its funny as i think back to what and who i used to be back pre transition. to whom i have become in the past 3 years.
the changes i have made to perfect what i want for my life and how to nurture myself.
i never knew what it was like to be on my own, be alone as i have learned in the past 9 months, except for a little dating/sexual experiences i have had, i have found a new profession that i love. i have a few new real friends that i actually like but learning to trust is still a struggle. so my future holds the ability to learn trust.
never thought i would actually admit this, but i like being alone. finding myself has not been easy.
as for my future plans, 9 days i will be having my top surgery, becoming that guy i have felt like the past 40 years, moving on after transition with my life, working hard and providing an easy life for our son Avery.
i know jen, my grammar sucks and i know how much you hate that, so sorry.
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