What are your faults?

[dixie]

I cuss too much, but usually don't care.

I am picky about food. (Although there is an actual reason for this, but I don't usually talk about it, nor do I know exactly how to fix it even though I would like to.)

I tell bad/off-color/gross jokes. I have an odd sense of humor. I use humor at the wrong times or in the wrong ways, to try to cover up my own feelings, no matter the situation or subject matter.

I am sometimes too shy and awkward. (Sometimes comes from my social phobias, sometimes comes from nervousness that is caused by good things...either way has a negative effect.)

I lash out at people when I am hurt/angry/not feeling *heard*.

I don't always know how to communicate my feelings until it is too late and it boils over into anger or hurt feelings.

If I am hurting, I want to hurt others. (Emotionally, not physically.)

I have serious issues of self-worth that need to be worked on.

I try so hard to be perky and cheery, when in reality, I am a very unhappy person. I just really don't like for people to know that, because there is nothing worse to me than the look of pity on someone's face.

I do not love myself, but rather, loathe myself on a level that would scare most people. (Another thing that needs to be worked on.)

I know my faults, most of them anyway. But I do not know how to fix a lot of them. Or am afraid to try, because I am afraid of failure. Which is a fault in itself.

[Ascot]

I set a very high bar for myself and then expect others to leap it with me. I know it's unfair, but I find I'm not willing to lower it.

If, for some reason, any reason, I've perceived someone as ignorant, dumb in a way that indicates they have no desire for continued growth, I tend to summarily dismiss them. I cannot stomach that.

I eat way too much chocolate.

[Amante]

It's weird - my gf arrives in two days for our longest visit ever (2.5 weeks, which will include Meeting the Parents), and a friend's very recent and awful breakup has me obsessing this evening about my faults that are going to make my gf crazy once she finally admits that I'm not perfect:

~ I am a terrible procrastinator, not about everything but about many very key things
~ I am extremely skilled at practicing avoidance with things that I really really need to do, but just don't want to - and if I'm embarrassed that I put it off so long, I'll avoid it even more.
~ Neatness, especially with regard to things like paperwork, is a skill that I put up there with walking on high wires: Clearly some people are capable of it, but I can't fathom how I ever could be, it just seems so impossible.
~ Oversharing and not knowing when to shut up: I never use just 50 words if I can manage to fit in 500
~ Major issues with Imposter Syndrome in my professional life
~ I have ADD which is a little out of control and contributes heavily to a lot of these
~ Somewhat of an addiction to being online, which is something I really do want to address

[puddin']

i'm a clean freak.
i hoard a bit, too.
i have to have a fan on when i sleep, even in winter.