What is on your mind - Page 460

WolfyOne · 11-11-2012, 09:42 AM

I was going to hang out and do my chores in a tee shirt and my boxer briefs, not wanting to dress at all today. After all, there is no one here, but me and the rescues. There was a down pouring with a light show going on outside and I still didn't feed the trailer park kitties. So, after the show outside ended, I put on my sweat pants and took that daily cup of food out and sure enough, there was already a kitty out there waiting for breakfast. I couldn't pour the cat food quick enough as he kept nudging my hand as if he was helping me pour it faster. I'm thankful the Universe and Mother Nature helps me find a way to help the outside kitties and my inside ones even when I'm not sure if I have enough to feed all of them on any given day.

When I came back inside, I decided to tackle the litter boxes. Done deal, procrastination is over and my laundry is in the dryer. Had another cuppa coffee and a bowl of oatmeal. I am now looking forward to a day filled with football games. Happily, I get to see my team play on TV tonight in this state because it's a regularly scheduled Sunday night game for NBC...yay!!!

DMW · 11-11-2012, 01:58 PM

Priorities...priorities...i gotta stay away from this place... and get some important stuff done!

Massive · 11-11-2012, 02:02 PM

Inclusion and Exclusion

spritzerJ · 11-11-2012, 02:07 PM

That feeling of "you can't go back but you can't stay here"nature. it is unsettling. The feeling of no on there knows me anymore and no one here really knows me.

oooh it blows!

Hollylane · 11-11-2012, 02:09 PM

How awesome my Handsome Ravens fan is for giving up her computer, so that we can watch our games together.

JustLovelyJenn · 11-11-2012, 02:42 PM

There are a lot of things on my mind....

... happy memories from the past
... hopes for the future
... remembering patience
... a few "I told you so"s
... wanting a fast forward button on life
... worries for my son
... plans for the day.

Leigh · 11-11-2012, 02:47 PM

Thinking about my future

little_ms_sunshyne · 11-11-2012, 11:23 PM

Dreaming

nice to play the what if game sometimes

Leigh · 11-12-2012, 12:05 PM

Thinking about the news my mom gave me this morning, it sucks ass

JustLovelyJenn · 11-12-2012, 12:25 PM

Making hard decisions...

ruffryder · 11-12-2012, 12:30 PM

perhaps a change of career again or perhaps back to what I used to do in Sales or Recruiting. Just thinking about my lil family's security and safety.

Jess · 11-12-2012, 12:33 PM

interview... audition... momma... paint... hardwood floors... hand painted lanai... happy girl... pesto...

starryeyes · 11-12-2012, 04:27 PM

Last night, my ferret Smokey started walking funny. I took him to the vet this morning and they are telling me he had a stroke

he also has a new heart murmur or leaky valve so he is going too the vet again tomorrow for x-rays. Ugh. Today sucked. He is on my mind

Bard · 11-12-2012, 04:50 PM

a deer got hit last night at work she was in the middle of the road and she was badly injured but not dead.. we had to go and shoot her I know she was suffering but damn those big eyes looking right at me

WolfyOne · 11-12-2012, 05:00 PM

I got my work schedule for Thanksgiving weekend and it blows bubbles. I won't be doing Thanksgiving anywhere this year because I have to be at work Thanksgiving night at 8:30pm. We open at 9pm and I have to stay until 6am Friday morning. It means I have to stay awake hella long time to readjust my sleep hours for my next work day. Saturday I have to be there at 6am. Fills up my entire weekend with crappy. I'm not used to working overnights and then have to turn around and come back for my regular shift. Somewhere between getting off work Wednesday and my Thanksgiving shift, I have to have regular sleep and probably a power nap, so I can just keep going without wanting to go to sleep during that overnight shift. I really dislike retail, but I really miss not being able to share holidays with loved ones...looking forward to the day I leave OK.

jac · 11-12-2012, 07:56 PM

her
truffles
ball caps
jeans
coats
haircuts
thanksgiving
work
movies

JustLovelyJenn · 11-12-2012, 08:54 PM

No one on the outside can really understand what its like in my house. Yes, its usually cluttered. Yes, we yell sometimes. Yes, there are things that we just let go... because its not worth the fight. BUT... every day we manage an 8 year old boy who doesn't understand social expectation, limitations, or reasoning. He doesn't adjust to change, he can't grasp the concepts that most children in his class have had mastered for years. This same child, is smarter then most of those children will ever be. He looks normal, he sounds normal and to all outside eyes... I'm sure it looks like his problems are in how things happen in our house. In reality... the way things happen in our house, is the only reason he functions in society at all. EVERY, and when I say every I mean more then 5, professional we have talked to agrees that we (my mother and I) are doing all that we possibly can to advocate and support this amazing and challenging child. This includes allowing my 10 year old daughter move out of my home and in with her father.

