The Loft: Butches and Femmes in their 40s, 50s and over.

[TempestuousFemme]

Originally Posted by introverted1

Gosh, not a lot going on here.

I'm missing my mom so bad, now that the two month mark is out. Her apartment is emptied, her mail is coming to my condo, and I'm just marking time, waiting for her last bills to trickle in.

Now, I have lots of time to think. And feel. Nothing to do but wait. The tying up loose ends of eighty-eight years of existence is my duty to her.

This has been my favorite quote since I was twenty years old, but it's really hitting home today.

"There are places in the heart that do not yet exist...and, so into them enters suffering, in order that they may have existence."

Leon Bloy

I totally understand where you're coming from. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner. Every bill, piece of mail, made me cry. I am also trying to make a new life for myself. I wasn't sure what to do with myself after she died. I spent so many years taking care of her. Losing someone you love is never easy. Hang in there, and be patient with yourself. If you ever need a friend I'm on KIK, just drop me a message there.