My Best Friend

Deborah · 02-01-2010, 03:07 PM

You may not know me but I am not the type to get all sappy on a public forum and those that read my post know I am a professed 'hater' but reading about everyones best friends made me so sad that I had to do this post partly because in my way of thinking my best friend although she is gone will see this somehow and know she will always be a part of me.

You see my best friend is Rebecca, we met in 7th grade she was the new girl coming in the middle of the semester...and she was so pretty...and shy. Now me I wasn't shy (although I have learned to be reserved) so I just quite confidently told her there are 2 boys in the 7th grade and they cant both be my boyfriend so since she was so pretty I knew one of them could be hers...we spent the remainder of the school year trading those two boys back and forth about every 2 weeks...life went on... and that was where my career dancing for juke box quarters in the bowling alley started, Rebecca and I at 13 years old...

I was in her wedding, I was Godmother to her son, I was there when her 4 year old daughter had open heart surgery, I was there through her divorce...I was there through every surgery, every heartbreak, every up and down. Unfortunately the downs were more than Rebecca could handle...as a young teenager she was a cutter, as an adult she was an alcoholic...she tried to be happy but it eluded her...she just couldn't see it or appreciate it...she was ill and there was no one but Rebecca that could help her and she just wasn't strong enough...she gave up that fight a year ago this month by getting into her car in her closed garage and turning on the ignition.

I know at that moment she didn't believe she was loved enough to stay here and fight the fight...but I hope she knows now that I loved her then so very much and did all those 44 years and as the anniversary of that night comes and goes I love her still...and miss her more than I can say...hold those you love dear as I am sure you all do and never miss a chance to tell them...

I love you and miss you Rebecca, till we meet again.

02-01-2010, 03:07 PM	#14
Deborah Member How Do You Identify?: queer femme Preferred Pronoun?: Babydoll is a start.... Relationship Status: Mrs. Livingston 4/20/2013 Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Nashville where my heart belongs... Posts: 611 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,451 Thanked 1,454 Times in 276 Posts Rep Power: 14676215	You may not know me but I am not the type to get all sappy on a public forum and those that read my post know I am a professed 'hater' but reading about everyones best friends made me so sad that I had to do this post partly because in my way of thinking my best friend although she is gone will see this somehow and know she will always be a part of me. You see my best friend is Rebecca, we met in 7th grade she was the new girl coming in the middle of the semester...and she was so pretty...and shy. Now me I wasn't shy (although I have learned to be reserved) so I just quite confidently told her there are 2 boys in the 7th grade and they cant both be my boyfriend so since she was so pretty I knew one of them could be hers...we spent the remainder of the school year trading those two boys back and forth about every 2 weeks...life went on... and that was where my career dancing for juke box quarters in the bowling alley started, Rebecca and I at 13 years old... I was in her wedding, I was Godmother to her son, I was there when her 4 year old daughter had open heart surgery, I was there through her divorce...I was there through every surgery, every heartbreak, every up and down. Unfortunately the downs were more than Rebecca could handle...as a young teenager she was a cutter, as an adult she was an alcoholic...she tried to be happy but it eluded her...she just couldn't see it or appreciate it...she was ill and there was no one but Rebecca that could help her and she just wasn't strong enough...she gave up that fight a year ago this month by getting into her car in her closed garage and turning on the ignition. I know at that moment she didn't believe she was loved enough to stay here and fight the fight...but I hope she knows now that I loved her then so very much and did all those 44 years and as the anniversary of that night comes and goes I love her still...and miss her more than I can say...hold those you love dear as I am sure you all do and never miss a chance to tell them... I love you and miss you Rebecca, till we meet again. __________________ "Slow to trust but I'm quick to love, I push too hard and I give too much, I aint saying I'm perfect, but I promise I'm worth it" "The Good Within Me Honors The Good Within You"