What is on your mind - Page 349

Leigh · 12-21-2011, 04:43 PM

I'm tired of getting strung along by people!!!!!!!!!!

Inked_Trinity · 12-21-2011, 05:10 PM

Tentative date for my next Fight Night...... March 17th!!!! Time to train!

Skittlesluver · 12-21-2011, 05:26 PM

Beaches

Sassy · 12-21-2011, 05:34 PM

Ramblings no one will understand, but it makes me laugh a little to write:
===========================

S held hostage: Day 10

The rank and file masses are fewer and fewer every day. I suspect poison is the culprit. They entice the workers to eat the sweetened fried dough rings. And when they leave at the end of the day they don't return.
The talking heads haven't been seen in nearly a week. I suspect they're cloistered away in their respective mansions, gorging on fine food and wine and plotting how they can get more for less out of the worker bees in the coming new year.
As for me, it's as if I don't exist. But I know that isn't the case. If don't get everything done that's expected of me there will be severe consequences. People dash by without a word or a smile. The building is empty and still I'm here, plodding along like a good corporate citizen, a worker bee quietly buzzing in the background, oil the machine, pet the machine, make the machine happy.
Did anyone else out there ever play that game, Paranoia? It was an RPG from way back. "The corporation is your friend. You are property of the corporation."
I feel like a clone.

===========================
Translation: I'm on day 10 of an 11 day stretch at work. Long damn week, long damn days. And definitely no thanks or appreciation for my efforts. The big wigs are all away on holiday. Me and my staff are killing ourselves to get the daily crap done -- a hard job when other departments seem to be unwilling or unable to do their part. And when the big wigs get back, not only will they criticize and abuse me and mine for our failings (...can't let the peons think they're actually capable of anything. they'll start thinking they deserve to be treated reasonably...), but they will remind us all to be thankful for the abuse as they send us out the door to take a cold week off without any pay so that the gods of corporate can afford their ambrosia and liposuction. Methinks I passed jaded a long time ago. Hey baby, that's the news.

Julien · 12-21-2011, 05:47 PM

My Baby Girl...as always

TheDreadPirateRoberts · 12-21-2011, 05:49 PM

christmas is on my mind a lot....wishing i could physically be with my fam to spend christmas morning with them....and trying tp map out how to get things finished over the next day or 2 ....

mplsgrrl · 12-21-2011, 06:09 PM

Her. I wonder if she knows. I wonder if she cares.

Sassy · 12-21-2011, 10:19 PM

I got a phone call from her in New Orleans today. She was manic-y and babbling and all over the place in her conversation. And broke. And panicking. And generally not making sense.

My BFF is spiraling -- no wait, has spiraled out of control. There is nothing I can do to stop it.

I feel angry, because her brain works against her to make her this unstable person at the worst possible times.

I feel lonely, because she's who I usually talk to. And she isn't here.

I feel guilty, because I'm so very weary of picking up the broken pieces and putting them back together.

I feel resentful.

And I feel very, very sad.

Random · 12-21-2011, 11:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by JackMcGrath

When you say, "I love you".. is that what you truly mean/feel?

Say it often and mean it always...

If you don't mean it, then just say adore... it's sort of *love lite*

sylvie · 12-21-2011, 11:18 PM

- Distancing.

It's difficult to do, sometimes..
Weeding negatives out of my life where i can. One major negative for me is my father. His alcoholism of course played a huge role in how he acts towards me today.. He doesn't accept that i am changing for the better and tries to knock me down each chance he gets.. Unsuccessfully, though.

i think i have walked far enough on this journey that i can safely say i am continuing to do better for ME.. And the people who aren't supportive of the positive changes i am making, won't be allowed to drag me down any further.. And i know, when it comes to my father, it pains me to say it, but i just can't allow it anymore.. The anger and frustration he brings me with mere words, he triggers me... plain & simple..

Distancing is necessary...He should want my well-being.. i've always wanted his..

- Anyway, moving forward...
& sooooooooooooooooooo ready for the next exciting chapter in my life!
This has been one helluva journey, thus far..

girl_dee · 12-22-2011, 08:12 AM

How incomplete i feel when away from her even though it's only for a short time.

PinkieLee · 12-22-2011, 08:54 AM

At this very moment, I am thinking having a 4 day weekend without pay sounds a whole lot better than being stuck working during the holidays. Yes, quality of life just might trump making money.

JustLovelyJenn · 12-22-2011, 10:02 AM

I hate being sick...

TheDreadPirateRoberts · 12-22-2011, 10:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by JustLovelyJenn

I hate being sick...

me too! ....i want to make it go away...

theoddz · 12-22-2011, 10:14 AM

Mother has decided that she is going to make an honest effort to learn how to use her new laptop computer. I told her that I would help her.

