I didn't care I just wanted to be near her. One day after the most amazing summer, I was walking home from school and there was a moving truck in Pat's driveway..my heart sank..she was moving..I was devastated..Pat came out to say good-bye to me..I fought back the tears..she handed me her favorite blue bandana..winked and said" when your legal look me up"..chuckled and got in her truck and that was the last time I saw her. I wonder whatever happened to her. I still have that bandana to this day safe in a cigar box.
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First crushes were when I was young enough to still play "house" with neighborhood girls. I was always the "guy" and always Daddy. Somethings never change.
First girlfriend was fourth grade at 4-H camp. She thought I was a guy and I let her think that. We were in separate dorms, so I would walk her to hers then scurry back to mine, praying I never got "made". First love, I was a jr in hs. She was a young teacher, just out of college. It was an affair that lasted a year and a half, filled with all of the angst of not knowing what we were doing and even whom we were. It "ended" as I was given the choice by my mother ( who had read my journals) that I leave school or she would expose teacher/lover to school board. I quit and went to Job Corps. I never told teacher at the time why I was leaving, I felt such a need to protect her. I didn't speak to my mother for 7 years after that. Teacher and I had a couple of rendezvous' over the next couple of years, but she went on to marry and raise three children. 30 years later, we became re-acquainted through the wonder of FB. She is now in a loving relationship with a woman and living her truth. We have reconnected in the most blessed way. Life is truly a large circle of comings and goings. |
In elementary school(around 11 yrs old) my best friend E***** and I were together all the time. One day after riding bikes I felt this overwhelming urge to kiss her. Her response was "Ewww what are you doing?!" Oh, um ha ha nothing, uh, just joking around.........
Fast forward to college. My roommates and friends were all enjoying the hyper hetero sex fest. And I just didn't get it. Couldn't understand all the fuss they buzzed about. Then one day I noticed this girl in class. She was all short hair and rainbows. Unlike any one I had ever met. And I wanted to sit by her, and I wanted to talk to her, and I couldn't figure out why! Then one day I came to class after work with a snack as I usually did since my work shift was right before class. This time it was a big juicy pear. And she said "you know, you make everything you eat look so good" That was all I needed to hear. My eyes practically rolled back and my toes curled and I knew. And I never looked back. Of course I never did anything about it with her. At the time I had no idea what to do about it! I did tell her that story a few years ago. She had no idea what she did for me with just one sentence :) |
My true first woman crush, that I admitted to myself, didn't come until I was 36 years old. I fell for a very close friend of mine and I didn't even know if she was into women or not. She finally came out to me but only to tell me that she was interested in another woman. That was kind of hard to hear because I was already in love with her and we never had even held hands much less kissed! I agonized to tell her. I have since told her that I'm in love with her and she says she knows. She said it was very apparent. I don't know how can be, I hold it in so well or so I thought.
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My first serious crush was my mom's friend from church. :) She sang in the church choir. Lucky for me we spent a lot of time with them outside of church. I'm thinking I was 7 or 8 years old. She had the most beautiful brown eyes and hair. I was mesmerized. I crushed on her until they moved away. I wonder if anyone knew :/
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Oh, I remember her well!!!
I was in grade 3, 8 years old. She was the one and only tomboy! She was the only girl who wore boy black rubber boots in the spring, while all us other girls had red or pink ones. She never wore a dress, wore pig or pony tails, or played dolls or house! Her name was A*****, but went by A*****! She was the cutest thing ever! Makes me smile even today just thinking about her!!!! |
I had a clear crush on Samantha from Bewitched. I so wanted to get her away from that oppressive Darren! I wanted her to use her magic and be herself! I clearly felt tingles everytime I watched the show. I asked for her Barbie doll type doll for Christmas and when I got it, I did things to it no one had ever told me about and I had no name for...
