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Good job! Keep letting us know how you are doing. Sometimes, knowing you are going to "report in", helps people stay on track.
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It is the same to me as when I quit using other methods before in my life. Stay in the moment, one day at a time and show up to the plate so to speak. It keeps ya goin and honest with yourself..ha No excues I mean..ya know. And thank you for such wonderful support.
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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Day 10 of cutting down
Ok honestly, I thought by this time I would be able to cut down from 5-7 cigs to less than that...But today feels very RAW! So I have decided rather than mess up, I will continue what route I have taken already untill it feels a little better to do so. I think it is better to stay at this point than mess up and smoke more due to nerves. I also realized a big..HUGE.. trigger is my teen son. That sounds bad ...huh? He is very hyper and agrues sometimes is why. He is ADHA and on the 75% level of it. So it effects me right now..just sayin. Anyways, still going strong. I figure it took many years to create this addiction so a little patients with myself is needed. again..thanks for all the support.
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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![]() NEED I SAY MORE...LOL Todays stressers have me on the edge...but still holding strong. This to shall pass..this to shall pass....lol Ya all are probably getting sick of my posts by now huh..lol But it helps to atleast say it..even though in real time..I pace and try to be quiet..as to not advance my emotions .
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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You hit the proverbial nail on head.
This too shall pass...and it always does if you remain motivated. There are no reasons to smoke, just excuses. |
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Well today has been truely a trying day to say the least. However I am still going strong and still on target.
While at the doctors today for my son"14" I was told if the three bumps we found don't go away by next week then more is going to have to be done. Also they think the things coming out of my sons mouth are coming from his lungs. So yes today was a bit nerve wracking. But I still have had only 5 smokes today and by the time i sleep probably add to 6 Just saying.. I am glad today is now in the relaxing hour..smiles
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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I most definately and staying with my program..smiles However today..I streched my limits and have only smoked 3 1/2 so far...so yes I am still hangin on..smiles Thanks for the support BTW This is day 13...cutting down. Smiles
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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I ran out of cigs at noon today and just really want to quit. Right now I'm getting by on e-cigs. God knows what chemicals are in them, but at least they don't smell and don't need an ash tray.
This weekend I bought some really nice dry-clean only blazers and vests, and I don't want them smelling like old cigarettes. So even if I'm cheating with the e-cigs, at least it is breaking me away from the whole ritual of it. I think I like smoking so much partially because it's an excuse to go outside and just be. Maybe I could just burn some incense and be outside instead. Maybe with a book. I definitely like smoke and fire. <3 Best of luck to y'all. It's a freaking hard habit to kick.
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I wanted.
I probably could have killed for one. I wanted. I stood up, cut my break short, went back to work. I don't want quite so much now. |
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I smoked only 3 1/2 smokes all day...I am super suprised in myself.
Will try to keep getting lower than 5-7...but today I am saying..,.IT ROCKED! aND i AM PROUD OF TODAY!
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Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~*~ Author unknown ~*~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~*~ Lady Pamela ~*~ |
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