This morning, she came to me in my office, carrying a bag of dried figs we bought at the Costco, wanting to visit the company's web site to get some recipes for the figs. She says they are "too dry and tough" to just eat out of the bag.

Mother has been resistant, so far, to learning how to use her computer and the internet, but this recent "need to know" may be the motivator she needs in order to drag her (kicking and screaming) into the 21st Century!!!

I have told her that, at nearly 90 years old, she should be smarter than a 2nd grader, as they are teaching kids this age to use a computer. Mother, with her Master's degree in Education, should be able to catch right on to it!!!

Rock on, Mother!!!

~Theo~

Scorp · 12-22-2011, 10:51 AM

Some may have noticed that I haven't been online in a long while. I've been in somewhat of a funk over the last few months. Sometimes I don't realize how time goes by. I've been dealing with family bullshit, sickness and everyone wanting a piece of me with trying to fix situations and fix people. Story of my fuckin' life.

I wish the fuck people would try and help themselves and their situations rather than want to ignore shit like it will go away. You feel beat up on the inside and now it's come to me finally being done.

I can't do it anymore and the rest is up to everyone else. Take ownership and do something about your situation(s) and your life. I can't be your oxygen or help you if you're not willing to help yourselves. We've done just about everything for you and that's what the problem probably is/was. Fuckin' expectations.

I've become numb and just doing my thing now and concentrating on me and my household.

To be honest, I have some Christmas spirit but honestly, not much. Which I must say, my motto in regard to life is: Treat people the way you want to be treated all year round. Don't wait for a Holiday or special occasion.

Because of everything whirling around me you don't realize how time does fly. I'm usually better prepared for the holidays and this year we haven't even sent out Christmas/Holiday cards.

I made a last minute decision yesterday. I decided that my wife should be able to spend the holiday (which is celebrated very big) in MN with her family. We are able to get a major deal with our friend who is a flight attendant. That's my present to her. Her family is wonderful and there is NO drama. It's a very peaceful environment and they are good people. Sometimes it seems too surreal of what a normal family atmosphere is.

We will be there for 3 days only, but it doesn't matter. It will be 3 days of happiness especially for my wife as she/we will be with her loving family.

Dominique · 12-22-2011, 11:23 AM

It's not always about money.

. I love living in Pittsburgh. I think it's a great city to live in and love telling people who visit here, all of the great places to go and MUST places to see. I've been thinking about this for a couple of years. I'd like to spend part of my life as a *JUST DUCKY* tour guide and take people around in those goofy amphibian DUCK boats, and show them what a great town this is.

Today, I took ONE more operator license test, to get me closer to doing this.

Inked_Trinity · 12-22-2011, 11:27 AM

LEFT OVERS!!!!! From the Christmas party here at work...... all kinds of stuff in the fridge! GOOD GOD! Strawberry cheesecake! Damn good thing I'm going to the gym tonight!

Butterbean · 12-22-2011, 11:57 AM

Blossom completely luvs "Star" from the Sprout channel.

ruby_woo · 12-22-2011, 01:21 PM

Completely distracted at work today. We've decided to throw in the towel on getting any work done, and sit around one of the meeting rooms later this afternoon watching Elf, eating cookies, and drinking Bailey's. One of my coworkers is wearing a red snuggie with a Santa hat at her desk. She looks like Papa Smurf.

12-21-2011, 04:43 PM	#6961
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	I'm tired of getting strung along by people!!!!!!!!!! __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"

12-21-2011, 05:10 PM	#6962
Inked_Trinity Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: BadAss! / Sarcastic Bastard! Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: Earth Posts: 2,352 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,507 Thanked 6,926 Times in 1,818 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Tentative date for my next Fight Night...... March 17th!!!! Time to train! __________________ Tell me I can't do it.. then stand back and watch me amaze you.

12-21-2011, 05:26 PM	#6963
Skittlesluver Member How Do You Identify?: Casual Dreamer Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Deep In The Heart Of Texas Posts: 233 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 190 Thanked 561 Times in 191 Posts Rep Power: 8243082	Beaches __________________ “Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish"