I had a "relationship" with my drivers ed teacher. She was in her 20s and clearly butch. CLEARLY. Damn I loved her. However, looking back I see she was a predator and I was just a kid. She had a "relationship" with one of my good friends too at the same time...and pit us against each other. Very strange time in my life. I knew tho, I was attracted to women as well as men, after that. However, this was at a time when lesbian was a word people didnt even know, let alone say on occassion in the general household. Not like today! I walked around not knowing myself for years and just when i would figure something out about myself, more would get confusing and need unraveling. I use to feel like i was a creature caught in a trap and needed to chew my leg off to get away from the expectations placed on me culturally. I drank and ended up with a problem. Now I am sober, have figured out that life is a process of unearthing and mining about one's Self. I am 54 and find joy in discovering things about me! |
Go figure...
My first grade teacher, who oddly enough wasn't blonde. But she was beautiful & when I got to third grade she was my teacher again. She said it was so she could be my teacher. Hmmm. I was sure I was gonna marry her someday. :sunglass:
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This is going to sound so cliche but its true lol
My first real actual crush where I knew it was a crush ie feelinge etc. I was 12 and she was 16, she was amazing *sighs* it was at Girl Scout camp and she was my counselor, She was a soccer player from Holland, very butch, her name was S****** but went by the name "tulip" because all of the counselors had little playful names for camp. She had short blonde hair and bright piercing blue eyes with a very boyish figure, I was glued to her and she would always give me hugs and let me sit on her lap, i even got a few quick kisses on the cheek too, we were inseparable during the whole summer :sunglass:, I cried so hard at the end of the summer when camp was over and I wouldn't be able to see her again as she was going back to Holland, We kept in contact for a couple years writing letters back and forth but eventually we lost contact.. I do often wonder what ever became of her *smiles* |
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I was in sixth grade and I had a crush on my Physical Education teacher.
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When I was a kid, a lot of my friends were madly in love with Bo Duke from the Dukes of Hazzard, little Rick Schroeder from Silver Spoons, or even Michael J. Fox from his Family Ties days. In contrast, I was enthralled with Jo from Facts of Life, Yentl as Anshel in the movie Yentl, and the character, Terry, from an 80's movie called Just One of the Guys that some might remember, a movie about a girl who went in male drag pretending to be a boy for a piece for her school newspaper. Did I mention Anshel from Yentl? I was heartbroken that Anshel and Hadass, Amy Irving's character, did not have sex on their wedding night. How tragic.
And then there was T. I'd known T since kindergarten. She was the only girl I knew who only ever wore pants all through elementary school, and the fact that she wore pants and a tie and hung out with the boys at the fifth grade dance was really baffling to me. Baffling... yet the sight of that girl with the short hair in that tie standing on the boys' side (because in the fifth grade, we had a self-imposed gender segregation thing going on at the dances) was something I couldn't tear my eyes from. As we went on to middle school and I documented my boy crushes in my diary, I ended many diary entries with a numbered list, "Boys I Like", and more than once I thought to put T on the list, but as a sixth grader, that was a little more than scary to me. Soon, middle school turned to high school and we ran in completely separate circles; I was one of the cheerleaders, and she was, well, just kind of a loner who seemed to make an increasingly obvious effort to look more and more like a boy. She abandoned her feminine first name in favor of her initials, TC, and created quite the scandal when she sent a new girl an 'admirer' letter, asking her on a date. I wish I'd had more courage then, because my closet adoration was kept such a well-hidden secret that I'm certain that TC had no clue that I knew she existed. No matter how hard I tried to be what I thought my parents wanted and expected, no boy ever sent those butterflies swirling from my stomach into my chest the way TC did. |
I have an older sister and I crushed all her hot friends. I was eight and they all thought I was adorable.
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Standard PE teacher :doh::doh:
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My first ever girl crush was on Joan Jett ~ what a hottie! *DROOL*
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I was sixteen at a bar called the Copacabana in Ft Lauderdale, Florida when this really cute butch chick just walks right up to me and says, 'hi i'm kim' and kisses me like I had never been kissed before. I got all weird in my tummy and my knees felt weak and she walked off and I never saw her again. I had a crush on her for years.
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My first grade teacher, with wonderful soft brown eyes.
