Out of reach...

DMW · 06-03-2012, 12:05 PM

Hold onto your ass cheeks Talyor. What is said is true. Nobody really knows how bad it is for you. Sometimes words cannot express or placate or suffice the real pain inside.
However, you are not alone... as lonely as it may feel. There are others out there going through the same thing.
I am fortunate...i don't have . well, pardon me but, as i would say,
the "ass on my chest" that was in the wrong place anymore. Maybe i can get a laugh
out
of that. Even if we don't make it through to the other side of the dreams and goals we may want and NEED( in this case)...it is important to keep trying and to not give up.
For if we don't try...we are already failing ourselves. Keep the faith Tayor. Go out and get what you can. Even if it is just bit by bit. It is something. Hell, believe me, i am talking to myself here also.
I know it is so so so so defeating and hard when you go and try and there is nothing there behind the door. and you get your hopes up and think there is a way or think there is support because ...it supposedly exists...out there...somewhere. It's exhausting. It is. I know.
I want you to know...it does exist and we exist and there is hope. there are possibilities for trans people today. That is where the hope lies. We exist and support exists. And that right there...is a beautiful beautiful truth in our lives today.
We may not get the support or receive it right away...but, it is out there and there are possibilities to strive for.
So, it is up to me to keep knocking on doors and to do the work and to find it.
Even if the door shuts or i am disappointed by what is available behind said door...
Gotta keep knocking...the door has many colors.
Believe Taylor and i will too.
Smile

Nadeest · 06-03-2012, 08:34 PM

Taylor, we, each and every one of us, gotta keep trying, come what may. It is hard, I know. Gods, it is! I can't tell you the number of times that I've gone to bed crying, thinking that I couldn't manage to keep going. Yet here I am, still here, despite all the odds against me. Have faith in yourself, and your gf, that a way will be found. I'm here if you want/need to talk. hugs

Nijlon Tala · 06-03-2012, 09:26 PM

If there is one thing your gf has tried to show you is nothing is out of reach. Just have to find the right path to getting what it is your wanting. That path is there. May just have to clear the weeds and your gf will help every step of the way in anyway she knows how. I love you and it just find the patients to find the path that is right.

TaylorMade · 06-04-2012, 12:05 PM

Thank you everyone..its sometimes a roller coaster ride..and its harder when its rough here where I live..
My gf and I are still working on the US.. and I am trying to keep my head together on that. shes great and very patient.
Thanks for the encouragement..u all are great.
I think I will be better once I am home in my baby's arms..
Just taking things day by day...

06-04-2012, 12:05 PM	#4
TaylorMade Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Taylor Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Taken Join Date: May 2012 Location: Indiana Posts: 8 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 25 Thanked 42 Times in 8 Posts Rep Power: 0	Thank you Thank you everyone..its sometimes a roller coaster ride..and its harder when its rough here where I live.. My gf and I are still working on the US.. and I am trying to keep my head together on that. shes great and very patient. Thanks for the encouragement..u all are great. I think I will be better once I am home in my baby's arms.. Just taking things day by day... __________________ "Its not what they call you, its what you answer to"

06-03-2012, 12:05 PM	#1
DMW Member How Do You Identify?: FTM/Male (Will 14) Relationship Status: Caught An Angel and she doesn't lie! Join Date: May 2012 Location: @ Posts: 784 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,256 Thanked 1,857 Times in 614 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Hold onto your ass cheeks Talyor. What is said is true. Nobody really knows how bad it is for you. Sometimes words cannot express or placate or suffice the real pain inside. However, you are not alone... as lonely as it may feel. There are others out there going through the same thing. I am fortunate...i don't have . well, pardon me but, as i would say, the "ass on my chest" that was in the wrong place anymore. Maybe i can get a laugh out of that. Even if we don't make it through to the other side of the dreams and goals we may want and NEED( in this case)...it is important to keep trying and to not give up. For if we don't try...we are already failing ourselves. Keep the faith Tayor. Go out and get what you can. Even if it is just bit by bit. It is something. Hell, believe me, i am talking to myself here also. I know it is so so so so defeating and hard when you go and try and there is nothing there behind the door. and you get your hopes up and think there is a way or think there is support because ...it supposedly exists...out there...somewhere. It's exhausting. It is. I know. I want you to know...it does exist and we exist and there is hope. there are possibilities for trans people today. That is where the hope lies. We exist and support exists. And that right there...is a beautiful beautiful truth in our lives today. We may not get the support or receive it right away...but, it is out there and there are possibilities to strive for. So, it is up to me to keep knocking on doors and to do the work and to find it. Even if the door shuts or i am disappointed by what is available behind said door... Gotta keep knocking...the door has many colors. Believe Taylor and i will too. Smile

06-03-2012, 08:34 PM	#2
Nadeest Member How Do You Identify?: as myself Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Leesburg, FL Posts: 595 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,876 Thanked 2,118 Times in 501 Posts Rep Power: 17077998	Taylor, we, each and every one of us, gotta keep trying, come what may. It is hard, I know. Gods, it is! I can't tell you the number of times that I've gone to bed crying, thinking that I couldn't manage to keep going. Yet here I am, still here, despite all the odds against me. Have faith in yourself, and your gf, that a way will be found. I'm here if you want/need to talk. hugs

06-03-2012, 09:26 PM	#3
Nijlon Tala Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She Join Date: May 2012 Location: NYC Posts: 2 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3 Thanked 7 Times in 2 Posts Rep Power: 0	If there is one thing your gf has tried to show you is nothing is out of reach. Just have to find the right path to getting what it is your wanting. That path is there. May just have to clear the weeds and your gf will help every step of the way in anyway she knows how. I love you and it just find the patients to find the path that is right.