What does ButchFemmePlanet.com mean to me?

[deb0670]

Knowing me, i will prolly be crying like a blubbery idiot by the time i am finished with this post. Tears are already starting..
* Deep breath* This Site... means the world to me. At first i was leery of it only cause i first came out in and with the other site.. and that was the most wonderful place in the world to me. i also made some friends there and started growing into myself.
i joined this site but did not do much posting, or bonding, cause i did not know who anyone was.. there were many name changes that went on this site and i didn't know who to trust.
After some time... i came out of my shell here, and just let things be, and decided that i would not get out of this site what i wanted and needed.. unless i gave it and all y'all a chance.
i am SO thankful i did.
In my darkest hours.. i find peace, comfort, friendship, love. etc.
i have gone thru so much, but i have not gone thru it alone.
i yearn to meet E/everyone in person.. to connect face to face.. and i desperately hope against hope to be able to go the reunion * pauses to blow nose and wipe eyes*
i NEED to connect to people face to face. Did i say.. NEED?
i am still struggling with some things.. some.. too personal to post.. but.. i know.. here.. on this website.. thanks to Medusa and Jack, and everyone else who helps this place function and flow..
i am home.. and.. not alone.
*Wipes eyes once again* Thank You.