My first real crush with a contemporary, was when I was 11. She had curly dark blonde hair (and hated it) To get things moving, I asked her if she wanted to practise kissing, and things really took off from there, but it took me months to get up the nerve to ask in the first place! |
First ever movie star crush was Krisy McNichol when she was Buddy on Family.
In realtime I was thirteen in summer camp and it was "my" athletic director F***** who was seventeen or eighteen!! Holy crap, anytime she came anywhere near me my heart would race, palms would sweat and an ear-to-ear grin would etch across my face like a prepubescent boi... And if she talked to me, which she did quite frequently after she noticed my reaction to her presence... I would get tongue tied and blush and..... wow!! lol :koolaid: |
be still my little rapidly beating heart!!! swoon!
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It was the summer before fourth grade. My mother had taken a position as camp cook in an upstate New York summer camp to enable my younger sister and I to attend. I had been relegated to the small house with girls my own age. However, I longed to be in the big house, with her, F******.
She was 12 years to my 9 and I was mesmerized. She was tall and lean, had long crazy brown hair, green eyes, and she rocked my world. I followed her everywhere and did my best to make certain she wanted for nothing. I toasted her marshmallows for her. I made sure every path we traveled was safe for her. If she wanted something, I did my best to make certain she had it. She did not seem to mind this weird 'kid' following her around. Her friends were not of like mind and would tell her to 'ditch' me. She did not. In fact, the night of the big scavenger hunt she asked me to marry her. We 'married' and went to her room for our honeymoon. We got in her bed, covered ourselves completely up with the covers, and kissed. She climbed on top of me and I made her switch positions. We were inseparable the remainder of the summer. We held hands everywhere we went and would give each other little kisses on the cheek. It seems strange to me now that my mother found this cute instead of worrying about it. Good for you Mom! Camp ended and I returned to my home state with my family just as she returned to hers. We wrote one another a time or two, but that was the end of us. Hey F******...if you are here...look me up!!!! |
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My first puppy-love crush was on my seventh grade teacher.
My first REAL crush...I was in my early 20s and still not out to anyone, especially myself. A friend and I were attending a birthday party for a co-worker of hers. At the party was a heart-stopping, jaw-dropping, butch. I couldn't take my eyes off her, and when she came over to talk to us, I thought my legs wouldn't hold me up anymore. She was the kind of person that touched you (your arm, hand) when she spoke...and every time she touched me my brain stuttered to a stop and I became completely tongue-tied. I don't remember her name, and I never saw her again...but I thought about her for years! I can STILL remember what she looked like. Pivotal moments in your life stay with you forever. |
I was in kindergarden, so 4 or 5. She was the 2nd grade teacher. She also lived about 9 houses from mine. Her dad was our mailman. Her name was Miss M*******. She looked like a young Susan Lucci. She was an identical twin, so am I. So she instantly loved me and my twin. But she loved all kids. She was kind and sweet and loving. She would freely hug and kiss her students. Which back in the 60's was a non issue but today I'm sure would be frowned upon. But the kids loved her and her kindness. I loved it when she kissed me but I would pretend I hated it. And I would run when I knew she was gonna kiss me. Because I realized quickly, that made her kiss you more when she caught you. Haha I was working it.
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ha,ha mine was also my second grade teacher!! omg she smelled so good. she started us journaling daily and i started writing love poems and stuff will the reassurance that no one but her would be reading them! soon she was so impressed with one of them that she shared it with my mother and the rest of the class!! still crushed on her but i stopped writing even to this day!
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My first crushes that I can remember were of the women I watched on the TV and Movie screen.
I grew up during the 60's and back then the "Movie Stars" were all white. I am sure this is why I do not have a greater variety of my first crushes. You see, my mother was a single mom and the TV and movies were our babysitters after all the chores were done. Every Sunday after mandatory church, (while mom was at home grabbing some alone time) we would go to the movies. Having said all that.............Here are my crushes during my elementary school years. Doris Day, Ann Margret and Audrey Hepburn. |
Umm well looking back back back snicker my third grade teacher ms j******. I thought she waked on the moon! Sadly my little backwater elem school found out she was gay and got her canned....worst day ever! I still think about her and wonder how she is.