12-21-2011, 05:34 PM	#6964
Sassy Member How Do You Identify?: Female Relationship Status: Together Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: In the sunshine Posts: 598 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 815 Thanked 1,929 Times in 460 Posts Rep Power: 19641163	The hysteria is starting to set in.... Ramblings no one will understand, but it makes me laugh a little to write: =========================== S held hostage: Day 10 The rank and file masses are fewer and fewer every day. I suspect poison is the culprit. They entice the workers to eat the sweetened fried dough rings. And when they leave at the end of the day they don't return. The talking heads haven't been seen in nearly a week. I suspect they're cloistered away in their respective mansions, gorging on fine food and wine and plotting how they can get more for less out of the worker bees in the coming new year. As for me, it's as if I don't exist. But I know that isn't the case. If don't get everything done that's expected of me there will be severe consequences. People dash by without a word or a smile. The building is empty and still I'm here, plodding along like a good corporate citizen, a worker bee quietly buzzing in the background, oil the machine, pet the machine, make the machine happy. Did anyone else out there ever play that game, Paranoia? It was an RPG from way back. "The corporation is your friend. You are property of the corporation." I feel like a clone. =========================== Translation: I'm on day 10 of an 11 day stretch at work. Long damn week, long damn days. And definitely no thanks or appreciation for my efforts. The big wigs are all away on holiday. Me and my staff are killing ourselves to get the daily crap done -- a hard job when other departments seem to be unwilling or unable to do their part. And when the big wigs get back, not only will they criticize and abuse me and mine for our failings (...can't let the peons think they're actually capable of anything. they'll start thinking they deserve to be treated reasonably...), but they will remind us all to be thankful for the abuse as they send us out the door to take a cold week off without any pay so that the gods of corporate can afford their ambrosia and liposuction. Methinks I passed jaded a long time ago. Hey baby, that's the news.

12-21-2011, 05:47 PM	#6965
Julien Member How Do You Identify?: TG/GenderQueer Preferred Pronoun?: I'm flexible, but only up to a point. Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Alabama, Gulf Coast area Posts: 1,007 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,247 Thanked 2,702 Times in 737 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	My Baby Girl...as always __________________ Julien “Self-plagiarism is style.” Alfred Hitchcock Formerly known as Graphiteta2s

12-21-2011, 05:49 PM	#6966
TheDreadPirateRoberts Member How Do You Identify?: self made Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: perfectly content with true love Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Here&There Posts: 576 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 407 Thanked 895 Times in 487 Posts Rep Power: 6114335	christmas is on my mind a lot....wishing i could physically be with my fam to spend christmas morning with them....and trying tp map out how to get things finished over the next day or 2 ....

12-21-2011, 06:09 PM	#6967
mplsgrrl Junior Member How Do You Identify?: low-maintenance femme Preferred Pronoun?: she, her Relationship Status: single Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Minneapolis Posts: 23 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 96 Thanked 42 Times in 17 Posts Rep Power: 782260	Her. I wonder if she knows. I wonder if she cares.

12-21-2011, 10:19 PM	#6968
Sassy Member How Do You Identify?: Female Relationship Status: Together Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: In the sunshine Posts: 598 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 815 Thanked 1,929 Times in 460 Posts Rep Power: 19641163	I got a phone call from her in New Orleans today. She was manic-y and babbling and all over the place in her conversation. And broke. And panicking. And generally not making sense. My BFF is spiraling -- no wait, has spiraled out of control. There is nothing I can do to stop it. I feel angry, because her brain works against her to make her this unstable person at the worst possible times. I feel lonely, because she's who I usually talk to. And she isn't here. I feel guilty, because I'm so very weary of picking up the broken pieces and putting them back together. I feel resentful. And I feel very, very sad.

12-21-2011, 11:18 PM	#6970
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	- Distancing. It's difficult to do, sometimes.. Weeding negatives out of my life where i can. One major negative for me is my father. His alcoholism of course played a huge role in how he acts towards me today.. He doesn't accept that i am changing for the better and tries to knock me down each chance he gets.. Unsuccessfully, though. i think i have walked far enough on this journey that i can safely say i am continuing to do better for ME.. And the people who aren't supportive of the positive changes i am making, won't be allowed to drag me down any further.. And i know, when it comes to my father, it pains me to say it, but i just can't allow it anymore.. The anger and frustration he brings me with mere words, he triggers me... plain & simple.. Distancing is necessary...He should want my well-being.. i've always wanted his.. - Anyway, moving forward... & sooooooooooooooooooo ready for the next exciting chapter in my life! This has been one helluva journey, thus far.. __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney

12-22-2011, 08:12 AM	#6971
girl_dee Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: dee Relationship Status: Hitched up Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Livin’ the Dream Posts: 24,079 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,560 Thanked 54,846 Times in 13,915 Posts Rep Power: 21474873	How incomplete i feel when away from her even though it's only for a short time.

12-22-2011, 08:54 AM	#6972
PinkieLee Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: I need ya boo, gotta see ya boo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Big Money Texas Posts: 4,708 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 24,309 Thanked 13,074 Times in 3,049 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	At this very moment, I am thinking having a 4 day weekend without pay sounds a whole lot better than being stuck working during the holidays. Yes, quality of life just might trump making money.

