What Do You Miss?

ProfPacker · 03-05-2014, 08:29 PM

Interesting timing, I haven't missed much since the separation but since knowing that I have to have some surgery, I miss knowing that there is that someone who knows me so well and intimately to be there when I need to be transported to or fro. To be there when I first get home, to not have to arrange for these things prior etc. These were the times when she appeared to be a partner.

fatallyblonde · 03-05-2014, 09:45 PM

I DO miss the stereotypical things... because PTSD and FSD have taken so much of them from me... been feeling dead and numb for so long... would like to just feel again and feel easy... butterflies in the stomach... the thrill of anticipation... the little giddiness... melting when she puts her arm around you... the warmth of a hand wrapped around yours... the solid comfort of a shoulder to rest against... feeling intoxicated on another person... I'll never get back the idealism and hope of my youth... but gosh experiencing the sweetness of some of these feelings... last night i was feeling them again... they are lovely. They generally lead to pain, of course, but... at least they prove I'm still human, still alive.

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03-05-2014, 08:29 PM	#1
ProfPacker Member How Do You Identify?: butch/MOC Preferred Pronoun?: Hy/hym/hys but in circumstances like work and some other places she Relationship Status: single Join Date: Sep 2013 Location: nj Posts: 1,365 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,023 Thanked 4,816 Times in 1,187 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Interesting timing, I haven't missed much since the separation but since knowing that I have to have some surgery, I miss knowing that there is that someone who knows me so well and intimately to be there when I need to be transported to or fro. To be there when I first get home, to not have to arrange for these things prior etc. These were the times when she appeared to be a partner.

03-05-2014, 09:45 PM	#2
fatallyblonde Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/Her Join Date: Jan 2014 Location: earth Posts: 446 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 389 Thanked 770 Times in 181 Posts Rep Power: 7054721	I DO miss the stereotypical things... because PTSD and FSD have taken so much of them from me... been feeling dead and numb for so long... would like to just feel again and feel easy... butterflies in the stomach... the thrill of anticipation... the little giddiness... melting when she puts her arm around you... the warmth of a hand wrapped around yours... the solid comfort of a shoulder to rest against... feeling intoxicated on another person... I'll never get back the idealism and hope of my youth... but gosh experiencing the sweetness of some of these feelings... last night i was feeling them again... they are lovely. They generally lead to pain, of course, but... at least they prove I'm still human, still alive.