What is on your mind

[Inked_Trinity]

Originally Posted by Incubus

Planks...go figure!

DAMN!!!! I do these every workout! They kill me!

[Leigh]

I guess right now whats on My mind is being concerned about the swelling in My feet and legs (damn diabetes!). I gotta go to an urgent walk in clinic at a local hospital just to see if there may be anything wrong ~ I hope not, but until I know for sure what is going on I'm pretty on edge!

[J. Mason]

I miss talking to her and trying to find where to post a thread about dating women with kids........

anyone help?

Originally Posted by Yellow band

[COLOR=darkgreen]MMMMM! nice muscles. I didn't hear a word he said.

He's a purty boy isn't he

Originally Posted by Inked_Trinity

DAMN!!!! I do these every workout! They kill me!

They're killing me too...I'm banking on 80-100miles a week on my bike and daily planks might just get me my flat belly again

[oblivia]

She got the job!!!! And starts Thursday! Hooray!!

Originally Posted by oblivia

Sparx is at on her way, right now, to an interview that sounds REALLY promising for a full time job. She's been trying to get a full-time day-job (min wage or higher) that is not stand-up work for *three years*. This interview (at 2pm.... 25 mins from now, not that I'm counting) is for a job that would be completely perfect for her and potentially be the job she stays at ... forever... seriously. She's had a brutal job hunt. A year of unemployment and hunting with no really great leads, followed by the last two years working p/t as a cashier for the busiest grocery store in the lower mainland here in BC.... she's SO ready for a good job.... I can't think of anything else right now.... focus, shmocus... I just want my baby to get this great job!

*CROSSING EVERYTHING*

[ArkansasPiscesGrrl]

What's on my mind today? Unfortunately it is not the work I am supposed to be doing, or the writing assignment my sponsor gave me (and that will be due on Friday!), or the fact that I really need to hit the shower and get going on my day. Instead, I am poking around BFP, or playing Bejeweled, or keeping an eye on the Rachel Ray show. I am not feeling the self-discipline that is needed in a self-employed person. Arrrgggh!
On a brighter note, here is hoping that you all have a GREAT Wednesday!

[AtLast]

I started out very excited about a woman I have been seeing and thinking about what may be possible. May seem silly, but I was even excited to do a bit of a change on my profile relationship status line- at least a smiling face. It really is difficult to meet someone around my age with similar values and interests that I am attracted to. It has been a very long time and a few years of sporadic dating that has had more "no's" than "yesses" (but hey, finding a good match is not easy- especially at my age)! So, I guess I was a bit giggly goofy...

Then, POW.... BS smacked me in the face and I began to go back into the my place of discontent with how we can treat each other here in very cruel and unfair ways. Especially when discussing wounding and sensitive issues in our lives within queerdom.

I usually can let things go- and more often than not, tend to try and smooth things over. But this morning I felt so victimized by someone in an area that is deeply sensitive to me, I fought back. It actually felt good in terms of standing up for myself. Yet, it is in an area of our community that has been fraught with division and strife and pain. But, I just had it with turning the other cheek and/or trying to post without offending (as there are so many people here that I call friend in real-time that I will often protect even if it means not being myself posting).

I have gone through some very difficult things the past 4 years that have knocked me off my feet. No, I don't think that other people are not/have not had their share of rough times. But, I tend to minimize and even dismiss my own pain in order to achieve peace- which I now realize is not serving me well. In fact, this usually just builds up only to explode. Not a good thing. Yet, I am finished with letting some things go that are connected to who I am deeply.

For the life of me, I do not understand some of the "wars" that we (yes, me too) get going on the site. I can only figure out what is up for myself, then go on. I have lost so many in my lifetime due to actual death and suffering bey6ond imagination, I guess I am not as compassionate with others- I tend to just not "suffer fools well" and as I age, this is more and more true.

I have taken care of people all of my life- from a disabled sister, dying siblings and parents, my brother's child and a partner that was very ill and died. I am going to be self-focused now. I am 60 years old, been tossed to hell and back financially even by bio-family and am just not taking it anymore. Not in real-time, not here (but not in a manner contrary to the TOS I agreed to as a member).

Oh, well... I did change my profile.... and am hopeful that things (that really do matter) will settle down soon. What I do know is that I will continue to stick up for myself and call out unfair treatment. This is my community, too.

[ruffryder]

Don't make someone a priority when you are only an option.

[BullDog]

How very happy I am. How important it is to keep the toxic people out and let the good in. How keeping my nose clean and pushing myself to the limits was so worth it. How lucky I am. Lots of good thoughts.

[sweetfemme247]

wondering if there is anyone out there that will look past my imperfections and love me for me

[tapu]

To keep my mind occupied (very important to the well-being of anyone whose orbit touches mine), I am re-engineering the flatware of yesterday to bring it more in line with modern usage and style considerations.


I have a full set of implements here on my desk before me. Beginning analysis....


(hey julie, got any rit?)

[tapu]

Originally Posted by ruffryder_0187

Don't make someone a priority when you are only an option.

This is something that, right now, I need to think about. Thanks, ryder.

[Just_G]

I have officially flipped the fuck out! God give me the strength to calm down and get it together! Great googly moogly!!

[Leigh]

Just alot of general life things *nods*

[Sassy]

He said he was confused and wanted clarity. Silly me. I forgot who I was talking to. I gave him some very direct clarity. Turned out, all he wanted was to drag me into the drama so he could point and scream," See! See! They're all meanie heads!" Geesh. He basically got mad because I told him to call someone and apologize like an adult instead of perpetuating the texting/facebook drama. ... yeah, that's me. Always thinking I can actually say what is on my mind.

[pajama]

Thankful for OT shifts I was able to schedule into for the next schedule period. 1 extra day every week 'til mid October. Still only work 4 days a week, but knowing that I have that shift lets me breathe easy. Time to start saving.

I AM going to Italy next year.

[AtLast]

Not a great day. This evening, I started having Ménière’s episodes of vertigo, nausea, ringing and imbalance. Some pops in the ole' ear affected, too. I haven't had this happen in quite a long time (in remission for about 6 years) and not such severe vertigo and nausea. But, my niece also has Ménière’s in both ears and has had a very rough time with it throughout the years and lost quite a bit of hearing. I have only lost a little. So, I am grateful that mine has not been as chronic or severe.

So, I can't drive, obviously, but I live close to a BART (our public transportation system) and ought to be able to navigate a walk there in a pinch. But, maybe this episode will be brief. If not in a couple of days, I will have to go to the docs for some medication for the vertigo- but decongestants might help without having to do so. Just have to see.

In the past, these episodes have coincided with stress and anxiety. Great.... but could be. Changes in barometric pressure and sinus infection could be going on, except, I don't feel like my sinuses are infected. And I do know that feeling. But I do have an ear ache.

[lillith]

That despite cliches, they are often true...like, love finds you when you aren't looking and it is often the one you least except. *thoughtful far-off stare* yeah, love is...

[Wryly]

When I was grocery shopping earlier I noticed a rather nice looking butch. While it is always great to see a butch so comfortable being hymself I couldn't help but wonder where the heck all the femmes are. I see a lovely woman and wonder, ya know?
jeez - - when I was younger I thought this would be easier.

[Inked_Trinity]

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! Just when I thought my elbow was healing.... I aggravated it tonight working out. Sitting here with an ice pack on it. Damn it! Doesn't it know I have to fight in 2 months!