[A. Spectre]

after being with someone for many years, residing alone these last few years has been a learning and growing experience.

in the beginning, i was terrified. my partner, my best friend, confidant, sleep mate was.......*whoosh! gone.

after the initial year or so, the idea of not relying on her for my happiness, my breath began sinking in. each morning, i had to wake up and face myself, my loneliness, my struggles.

now, after several years, my confidence, my comfort levels are sustained and i have not not only acclimated, my confidence level has soared.

don't get me wrong, one day i would enjoy having a special someone but more importantly, i have learned to enjoy myself. with this, perhaps i can be a better and improved partner to someone in the future.