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There was one girl when I was 6, that I would play "Daddy and Mommy" with lol. Kiss and all that jazz. But, I never had a crush on her really. I think my first REAL crush was on my 3rd grade teacher Ms. D******. I had straight A's in that class! I had it really bad for her! She was probably in her 20's then. I knew I had no chance in hell, but she was still nice to day dream about lol!
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First grade. Fall. Schoolbus colored leaves. I loved riding to school bcuz everyday R******, also a first grader, let me hold her hand.
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Ahh yesss..first crushes..of course mother was my first crush.My second crush had to be around age 5 or 6 years old to a little black girl that lived two houses down from where my family lived.I was curious about other girls bodies,even at that age,and she was the first girl to pull down her pants and show me hers..because I simply asked to see "it".I thought to myself that was pretty easy and learned something.I liked her alot and would ride my bike by her house almost everyday and bring her small gifts.I remember showing off my new pair of boots to her one day and riding in circles around her and her looking at me with those big brown eyes,smiling..two little girls having a moment I guess.*snort*
So I would say she was my first love/crush(different from mother)..her family eventually moved away..she took me into her house and I saw all the packed boxes and we were both helpless to do anything about it and I remember wanting to take her home with me and hide her but we both knew this was the end. Right now i'm crushing on my wife to be someday...crushing hard :toondance: |
My first woman crush was my junior high drama teacher, oh man did I have it bad for her. LOL
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My first crush was T******, a girl I knew in 3rd grade. I fell head over heels for her--was even carrying her books and calling her my girlfriend and everything, saw nothing wrong with it, and then all hell broke loose. :cold: Long story short, I wound up having to change schools at the end of the year, it got really bad. I learned my lesson though and learned to keep my feelings to myself. I became a damn good actress after that. This was early 1980s in a notoriously homophobic town that I wound up having to run out of screaming once I finally became an adult.
Shudder. I wouldn't go back to childhood for anything. Or my hometown either for that matter, even though it claims its "changed" (which I will never believe.) |
KD Lang.... still makes me blush... lol
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A dangerous revolutionary type butch: warm, embracing, a bit mysterious and edgy with the ability to make a woman feel really held energetically. Laughs, the day I realized how bad I was crushing on her I could have sworn the sun rose in a color I had never seen before. |
Salma Hayek...in 97 she floated down a river in an innertube on Fools Rush In and I was hooked. She is my longest and most enduring woman crush. I wanted to look like her or fuck her - or both - from the moment I saw her.
http://images4.fanpop.com/image/phot...-1920-1200.jpg http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ox30fwK1jg...lma-Hayek4.JPG My second grandest woman crush is Monica Bellucci and I've adored her for nearly as long. http://images2.fanpop.com/image/phot...-1600-1200.jpg As for "real" people, I found numerous girls and women attractive from the time I was 12-13ish. None were long term things though until my late teens. |
My very first crush was when I was about 9 or 10 years old, and it was on my older sister's best friend. She was a tomboy and her name was Eunice. I used to follow her around and tried to copy everything she did and said. But then a couple years later I was crushing on a very femme woman whose brats I babysat for, my butch gym teacher, and an androgynous substitute teacher I had!:koolaid:
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My very first girl crush was Christina Ricci...
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I can't remember that far back. My longest standing crush is Valerie Bertinelli. That is a 40 year crush.
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Growing up I was such a tomboy and was always crushing on my femme teachers from the age of 8. When I got to my teen years Madonna was the queen of pop and I was obsessed (showing my age here!) and my bedroom was covered with her image.
Now I prefer brunettes lol and have mini crushes on these lovely ladies... Lauren Cohan "Walking Dead" beauty https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/i...LHsVQual2elD-Q Maggie Siff " Sons of Anachy" beauty https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com...60428d6e6e.jpg Evangeline Lilly " Lost" beauty http://fullhdpictures.com/download.p...-Wallpaper.jpg |
My first girl crush was on a cartoon character when I was about 9-10 years old haha. Raven from Teen Titans... apparently my mind thought she was a boy until i discover she was female.
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