So long, T4 Texas, see you in heaven...

SugarFemme · 10-04-2013, 04:28 PM

I am so going to miss you Charlie

Make sure you and Mike have a good time together up there. You are missed.

iamkeri1 · 10-04-2013, 04:54 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. Blessings to you and the rest of his family.
Keri

grenade · 10-04-2013, 05:06 PM

May the road rise to meet you. May the wind always be at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face, the rains fall soft upon your fields, and, until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of his hand.

You are missed, T$.

The_Lady_Snow · 10-04-2013, 05:16 PM

Good Bye Ol' Friend, you will be missed....

Then Almitra spoke, saying, "We would ask now of Death."

And he said:

You would know the secret of death.

But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?

The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light.

If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life.

For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one.

In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond;

And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring.

Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.

Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honour.

Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king?

Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling?

For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun?

And what is to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.

And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.

And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance.

Catch you later Cowboy

little_ms_sunshyne · 10-04-2013, 05:26 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. Will keep family, friends, and loved ones in my thoughts. <3

Gemme · 10-04-2013, 05:47 PM

My condolences.

RIP T4.

Bard · 10-04-2013, 06:05 PM

Rest easy T4 you will be missed
our thoughts and prayers are with all that knew and loved T4

fever · 10-05-2013, 02:26 PM

It speaks to our own mortality when we see our dearly beloved BF folks pass on. First it was Sweet Calico, then Mike, now T4.The chat room has lost some of its sparkle, but I am thankful for all the teasing and wisdom of T4. He helped me through break-ups, teased me about BDSM issues, and was a solid butch who I will always remember.

Sorry for your loss Canela. But, also, for the rest of us on the Planet. He was a keeper.

Candice

DaddyNik12 · 10-05-2013, 03:58 PM

im sorry to hear about t4s passing , my thoughts n prayers go out to friends and family , may his pain be free and soul be playful again .
until we talk again above t4 , your gonna be missed

Breathless · 10-05-2013, 04:31 PM

I am without words. When we talked a little while ago, I thought you were on the mend, doing better, in great spirits I had never considered. I hope you have the peace and painfree that you so deserve!

girlblue · 10-05-2013, 04:36 PM

I've never posted anything in the forums before, and I haven't spent time on this site since meeting Charlie, but I had a feeling one of the folks on her list to call was a member here and might post the news. I see I was right.

I met Charlie last summer, first on this site, and later in person. I never thought I would meet someone from the internet--gasp!--but lo and behold...

These last six months have been alternately hellacious and beautiful. Hellacious because not much is worse than watching someone you love lie in a hospital bed, having pain, then getting a little bit better, then falling down again. But beautiful too in that I was blessed to spend almost every day by her side.

This last week was transformative. I sat by her bedside, holding her hand like she asked me to do, as she faded from this world. I can tell you she died in peace and was made comfortable in her final days. She lost consciousness Tuesday night and her heart stopped beating on Thursday.

She was precious. She was loved. By me, by many of you I see. I wish I had known her longer, but I feel I couldn't have known her better. Our time was profound, our conversations varied and deep. We had fun. We went places and did things. We laughed. We cried. We argued and made up. She was many things to me, but at the end of the day, at the heart of it all, she was my friend. My very dear friend. Canela, I hope to meet you at the service. I, along with her friend of 35 years, spent yesterday making the arrangements. Charlie had asked that in lieu of flowers, anyone who can should make a donation to the kidney disease or cancer charity of your choice.

Please message me if you'd like more details about the service. Once we have the obituary posted online, I will try to put the link here (if that's possible).

My heart is full, if not broken. I was lucky in that I left nothing unsaid, and as far as I know, neither did she. Charlie made me know how much she loved me, right up to the end. What an honor, a blessing, and a gift to be there, to know her, to love her. I will miss her. Something terrible. And I will always, always hold her dear.

Blaze · 10-05-2013, 08:17 PM

~Sigh~ Brings to mind that life is short, friends are important, and that we need to say I love you much more often and louder...
My heart weeps for Canela and Charlies family and friends. But my heart also assures my mind that Charlie is now in a much better place. Gone is the aches and pains, the regrets and the wonder of validations... My friend, your free now, you can run, you can ride, you can fly...
Charlie mentioned many times of this moment, but I don't think we truly are ever ready for it when it comes. For now I say Aloha, and farewell.... You never liked the G**d *ye's, Just a strong Hug and a crossed arm hand shake and that was your joy... Keep them laughing and fill heavens bookshelves with all your wisdom...

Leigh · 10-05-2013, 10:00 PM

RIP T4 - you will certainly be missed.

Arwen · 10-05-2013, 10:09 PM

This made me sad but also happy. Sad that we've lost T4. Happy to see how many lives touched. I chatted with T4 a time or two in chat. Seemed like a lovely human being.