12-22-2011, 10:02 AM	#6973
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,993 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	I hate being sick... __________________ --Jenn

12-22-2011, 10:14 AM	#6975
theoddz Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Cranky Old Poop Preferred Pronoun?: Mr. Beast Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Central Texas Posts: 3,532 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,086 Thanked 9,941 Times in 2,507 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Mother has decided that she is going to make an honest effort to learn how to use her new laptop computer. I told her that I would help her. This morning, she came to me in my office, carrying a bag of dried figs we bought at the Costco, wanting to visit the company's web site to get some recipes for the figs. She says they are "too dry and tough" to just eat out of the bag. Mother has been resistant, so far, to learning how to use her computer and the internet, but this recent "need to know" may be the motivator she needs in order to drag her (kicking and screaming) into the 21st Century!!! I have told her that, at nearly 90 years old, she should be smarter than a 2nd grader, as they are teaching kids this age to use a computer. Mother, with her Master's degree in Education, should be able to catch right on to it!!! Rock on, Mother!!! *~Theo~* __________________ *"All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost."* -- J. R. R. Tolkien

12-22-2011, 10:51 AM	#6976
Scorp Italian Stallion How Do You Identify?: DNA Usually... Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: In a van, down by the river.. Posts: 2,702 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,557 Thanked 4,714 Times in 1,263 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Some may have noticed that I haven't been online in a long while. I've been in somewhat of a funk over the last few months. Sometimes I don't realize how time goes by. I've been dealing with family bullshit, sickness and everyone wanting a piece of me with trying to fix situations and fix people. Story of my fuckin' life. I wish the fuck people would try and help themselves and their situations rather than want to ignore shit like it will go away. You feel beat up on the inside and now it's come to me finally being done. I can't do it anymore and the rest is up to everyone else. Take ownership and do something about your situation(s) and your life. I can't be your oxygen or help you if you're not willing to help yourselves. We've done just about everything for you and that's what the problem probably is/was. Fuckin' expectations. I've become numb and just doing my thing now and concentrating on me and my household. To be honest, I have some Christmas spirit but honestly, not much. Which I must say, my motto in regard to life is: Treat people the way you want to be treated all year round. Don't wait for a Holiday or special occasion. Because of everything whirling around me you don't realize how time does fly. I'm usually better prepared for the holidays and this year we haven't even sent out Christmas/Holiday cards. I made a last minute decision yesterday. I decided that my wife should be able to spend the holiday (which is celebrated very big) in MN with her family. We are able to get a major deal with our friend who is a flight attendant. That's my present to her. Her family is wonderful and there is NO drama. It's a very peaceful environment and they are good people. Sometimes it seems too surreal of what a normal family atmosphere is. We will be there for 3 days only, but it doesn't matter. It will be 3 days of happiness especially for my wife as she/we will be with her loving family.

12-22-2011, 11:23 AM	#6977
Dominique Member How Do You Identify?: Female/Lesbian/half the athlete I used to be Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Relationship Status: Dates Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: So proud to be a Pittsburgher Posts: 1,484 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,645 Thanked 3,730 Times in 1,166 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	It's not always about money. . I love living in Pittsburgh. I think it's a great city to live in and love telling people who visit here, all of the great places to go and MUST places to see. I've been thinking about this for a couple of years. I'd like to spend part of my life as a JUST DUCKY tour guide and take people around in those goofy amphibian DUCK boats, and show them what a great town this is. Today, I took ONE more operator license test, to get me closer to doing this. __________________ As long as there was coffee in the world, how bad could things be??

12-22-2011, 11:27 AM	#6978
Inked_Trinity Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: BadAss! / Sarcastic Bastard! Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: Earth Posts: 2,352 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,507 Thanked 6,926 Times in 1,818 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	LEFT OVERS!!!!! From the Christmas party here at work...... all kinds of stuff in the fridge! GOOD GOD! Strawberry cheesecake! Damn good thing I'm going to the gym tonight! __________________ Tell me I can't do it.. then stand back and watch me amaze you.

12-22-2011, 11:57 AM	#6979
Butterbean Member How Do You Identify?: ---- Preferred Pronoun?: ---- Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: ----- Posts: 1,143 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,417 Thanked 2,217 Times in 772 Posts Rep Power: 17690476	Blossom completely luvs "Star" from the Sprout channel.

12-22-2011, 01:21 PM	#6980
ruby_woo Member How Do You Identify?: queer femme Preferred Pronoun?: her/she Relationship Status: single Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 427 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,848 Thanked 1,941 Times in 376 Posts Rep Power: 17615392	Completely distracted at work today. We've decided to throw in the towel on getting any work done, and sit around one of the meeting rooms later this afternoon watching Elf, eating cookies, and drinking Bailey's. One of my coworkers is wearing a red snuggie with a Santa hat at her desk. She looks like Papa Smurf.