SO today whats on my mind is how frustrating it is that his fathers fiance still thinks that somehow I am not doing what is needed in my home. I have sacrificed my entire life to raise this child. Lost every friend and had to start from scratch. Given custody of my other child to THEM... do you really think I would be giving away my child if I had any other choice? THIS, is what I do for a living. I work with children with severe disabilities. My specialty is behavioral disabilities, and I am very good at my job. I have put all of my professional knowledge, as well as that of the other education professionals i know to work in trying to find a program that will work for my son.

I am sorry if you don't understand what it means to be on guard 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Sometimes, I have to give in. No child should be in trouble all the time... and every parent needs a break.

StrongButch · 11-13-2012, 06:02 AM

My awesome g-f ! And the fact that this woman knows how to love me! This bad boi might have to put a ring on that finger someday.

DMW · 11-13-2012, 06:59 AM

Man...I am happy for StrongButch and Ocean. That is awesome.

Oh, i was thinking about what a small world we live in.
and more coffee.

~ocean · 11-13-2012, 07:48 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by DMW

Man...I am happy for StrongButch and Ocean. That is awesome.

Oh, i was thinking about what a small world we live in.
and more coffee.

Thank you so much DMW .. nice to meet u ..

11-11-2012, 09:42 AM	#9181
WolfyOne Magically Delicious How Do You Identify?: Gentle Butch Relationship Status: Single and content Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Minnesota Posts: 6,558 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 22,052 Thanked 15,397 Times in 4,140 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	I was going to hang out and do my chores in a tee shirt and my boxer briefs, not wanting to dress at all today. After all, there is no one here, but me and the rescues. There was a down pouring with a light show going on outside and I still didn't feed the trailer park kitties. So, after the show outside ended, I put on my sweat pants and took that daily cup of food out and sure enough, there was already a kitty out there waiting for breakfast. I couldn't pour the cat food quick enough as he kept nudging my hand as if he was helping me pour it faster. I'm thankful the Universe and Mother Nature helps me find a way to help the outside kitties and my inside ones even when I'm not sure if I have enough to feed all of them on any given day. When I came back inside, I decided to tackle the litter boxes. Done deal, procrastination is over and my laundry is in the dryer. Had another cuppa coffee and a bowl of oatmeal. I am now looking forward to a day filled with football games. Happily, I get to see my team play on TV tonight in this state because it's a regularly scheduled Sunday night game for NBC...yay!!! __________________ Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage --- Lao Tzo

11-11-2012, 02:02 PM	#9183
Massive Member How Do You Identify?: Trans man Preferred Pronoun?: He, Him Relationship Status: not looking Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Northern England Posts: 945 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,669 Thanked 2,383 Times in 765 Posts Rep Power: 17762095	Inclusion and Exclusion __________________ You may not be able to choose your bio-family, but you can choose your Family

11-11-2012, 02:42 PM	#9186
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,993 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	There are a lot of things on my mind.... ... happy memories from the past ... hopes for the future ... remembering patience ... a few "I told you so"s ... wanting a fast forward button on life ... worries for my son ... plans for the day. __________________ --Jenn

11-11-2012, 02:47 PM	#9187
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	Thinking about my future __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"

11-12-2012, 12:05 PM	#9189
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	Thinking about the news my mom gave me this morning, it sucks ass __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"

11-11-2012, 01:58 PM	#9182
DMW Member How Do You Identify?: FTM/Male (Will 14) Relationship Status: Caught An Angel and she doesn't lie! Join Date: May 2012 Location: @ Posts: 784 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,256 Thanked 1,858 Times in 614 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Priorities...priorities...i gotta stay away from this place... and get some important stuff done!

