Lately my mom... Its getting close to the anniversary of her death. So I think of her more and more... Sometimes I can still close my eyes and see her face...

Whats on my mind..My old horse Jet..I know where abouts he is but the paint horse assn wont give me anthing but the name of the owner and town they live in..somehow im takeing a trip to the rio grand cause he isnt far from it..all I want to do is bring hime home and retire him.

there is lots of people on my mind, now that I am single I think all the time of people I have known and lost and some have came back into my life and for once I am breathing and doing what I want in life to make myself happy,

Van Johnson
 

getting back to the gym, I miss him in a whole 'nother way...

I miss my partner, T...

he was a big, and I mean Big body-builder and power-lifter...today at dinner my son and I were talking about him, at the end he said "...and he was Huge"
(and he was)...maybe it was to hold a big heart...

he had a dangerous job with dangerous people, and he ended up getting killed...no time to say goodbye

I am thankful to remember him with such love...to have shared myself with someone who got me, and who loved me in the moment and exactly as I was...(as I did him, of course)

I used to have this thing that I wanted to wrestle with him...he would try and comply...I'd tell him to get into position and then I'd drape myself over him, clasp my hands so that I could take him down (ha!!) and then I'd say "now, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean...go!"...and he's say "nee, how am I supposed to wrestle then?"...and, I'd say, 'you can, it will be fun...but, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean'...he had a Lot of patience...we never really wrestled, it was just something I thought would be fun...in a second he had me down on my back and it was, always, fun !!

we had ups and downs and in between...it was, above all and all the time--real...

so today, I miss my T...and, I'm okay with it...I am really thankful to have what we had...and to know what it's like to be loved and to love with honestly, courage, grace, passion, intensity, and a whole lot of fucking fun!

Really missing my best friend, Maidi. BFF!!

st john is on my mind, shes absolutely amazing

Sandra, my sweet and adorable friend from work. I didn't get see her this morning before I left because she was away on assignment. I knew she wouldn't be at work today yet I still kept listening for her laugh.

tammy
 

Tammy is on my mind, she is my lovely wife. We was at the heart doctor yesterday and he keeps telling her if she does not stop smoking she cutting her life short. I understand that smoking is a hard habit but would not life be worth it. I told her i would not nag at her so with prayers we will see if she quits smoking

MistyBlue~
 

MISTYBLUE is on my mind. talked to that lovely lady a few days ago. love that Scottish accent~ ;)
Happy to hear after a 22 month court battle MistyBlue gets to visit with her grandaughter Katie finally and the visiting periods are being extended.
Misty is on my mind because she has been away for so long and I miss her avatars and sexy humor and light heart. Misty has not been feeling well but she is getting stronger.
She is on my mind because she asked that I extend a heart felt "Hello"! to all that know her.
Misty will be back soon but til then she is on my mind :)

Laura... a long time family friend. She is in the end of life stages of her courageous battle with breast cancer. She is like a favorite Aunt to my sister's 3 adult children and their children. They are having a hard time losing her. A HS friend of my brother-in-law. He has Alzheimer's and for the first time since his diagnosis, I am thankful that he really doesn't know what Laura has and is going through. Please, may she soon have peace.

This is a very good human being with a heart of gold. We will all miss her.

lots of people have been on my mind lately...old friends from high school, friends from different cities i've lived in and friends that made moves themselves...

over a year ago, i made the commitment to myself, and to these friends really, that if people were on my mind, that i was going to contact them...not just let the thoughts pass away...

it's been working....this morning i just got back three replies from ol' friends...each one has made my heart glad that i know them.....and it's been good for me too as they all were happy to hear how i was doing....

about a year and a half ago, an especially old dear friend and i began looking for eachother around the same time....we found eachother and still are like old pals...

so, yes, it's friends who are on my mind....a whole lot of the time...

alot of people are on my mind

Tim is on my mind today. He is a good man and a good friend, very sweet person. He has had a hip problem for about the last year or so and in severe pain. He had hip replacement surgery a few months back and at first, the surgery seemed to help him but now the pain is as bad as ever. He works and had to get a different vehicle to haul his wheel chair. I saw him the other night and asked him how he is doing. An involuntary tear fell from his eye and as he looked away seemingly embarrassed about the teardrop, he told me he is depressed. I hugged him, kissed his cheek and told him I loved him.

Some people sure have it rough.