Light a candle

[Tommi]

For the days and nights ahead where she becomes more and more lost. Seeing her wonder and wander. Hearing her labored breathing as she sleeps on the couch, not wanting to be alone in her bedroom. Estranged for many years, it is strange to be in a house I co-own and hear her labored breathing and see her fragile frail being sleeping feet away. She told me recently that even though I quit claimed the house to her in 2000, she never filed the papers. Another shock.

Last night was too close a call. She was too disoriented to figure out how to hook up to her emergency oxygen tank. I lost my cell phone last week, and am waiting on a replacement. It took me 45 minutes in traffic to get here, all the while thinking I should have called the paramedics. I think she overfilled the humidifier on the electric air concentrator (it was put on the night before and she told me she filled the bottle) ****and her lungs got waterlogged, then by the time she called, she couldn't figure out how to get to the portable oxygen Tank, and turn it on. Over the phone, she was panting, I could hear the oxygen tanks clanging and air hissing, and she not answering until I yelled Peggie ....Hardly breathing she got out the wrong nasal cannula that didn't fit the E Tank, took the connector and tried hooking it into the port on the tank...Finally, as calmly as I could, I just said, connect any tube to the 4 foot tank and stick the tube in your nose. She did and the panic subsided. We were able to focus on getting her hooked to the large emergency tank that had 4 hours on it. Over the phone, We sat for a few mintues of quiet breathing and no talking. giving me time to get there across gridlocked Orange County.

It's 5 AM and she is sleeping peacefully on the couch. I slept in the recliner nearby. This has been repeated many nights since Sept 19, when she called and I rushed her to the ER.

I am attending a Legal and Lifetime Workshop this afternoon at the Alzheimer's Association. She wants me to be Power of Attorney, and make sure she doesn't go to bad places.

My Ex of 21 years isn't losing her mind, she is losing her memory and as we taled about it we wept. I need to know what lies ahead, I guess, I really do know.

For Peggie and Freedom her cat, who watches over her...and for wisdom for me, as to what and when to do what needs to be done. For her children that don't get, or maybe do not want to get the message that Mom and their Gramma is seriously ill, and may never get better.

Please , Send her angels, light and love ...

[Spirit Dancer]

For Tommi and Peggie
Sending you both the strength and energy you need to endure the days ahead, peace for the heart and soul.

For Lady Pamela and her friends

For those who face illnesses and cancer, another day to fight, another day to live and love.

For strength to continue the smile outside, while inside you're falling apart.

[adorable]

For the victims of Auschwitz.

http://www.ushmm.org/


For the current victims of crimes against humanity and sadly, those yet to be.

http://www.hrw.org/


http://www.eliewieselfoundation.org/


“We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.” ~Elie Wiesel

[Turtle]

Sending all the love, and light...
power, strength, and healing that you can handle...

open your spirits and take it all in, feel it to your marrow and know that one day you will be able to make sense of it.

Blessed Be, Amen, and Ashe

[spritzerJ]

MR and EM create a new celebration of your mother today. She was, for us all, a force of love. Blessed be the crone who wonders the see and the breeze.

[Turtle]

Sometimes, this life is horrific,

Sometimes, it is full of blessings too abundant and too beautiful to put into words,

Sometimes, it is quiet and we enjoy that quiet - sometimes we are waiting for the other shoe to drop,

Sometimes, it remains to be seen what it is we are learning,

I am lighting candles tonight for warmth in the spirit to cope with the many facets of this life and the twists and turns that are inevitable...

[Ryobi]

Today was my mom's birthday. The first one she wasn't here for.

I light a candle for her. May her afterlife journey be beautiful and bright.

I light one for her family and friends, who miss her.

I light a candle for my brother in law, who committed suicide this past Oct. (his B-day is tomorrow) May the light show him a better path.

I light one for my sister, 2 nephews, and 2 grand nephews. May they find peace in something none of us (my family) understand.

I light one for a long time friend of mine who committed suicide in Sept. He felt buried with guilt for things he had done at war, it was his way out of going back to war. (his B-day is Thurs) May the light show him peace and understanding.

[Spirit Dancer]

For Tommi and Peggie
Energy for the upcoming days, a light to ignite memory.

For Turtle
A flame infused with energy and peace

For Ryobi and his Mother

For Lady Pamela
May her steps be light and peace be with her decisions.

For A lost friend
Even when darkness threatens to cover you
there is energy and light to guide you back into a safe embrace.

For Clay
New Journey, New Love and Life

For Sir
With Love, unwavering, Unconditional through the roughest times, i'm your beacon.

For My Sage Advisor,
Thank you! Will never be enough!

[Turtle]

Feel the healing strength of God and The Universe all around you,
Know that we are sending healing energy your way,
Feel Loved and Supported,
Blessed Be, Amen, and Ashe

[Sunny]

Today I lit a candle to send peace to those who are suffering. May God put peace upon you. Amen

[MysticOceansFL]

<----- for those who need it.