I go through bouts of depression. I already know the signs of my highs and lows. For me, I think it's more now than ever in my past. Moving to a state where I have no friends and being a pretty private person for the most part about my personal life increases my bouts. I think burdening anyone else with things going on in my life is something I'm not programmed to do. I know I have plenty of friends that will listen. Just not any that live close by and phone calls aren't always the same when needing someone.
I do like to be alone sometimes, but not secluded. Changing some things in my life will stop the depression and I know this. But, if it is to be, it is up to me. I can pull myself out of this.....what I call, funk. After all, I'm the one that put me in it.
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Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage --- Lao Tzo
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