Dedications

[yotlyolqualli]

My life has been so chaotic over the past two months, starting with my sister's death until now. Each big blow left obvious damage, but it's the tiny little blows that leaves so many open bleeding wounds. Wounds of self doubt, self judgement, self chastisement and a wondering if anything in my life is real and if it is, am I prepared to deal with the reality of it and if it's not, am I prepared to make it real?

Whenever I feel tears coming, or whenever I feel plagued with self doubt... when that tiny barb keeps ripping at the skin of my soul... this song always, ALWAYS comes to mind. So, I am dedicating this song to me, not as a healing soothing balm, but as a banner, flying out in front of me and over me, assuring me....

All I have to be- Amy Grant

When the weight of all my dreams are resting heavy on my head,
and the thoughtful words of health and hope have all been nicely said
But Im still hurting, wondering if I'll ever be the one I think I am
I think I am

Then You gently re-remind me, that You made me from the first
and the more I try to be the best, the more I get the worse
and I realize the good in me is only there because of who You are
Who You are!

And all I ever have to be is what You've made me!
Any more or less would be step out of Your plan!
As You daily recreate me, help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find
and all I have to be,
All I have to be!
All I ever have to be!
Is what You made me!