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Gemme · 03-12-2010, 10:58 PM

Like some others, I've let myself slack off a bit lately. It's to the point that it's annoying me. That's a good thing for me because it means I'm ready to act in my own best interest.

For me, it's like listening (or not) to your GPS. Turn left here....no, I don't WANT to turn left here....I'm going to eat a cookie on the right over here....

After a while, you begin to ignore the GPS (the voice inside, I call it) and you begin to lose that voice in the back of your head that says "Do you REALLY need that right now?" or "Are you hungry or bored or stressed?" or "Wouldn't it be GREAT to get ready and go for a long walk/jog/hike/etc?" If I get to the point where I don't heed it at all, I'll lose it and if I lose it, then I have to start allllllll the way over from the beginning. It's a training process and, though I have a long way to go, I've come a long way.

My motivation is still a bit low right now, but my annoyance factor is rising and I have realized it's time to try and get back on the bandwagon. Why not? It's a wagon; there's a band. Good times!

This coming Monday is the 15th of the month and 5 months from the Reunion. Even though Monday will come a bit earlier (change your clocks forward that Sunday!), I am ready for it. I'm the type of person to need a checkpoint or something that stands out and marks the day and this 5 month marker should work for me.

I have a difficult time getting to the gym on the weekends, especially when I work the midshift (my gym opens later on both days), so it wouldn't be logical to try to begin then. Monday is a day I am more likely going to be able to devote as much time as I need to get started again.

I'm also going to take advantage of the free personal training my Y offers, even though it may result in some wonky scheduling for a while. I've noticed that my arms are getting 'soft' around the elbow area, like my gran's used to be. It's hard to describe here but I see it and make the connection of where it is heading. I don't want to go there, so I'm going to encourage someone to make me sweat, cry, beg and work the Hell out.

Like Candace, putting this out here is a way of creating accountability for myself. In the end, it's my body and my life and I'm the only one who can live in either.

03-12-2010, 10:58 PM	#282
Gemme Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Queer Stone Femme Girl of the Unicorn Variety Preferred Pronoun?: She, as in 'She's a GEM' Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: The roads are narrow here Posts: 36,631 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 182,498 Thanked 107,945 Times in 25,668 Posts Rep Power: 21474888	Like some others, I've let myself slack off a bit lately. It's to the point that it's annoying me. That's a good thing for me because it means I'm ready to act in my own best interest. For me, it's like listening (or not) to your GPS. Turn left here....no, I don't WANT to turn left here....I'm going to eat a cookie on the right over here.... After a while, you begin to ignore the GPS (the voice inside, I call it) and you begin to lose that voice in the back of your head that says "Do you REALLY need that right now?" or "Are you hungry or bored or stressed?" or "Wouldn't it be GREAT to get ready and go for a long walk/jog/hike/etc?" If I get to the point where I don't heed it at all, I'll lose it and if I lose it, then I have to start allllllll the way over from the beginning. It's a training process and, though I have a long way to go, I've come a long way. My motivation is still a bit low right now, but my annoyance factor is rising and I have realized it's time to try and get back on the bandwagon. Why not? It's a wagon; there's a band. Good times! This coming Monday is the 15th of the month and 5 months from the Reunion. Even though Monday will come a bit earlier (change your clocks forward that Sunday!), I am ready for it. I'm the type of person to need a checkpoint or something that stands out and marks the day and this 5 month marker should work for me. I have a difficult time getting to the gym on the weekends, especially when I work the midshift (my gym opens later on both days), so it wouldn't be logical to try to begin then. Monday is a day I am more likely going to be able to devote as much time as I need to get started again. I'm also going to take advantage of the free personal training my Y offers, even though it may result in some wonky scheduling for a while. I've noticed that my arms are getting 'soft' around the elbow area, like my gran's used to be. It's hard to describe here but I see it and make the connection of where it is heading. I don't want to go there, so I'm going to encourage someone to make me sweat, cry, beg and work the Hell out. Like Candace, putting this out here is a way of creating accountability for myself. In the end, it's my body and my life and I'm the only one who can live in either. __________________ Gemme's Journal I'm misunderestimated. Last edited by Gemme; 03-12-2010 at 11:01 PM.