me , myself and my social stigma

[Mormegil]

Thanks for the positive responses. As to where i met the women , some were locals on a dating site. And the one that I was just recently intrested in was at the lgbt church I attend.

I dont go to church all the time , i force myself to go to try and socialize. Its hard for me to go because all of the people cause me alot of anxiety even though they are nice. So i wont be attending service for awhile , but i have started volunteering to groundskeep. I work alone but thats ok.

I have been trying to force myself to socialize for the past few years. But ithe anxiety never completely goes away.

And i have been working on myself. The work on my anxiety is a lifelong task . I tried joining a local group to learn archery , which is a intrest. but the anxiety was to much and i had to leave. I practice calligraphy but thats solo.