Candles lit for those left behind. I doubt T4 needs one. I think the way will be clear.

always2late · 10-04-2013, 05:17 PM

Rest in peace T4, your kindness and generosity of spirit will be missed.

SnackTime · 10-04-2013, 05:22 PM

I was just thinking about T the other day!

You will be missed but NEVER forgotten!

Rest in Peace T4T!

AB · 10-04-2013, 05:26 PM

My condolences to the family and chosen family of T4!
R.I.P T4
I have fond memories of smoking virtual cigars with you in chat.

10-04-2013, 05:06 PM	#3
grenade Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Full Flavor Femme Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Midwest Posts: 2,929 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,925 Thanked 8,058 Times in 2,121 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	My getaway driver. May the road rise to meet you. May the wind always be at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face, the rains fall soft upon your fields, and, until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of his hand. You are missed, T$.

10-04-2013, 05:16 PM	#4
The_Lady_Snow MILLION $$$ PUSSY How Do You Identify?: Kinky, Raw, Perverted, Uber Queer Alpha Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Iconic Ms. Relationship Status: Keeper of 3, only one has the map to my freckles Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: La Reina del Sur Posts: 22,488 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 32,231 Thanked 80,081 Times in 15,669 Posts Rep Power: 21474874	Good Bye Ol' Friend, you will be missed.... Then Almitra spoke, saying, "We would ask now of Death." And he said: You would know the secret of death. But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life? The owl whose night-bound eyes are blind unto the day cannot unveil the mystery of light. If you would indeed behold the spirit of death, open your heart wide unto the body of life. For life and death are one, even as the river and the sea are one. In the depth of your hopes and desires lies your silent knowledge of the beyond; And like seeds dreaming beneath the snow your heart dreams of spring. Trust the dreams, for in them is hidden the gate to eternity. Your fear of death is but the trembling of the shepherd when he stands before the king whose hand is to be laid upon him in honour. Is the shepherd not joyful beneath his trembling, that he shall wear the mark of the king? Yet is he not more mindful of his trembling? For what is it to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun? And what is to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered? Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing. And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb. And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance. Catch you later Cowboy __________________ "If you’re going to play these dirty games of ours, then you might as well indulge completely. It’s all about turning back into an animal and that’s the beauty of it. Place your guilt on the sidewalk and take a blow torch to it (guilt is usually worthless anyway). Be perverted, be filthy, do things that mannered people shouldn’t do. If you’re going to be gross then go for it and don’t wimp out."---Master Aiden

10-04-2013, 05:47 PM	#6
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10-04-2013, 06:05 PM	#7
Bard Family Man How Do You Identify?: TG Male Preferred Pronoun?: Masculine ones Relationship Status: She just gets me Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: ..... Posts: 2,828 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,997 Thanked 12,786 Times in 2,431 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Rest easy T4 you will be missed our thoughts and prayers are with all that knew and loved T4 __________________ This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill Fifteen percent concentrated power of will Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain And a hundred percent reason to remember the name! Give yourself over to absolute pleasure. Swim the warm waters of sins of the flesh - erotic nightmares beyond any measure, and sensual daydreams to treasure forever. Can't you just see it? Don't dream it, be it.

10-05-2013, 02:26 PM	#8
fever Member How Do You Identify?: stonefemme Relationship Status: single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: near Vancouver, B.C. Canada Posts: 592 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,649 Thanked 1,279 Times in 357 Posts Rep Power: 17783436	In shock It speaks to our own mortality when we see our dearly beloved BF folks pass on. First it was Sweet Calico, then Mike, now T4.The chat room has lost some of its sparkle, but I am thankful for all the teasing and wisdom of T4. He helped me through break-ups, teased me about BDSM issues, and was a solid butch who I will always remember. Sorry for your loss Canela. But, also, for the rest of us on the Planet. He was a keeper. Candice

10-04-2013, 04:28 PM	#1
SugarFemme Member How Do You Identify?: Fierce Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Singular Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Southwest Posts: 1,029 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 650 Thanked 4,460 Times in 854 Posts Rep Power*: 21474851	I am so going to miss you Charlie Make sure you and Mike have a good time together up there. You are missed.

10-04-2013, 04:54 PM	#2
iamkeri1 Member How Do You Identify?: femme woman Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: solo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Central Florida Posts: 905 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 302 Thanked 2,153 Times in 659 Posts Rep Power: 16642920	I am so sorry for your loss. Blessings to you and the rest of his family. Keri

10-04-2013, 05:26 PM	#5
little_ms_sunshyne Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: . Posts: 3,312 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,339 Thanked 12,241 Times in 2,541 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	I am so sorry for your loss. Will keep family, friends, and loved ones in my thoughts. <3

10-05-2013, 03:58 PM	#9
DaddyNik12 Member How Do You Identify?: Butch/Domme Preferred Pronoun?: Sir Relationship Status: still searching for ms right Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Indiana Posts: 580 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 515 Thanked 1,508 Times in 468 Posts Rep Power: 14895927	im sorry to hear about t4s passing , my thoughts n prayers go out to friends and family , may his pain be free and soul be playful again . until we talk again above t4 , your gonna be missed __________________ people with sharp tounges , cut thier own throat !! smirk*

