PTSD and Trauma recovery

[Andrew, Jr.]

Apocalipstic,

I promise that I won't. I had a bill to pay. It came up unexpectedly.

[friskyfemme]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Apocalipstic,

I promise that I won't. I had a bill to pay. It came up unexpectedly.

'I was able to save enough money to buy my niece a nice wedding present. That is why my big toe is giving me trouble.'

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Andrew,
Please see how absurd this is. You are not thinking clearly without your meds. I do understand your shifting back and forth you can not just something that your body is
use to having without consequences. Don't even think about trying this again!

[Princess4u]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Yep. I am back on my meds today, and tomorrow I start the blood draws.

I know its hard with all that PTSD causes us to endure...but try not to stray from your maintance medical routine. As mundane and frustrating as it can be...you know Andrew....that...getting off track can make things worse...I am glad you hear you are getting back on track..and a big ^5 brother...hugz comin to ya

[Princess4u]

Originally Posted by Jet

There is nothing more horrific beyond the trauma itself than facing it alone. This requires faith from every fiber of my being.

Jet,
You are never alone. You know this dear....you are surrounded by love and healing not only from the Lord about and HIS helpers...but from those of us here...I know sometimes you feel so alone because you cant reach out and feel someone or hear their voice, but know that I am there with you and holding you keeping you calm giving you the light and the strength to keep fighting. You are strong you are a survivour you are a pillar of determiniation and a mountain of spiritulality. Keep close to HIM...listent to HIM...love HIM more everyday!

[Andrew, Jr.]

Thank you all for your love and support. I was afraid to tell my adopted sister. She can be a bit overwhelming sometimes. But I did tell her. She pretty much chewed my ass off one cheek at a time, and went back for seconds. It was not pretty. Trust me. At one point I was ready to while she was . I was told to expect a call from my gay brother and his partner this afternoon. I am sure it won't be a call.

[Apocalipstic]

You guyysss....GROUP HUG!

I'm so glad we can come here and share. I am calling and ordering my meds this morning, so I won't run out myself.

I watched a show the other night on lobotomies and thought about how much I wanted to have one back when I was in my teens and 20's and I am so very thankful that I was born when I was and that I have access to medicines that help me be functional instead of ending up WAY worse off.

I am so thanful we have each other.

Jet, I hope your day is peaceful!

Andrew, I am proud of you for getting back on the program!

Pretty Princess! xoxoxoxoxoxo

Spirit Dancer, have been thinking about you this week!

Frisky, you rock!

Everyone else, HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

I am sentimental and weepy today. Way better than being flipped out!

[Jet]

Originally Posted by apocalipstic

You guyysss....GROUP HUG!

I'm so glad we can come here and share. I am calling and ordering my meds this morning, so I won't run out myself.

I watched a show the other night on lobotomies and thought about how much I wanted to have one back when I was in my teens and 20's and I am so very thankful that I was born when I was and that I have access to medicines that help me be functional instead of ending up WAY worse off.

I am so thanful we have each other.

Jet, I hope your day is peaceful!

Andrew, I am proud of you for getting back on the program!

Pretty Princess! xoxoxoxoxoxo

Spirit Dancer, have been thinking about you this week!

Frisky, you rock!

Everyone else, HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

I am sentimental and weepy today. Way better than being flipped out!

It will be okay. I don't know how it will be okay, but it will be o-kay. Just as a side bar...frisky and i go back about 3 years, we had the good fortune of meeting in real time about 2 years ago in Georgia. She's been a terrific listener through all my stuff and she deserves a big hand. Her friendship is steadfast no matter how crazy my story was or is...thanks FF for being so non-judgmental.

j

[Andrew, Jr.]

TGIF!

[Apocalipstic]

TGIF indeed!

Glad to see you all!

[Jet]

After I went through my ordeal, I went into seclusion for 11 years. I rarely saw anybody except my parents; I didn't socialize and I only went to work and the store. Can you imagine? I lived a completely opposite existence from what i knew. I taught myself art those dark years—and it's all I accomplished. With all that's coming back full circle now, I feel that I may go into seclusion again, I can't say for sure. Take care.

[Jet]

One thing I would like to add is that I believe it is imperative to stay physically healthy. I'm pretty staunch about eating healthy, taking supplements and vitamins, and keeping my environment uplifting. I clean my apartment, (I'm a clean freak anyway), fix great dinners and do everything I can to feel better as I move through this. It's easy to fall into slumps or to let things slide. These things help.

[Andrew, Jr.]

My blood sugars are running high. My diet hasn't changed. And I have a call into my doc. I was stupid to play with my blood draws. I learned my lesson.

I am a practicing Buddist/Catholic. It does help me to meditate and pray. Right now my hardest burden is forgiveness. Not for me, but for Rosie and my home (nest). I have to work on this.

Thanks for listening.

Andrew

[Apocalipstic]

Good morning all!

Jet, I think those are great points and ones I think about.

I do go to work every day and get done what I must. I have to be able to take care of myself. Back in my 20's I had a major melt down and was out of work for 6 months and found I was too sick to handle the mental health system. It is easier to go to work every day than to make all the calls and doc appointments to get disability unless you either know how to work the system or have an advocate to do it for you.

