WHO is on your Mind ... Why?

Nat · 09-15-2010, 06:38 PM

I'm doing better this week, but I had a hard time before, during and after September 5th, which was the birthday of my very troubled junior high / early high school boyfriend who died in a car accident this last May. Every September 5th since I was 15 years old, I've worried about him and wondered how he was and hoped he was doing okay. This year it was like a freight train - but for the first time ever it wasn't worry that I felt - just grief. I'm very glad that after a 7 year gap, we did get to talk again around march of this year. I'm just comforted to have gotten to get the update on his life, to give him the update on mine and just get some perspective on those kids we once were. I know his friends are mourning a Josh I never really knew, and I'm mourning the kid he once was and the kid he never got to be.

waxnrope · 09-15-2010, 06:55 PM

Spirit Dancer and her Syr. I wish that I lived closer and didn't have a bad back. I wish there was more that I could do besides call and nag her to take care. The material does have importantance.

Laerkin · 09-15-2010, 07:33 PM

My mom. I love her so much and I only get to see her once a year.

Christmas (time of my annual visit) is just around the corner, but I miss her. At least we get a week o' fun with her and we have tons of awesome stuff planned.

Spirit Dancer · 09-15-2010, 07:34 PM

First my Syr and hys strength, keeping hope while
we wait for tests.
My extended and chosen family, ya'll are so very special to me and I thank you all for your kindness.

Entycing and Damon
Caleb
Diva
Bass player lefty ST
Wax
Gypsy
Dancing Wolf
WT/TW

My thoughts drift to you and the support you show during our tough times. I'm so honored that we're friends and family.
The BFP people and all their awesomeness.

Gemme · 09-15-2010, 08:12 PM

My honey. He's so good to me.

ruthie14 · 09-15-2010, 08:15 PM

My stepsister who died yesterday at 48 and her children who must now go on without her.

AtLast · 09-15-2010, 11:05 PM

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Originally Posted by ruthie14

My stepsister who died yesterday at 48 and her children who must now go on without her.

I'm sorry, Ruthie.

bright_arrow · 09-16-2010, 12:33 AM

My partner, who is currently asleep beside me.

I'm thinking about her because today we bought those shape-up's. You know, the ones that are supposed to help you tone while you walk? We have been talking about getting in shape for awhile, but now that I live here it is something we can work towards together now, being each others motivation. Grocery shopping involved picking up apples and baby carrots and v8 juice to help us incorporate more fruits and veggies into our diet and to give us healthier alternatives when we want to snack. To save money, we use a list to shop by to try and avoid impulse buys, and have limited eating out.

I guess what I'm saying is I am thinking of her because we've been through a lot this past year and a half, either our own lives or together, and I am thankful to have a supportive partner that I can rely on and trust and believe in. I am thankful to have someone who loves me for me but is also willing to work with me to help me become a better me.

I hope this makes sense because I feel like I am rambling now, but I think I got the point across

Diva · 09-16-2010, 12:44 AM

My Melody..........my Erin............

AtLast · 10-16-2010, 03:39 PM

Missing one that touched my life far too briefly.

09-15-2010, 06:38 PM	#1
Nat Senior Member How Do You Identify?: bigender (DID System) Preferred Pronoun?: he/him or alter-specific Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: Central TX Posts: 3,537 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,047 Thanked 13,970 Times in 2,591 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	I'm doing better this week, but I had a hard time before, during and after September 5th, which was the birthday of my very troubled junior high / early high school boyfriend who died in a car accident this last May. Every September 5th since I was 15 years old, I've worried about him and wondered how he was and hoped he was doing okay. This year it was like a freight train - but for the first time ever it wasn't worry that I felt - just grief. I'm very glad that after a 7 year gap, we did get to talk again around march of this year. I'm just comforted to have gotten to get the update on his life, to give him the update on mine and just get some perspective on those kids we once were. I know his friends are mourning a Josh I never really knew, and I'm mourning the kid he once was and the kid he never got to be. __________________ I'm a fountain of blood. In the shape of a girl. - Bjork What is to give light must endure burning. -Viktor Frankl