10-05-2013, 04:31 PM	#10
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10-05-2013, 04:36 PM	#11
girlblue Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: Sister Wife* Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Texas Posts: 3 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2 Thanked 21 Times in 2 Posts Rep Power: 0	Losing Charlie I've never posted anything in the forums before, and I haven't spent time on this site since meeting Charlie, but I had a feeling one of the folks on her list to call was a member here and might post the news. I see I was right. I met Charlie last summer, first on this site, and later in person. I never thought I would meet someone from the internet--gasp!--but lo and behold... These last six months have been alternately hellacious and beautiful. Hellacious because not much is worse than watching someone you love lie in a hospital bed, having pain, then getting a little bit better, then falling down again. But beautiful too in that I was blessed to spend almost every day by her side. This last week was transformative. I sat by her bedside, holding her hand like she asked me to do, as she faded from this world. I can tell you she died in peace and was made comfortable in her final days. She lost consciousness Tuesday night and her heart stopped beating on Thursday. She was precious. She was loved. By me, by many of you I see. I wish I had known her longer, but I feel I couldn't have known her better. Our time was profound, our conversations varied and deep. We had fun. We went places and did things. We laughed. We cried. We argued and made up. She was many things to me, but at the end of the day, at the heart of it all, she was my friend. My very dear friend. Canela, I hope to meet you at the service. I, along with her friend of 35 years, spent yesterday making the arrangements. Charlie had asked that in lieu of flowers, anyone who can should make a donation to the kidney disease or cancer charity of your choice. Please message me if you'd like more details about the service. Once we have the obituary posted online, I will try to put the link here (if that's possible). My heart is full, if not broken. I was lucky in that I left nothing unsaid, and as far as I know, neither did she. Charlie made me know how much she loved me, right up to the end. What an honor, a blessing, and a gift to be there, to know her, to love her. I will miss her. Something terrible. And I will always, always hold her dear.

10-05-2013, 08:17 PM	#12
Blaze Senior Member How Do You Identify?: With my drivers Lic. Preferred Pronoun?: Gentleman.. Depends on the Situation. Relationship Status: Last Rodeo, what a ride, many sunrises & sunsets to be had... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: where a realtor had me sign the dotted line Posts: 1,901 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,466 Thanked 5,457 Times in 1,450 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	~Sigh~ Brings to mind that life is short, friends are important, and that we need to say I love you much more often and louder... My heart weeps for Canela and Charlies family and friends. But my heart also assures my mind that Charlie is now in a much better place. Gone is the aches and pains, the regrets and the wonder of validations... My friend, your free now, you can run, you can ride, you can fly... Charlie mentioned many times of this moment, but I don't think we truly are ever ready for it when it comes. For now I say Aloha, and farewell.... You never liked the G*d ye's, Just a strong Hug and a crossed arm hand shake and that was your joy... Keep them laughing and fill heavens bookshelves with all your wisdom...

10-05-2013, 10:00 PM	#13
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	RIP T4 - you will certainly be missed. __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"

10-05-2013, 10:09 PM	#14
Arwen Joy Seeker How Do You Identify?: Smartly-Flavored Preferred Pronoun?: Goddess Relationship Status: Mrs. Syzygy 1/9/14 Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Joyville, NM (aka Land of Enchantment) Posts: 10,140 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,636 Thanked 28,119 Times in 6,414 Posts Rep Power: 21474862	This made me sad but also happy. Sad that we've lost T4. Happy to see how many lives touched. I chatted with T4 a time or two in chat. Seemed like a lovely human being. Candles lit for those left behind. I doubt T4 needs one. I think the way will be clear. __________________ I wrote a book, y'all! *FREE* Tarotscopes Seek Joy, y'all. Eschew hate. 9Words: A Poetry Challenge \| Do you like me?

10-04-2013, 05:17 PM	#15
always2late Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: m'lady Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NJ Posts: 2,000 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,834 Thanked 6,231 Times in 1,462 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Rest in peace T4, your kindness and generosity of spirit will be missed. __________________ Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there ~ Rumi

10-04-2013, 05:22 PM	#16
SnackTime Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Transgender Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: UNattainable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Feeling the ocean breeze... Posts: 4,868 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 10,393 Thanked 13,228 Times in 2,883 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	I was just thinking about T the other day! You will be missed but NEVER forgotten! Rest in Peace T4T! __________________ "There's something to be said for not saying anything"

10-04-2013, 05:26 PM	#17
AB Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: hy Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 131 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 323 Thanked 199 Times in 65 Posts Rep Power: 1504107	My condolences to the family and chosen family of T4! R.I.P T4 I have fond memories of smoking virtual cigars with you in chat.

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