I keep some of my vacation back in case I need to take off, but I have had my current job for 12 years.

I have not been as active as I should be, I have a lot of pain with other issues. I have started walking after work and slowing down or stopping for a few minutes if I am in too much pain, then starting again.

Eating right makes a huge difference in how I feet! My system is a wreck when I go near fast food.

Andrew, forgiveness is a hard one, I work on that constantly. I am not even positive I really know what forgiveness means.

Have a great week all! I am working on trying to give myself god thoughts when I start to falter and think negatively.

[Andrew, Jr.]

Apocalipstic,

I am right there with you. Everything you are doing, I am too with one exception - the work. My blood sugars today were over 200. So, I am taking double my meds, per doctor orders. We are hoping that this helps.

As for forgiveness, it is easier to type and say the word than to actually do it. The process. Sometimes the pain is just too overwhelming for me to handle mentally. It just is. No amount of talking about it does much good. Confrontation is out. I just want to be. As simple as it sounds, sometimes it is so very hard to achieve. I know that the simplier the life the better. But when it comes to the mental issues of forgiveness, I have no answers. I pray and mediatate. I hope that God helps me overcome my negativity. I want nothing more than that. But again, easier said than done.

Namaste,
Andrew

[Apocalipstic]

I am still working on the difference between thoughts and feelings, laugh. Maybe after that I can try to look at forgiveness?

Forgiving of others.

and

Forgiveness of myself for not being a stoic Buddha. For not having enough control over my emotions, thoughts and feelings to make this all go away.

I start getting better and then I read something about how our health issues are because of our own thoughts and feelings....and I know that if I were a better person I could control it all better. Must. Work. Harder.


I hope you can get your blood sugar regulated Andrew!

[Spirit Dancer]

Originally Posted by apocalipstic

You guyysss....GROUP HUG!

I'm so glad we can come here and share.

Spirit Dancer, have been thinking about you this week!


Everyone else, HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

I am sentimental and weepy today. Way better than being flipped out!

oh lovely one I only just saw this, thank you very much for your kindness. We're still here so time will tell. Have a beautiful day

[Apocalipstic]

May today be lovely and safe and peaceful!

[Andrew, Jr.]

Amen to that.

[Canela]

Hello my brothers and sisters!

I have been off my own schedule these last few weeks, popping in from time to time just to see how everyone is doing but crazy busy with life and family...

We had a crisis of sorts and I was called upon to tend to an elderly aunt who has diabetes, and she is a stubborn ole gal and wasn't taking care of herself like she should....messing up her sugar count and meds by eating whatever she wanted and the family giving in to her demands to keep her happy--she is 82 this year...the matriarch of our family and she was hiding what was happening to her...

Her foot got horribly infected, the home health nurse called me angry that I should take her to the dr...I did and he sent her directly to the hospital...she refused to let anyone know she was ill that way because she didn't want her foot amputated...ugly truth is it was so bad, it was almost black, and she lost her little toe some where and so they had to amputate the remaining part of it...I know gross right?

Well, I was not happy right then, because her sons should have been on the case for a long time before this and the nurse yelled at me, but I'm glad I was called because I wanted her to go to the hospital and she accepted that finally--she listened to the dr and so now we are waiting for her to get better and hopefully she won't need to have the rest of her foot gone, but dang it's been a little crazy trying to get the rest of the family to stop being enablers and quit bringing her goodies and snacks...dang do these people wanna kill her? Do they want me to kick their butts? lol...I wouldn't do that but I have had to put some people on alert...the sons,especially either they get it together or I am calling adult protective services cuz this is too much and she deserves so much better. I told them either take care of her or I will...

So yeah. With that, going back and forth to the hospital, my father off his diabetes meds too and my daughter with a new job, my youngest in a struggle with her best friends and still volunteering for fundraisers which she does NOT cook for but I have had to, twice this week, and my own job(s), not to mention my poor hunny....well, let's just say, mama is tired...

So pray for us all, as I do for you my friends and family here...I am not neglecting you, just haven't been able to do what I need to...oh did I mention the laundry and housework too??? lol...God is on my side I know this...so...I hope you all are doing well, it sounds that way and I miss you all...



One more thing--don't forget the basket for the reunion raffle in Little Rock...pm me with what you (any of you) would like to add and we will go from there....ok??? I expect to hear from you soon, since we need to start putting our things together and I will ship it (on the off chance I can't make it after all)...I am trying I swear I am.

Love to all, I am going to bed soon...thank God.

Sleep well everyone...see you again soon.

Shug

[friskyfemme]

Hello all trauma survivors....Big Hugs...
Just wanna say I have included you all in my healing ceremony...It is a very powerful ceremony at the full moon. I have also added you into my Medicine Wheel. The Healing energy is right in front of you allow it to enter. Go to a quiet place when your ready. Close your eyes. Raise head up. Open your mouth and breathe in the white Light. Hold it inside for a few seconds and feel the warmth illuminating inside. Blow your breathe out. Great Spirit blesses you. Repeat as necessary.