09-15-2010, 07:34 PM	#4
Spirit Dancer Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Complex but Tender Preferred Pronoun?: ~Ma`am~ Relationship Status: Shotgun Rider Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Following the red road Posts: 4,519 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,304 Thanked 12,912 Times in 3,466 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	First my Syr and hys strength, keeping hope while we wait for tests. My extended and chosen family, ya'll are so very special to me and I thank you all for your kindness. Entycing and Damon Caleb Diva Bass player lefty ST Wax Gypsy Dancing Wolf WT/TW My thoughts drift to you and the support you show during our tough times. I'm so honored that we're friends and family. The BFP people and all their awesomeness. __________________ “For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.” Judy Garland

09-15-2010, 08:12 PM	#5
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09-15-2010, 06:55 PM	#2
waxnrope Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Permanently Banned 5/27/2011 Preferred Pronoun?: hy ho, hy ho; he, she, it, whatever Relationship Status: Going slow ... Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: in her orifices ... la frontera Posts: 1,433 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,414 Thanked 2,957 Times in 952 Posts Rep Power: 0	Spirit Dancer and her Syr. I wish that I lived closer and didn't have a bad back. I wish there was more that I could do besides call and nag her to take care. The material does have importantance.

09-15-2010, 07:33 PM	#3
Laerkin Member How Do You Identify?: Girlie with a touch of bossy Preferred Pronoun?: She, but not hung up on the details Relationship Status: Parenting our furry family with SmoothButch Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Washington DC Posts: 385 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 772 Thanked 963 Times in 257 Posts Rep Power: 4366971	My mom. I love her so much and I only get to see her once a year. Christmas (time of my annual visit) is just around the corner, but I miss her. At least we get a week o' fun with her and we have tons of awesome stuff planned.

09-15-2010, 08:15 PM	#6
ruthie14 Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: NJ Posts: 844 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,904 Thanked 1,245 Times in 461 Posts Rep Power: 5946335	My stepsister who died yesterday at 48 and her children who must now go on without her.

09-16-2010, 12:33 AM	#8
bright_arrow ☆ the stars are aligned ☆ How Do You Identify?: one queer mama Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Relationship Status: married to my Boo Daddy <3 Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: nor cal Posts: 2,910 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,644 Thanked 9,363 Times in 2,296 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	My partner, who is currently asleep beside me. I'm thinking about her because today we bought those shape-up's. You know, the ones that are supposed to help you tone while you walk? We have been talking about getting in shape for awhile, but now that I live here it is something we can work towards together now, being each others motivation. Grocery shopping involved picking up apples and baby carrots and v8 juice to help us incorporate more fruits and veggies into our diet and to give us healthier alternatives when we want to snack. To save money, we use a list to shop by to try and avoid impulse buys, and have limited eating out. I guess what I'm saying is I am thinking of her because we've been through a lot this past year and a half, either our own lives or together, and I am thankful to have a supportive partner that I can rely on and trust and believe in. I am thankful to have someone who loves me for me but is also willing to work with me to help me become a better me. I hope this makes sense because I feel like I am rambling now, but I think I got the point across

09-16-2010, 12:44 AM	#9
Diva Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Diva Preferred Pronoun?: Diva Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Chez Diva Posts: 11,879 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,263 Thanked 17,174 Times in 5,239 Posts Rep Power: 0	*My Melody..........my Erin............*

10-16-2010, 03:39 PM	#10
AtLast Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Woman Preferred Pronoun?: HER - SHE Relationship Status: Relating Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: CA & AZ I'm a Snowbird Posts: 5,408 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,826 Thanked 10,827 Times in 3,199 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	Missing one that touched my life far too briefly.