Hold onto your ass cheeks Talyor. What is said is true. Nobody really knows how bad it is for you. Sometimes words cannot express or placate or suffice the real pain inside.
However, you are not alone... as lonely as it may feel. There are others out there going through the same thing.
I am fortunate...i don't have . well, pardon me but, as i would say,
the "ass on my chest" that was in the wrong place anymore. Maybe i can get a laugh
out
of that. Even if we don't make it through to the other side of the dreams and goals we may want and NEED( in this case)...it is important to keep trying and to not give up.
For if we don't try...we are already failing ourselves. Keep the faith Tayor. Go out and get what you can. Even if it is just bit by bit. It is something. Hell, believe me, i am talking to myself here also.
I know it is so so so so defeating and hard when you go and try and there is nothing there behind the door. and you get your hopes up and think there is a way or think there is support because ...it supposedly exists...out there...somewhere. It's exhausting. It is. I know.
I want you to know...it does exist and we exist and there is hope. there are possibilities for trans people today. That is where the hope lies. We exist and support exists. And that right there...is a beautiful beautiful truth in our lives today.
We may not get the support or receive it right away...but, it is out there and there are possibilities to strive for.
So, it is up to me to keep knocking on doors and to do the work and to find it.
Even if the door shuts or i am disappointed by what is available behind said door...
Gotta keep knocking...the door has many colors.
Believe Taylor and i will too.
Smile
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