11-11-2012, 02:07 PM	#9184
spritzerJ Timed Out - Permanent How Do You Identify?: Queer (gender), female (biological marker) Preferred Pronoun?: she will work as a default. Relationship Status: engaged to jac until 8/10/14 Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Maine Posts: 3,154 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,307 Thanked 15,802 Times in 2,905 Posts Rep Power: 0	That feeling of "you can't go back but you can't stay here"nature. it is unsettling. The feeling of no on there knows me anymore and no one here really knows me. oooh it blows!

11-11-2012, 02:09 PM	#9185
Hollylane Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: . Posts: 11,495 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 34,694 Thanked 26,360 Times in 5,877 Posts Rep Power: 21474862	How awesome my Handsome Ravens fan is for giving up her computer, so that we can watch our games together.

11-11-2012, 11:23 PM	#9188
little_ms_sunshyne Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: . Posts: 3,312 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,339 Thanked 12,241 Times in 2,541 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Dreaming nice to play the what if game sometimes

11-12-2012, 12:25 PM	#9190
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,993 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Making hard decisions... __________________ --Jenn

11-12-2012, 12:30 PM	#9191
ruffryder Senior Member How Do You Identify?: FTM Preferred Pronoun?: guy ones Relationship Status: ... Join Date: May 2011 Location: chillin' in FL Posts: 3,690 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 21,951 Thanked 9,679 Times in 2,875 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	perhaps a change of career again or perhaps back to what I used to do in Sales or Recruiting. Just thinking about my lil family's security and safety.

11-12-2012, 12:33 PM	#9192
Jess Timed Out - Permanent How Do You Identify?: decidedly indifferent Preferred Pronoun?: other Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Patrick Springs, VA Posts: 2,812 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,247 Thanked 5,701 Times in 1,683 Posts Rep Power: 0	interview... audition... momma... paint... hardwood floors... hand painted lanai... happy girl... pesto...

11-12-2012, 04:27 PM	#9193
starryeyes Senior Member How Do You Identify?: a round peg in a square hole Preferred Pronoun?: Guess... Relationship Status: Seat taken Join Date: May 2011 Location: Rocky Mountain High Posts: 2,491 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,199 Thanked 10,052 Times in 2,076 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Last night, my ferret Smokey started walking funny. I took him to the vet this morning and they are telling me he had a stroke he also has a new heart murmur or leaky valve so he is going too the vet again tomorrow for x-rays. Ugh. Today sucked. He is on my mind __________________ "It's ok to make mistakes. It's ok to fall down. Get up! Look sickening....and make them eat it!" - Latrice Royale Starry

11-12-2012, 04:50 PM	#9194
Bard Family Man How Do You Identify?: TG Male Preferred Pronoun?: Masculine ones Relationship Status: She just gets me Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: ..... Posts: 2,828 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,997 Thanked 12,786 Times in 2,431 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	a deer got hit last night at work she was in the middle of the road and she was badly injured but not dead.. we had to go and shoot her I know she was suffering but damn those big eyes looking right at me __________________ This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill Fifteen percent concentrated power of will Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain And a hundred percent reason to remember the name! Give yourself over to absolute pleasure. Swim the warm waters of sins of the flesh - erotic nightmares beyond any measure, and sensual daydreams to treasure forever. Can't you just see it? Don't dream it, be it.

11-12-2012, 05:00 PM	#9195
WolfyOne Magically Delicious How Do You Identify?: Gentle Butch Relationship Status: Single and content Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Minnesota Posts: 6,558 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 22,052 Thanked 15,397 Times in 4,140 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	I got my work schedule for Thanksgiving weekend and it blows bubbles. I won't be doing Thanksgiving anywhere this year because I have to be at work Thanksgiving night at 8:30pm. We open at 9pm and I have to stay until 6am Friday morning. It means I have to stay awake hella long time to readjust my sleep hours for my next work day. Saturday I have to be there at 6am. Fills up my entire weekend with crappy. I'm not used to working overnights and then have to turn around and come back for my regular shift. Somewhere between getting off work Wednesday and my Thanksgiving shift, I have to have regular sleep and probably a power nap, so I can just keep going without wanting to go to sleep during that overnight shift. I really dislike retail, but I really miss not being able to share holidays with loved ones...looking forward to the day I leave OK. __________________ Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage --- Lao Tzo

11-12-2012, 07:56 PM	#9196
jac Timed Out - Permanent How Do You Identify?: butch stone Preferred Pronoun?: masculine ones work best... Relationship Status: ♥ engaged to spritz ♥ Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: bangor, maine Posts: 3,344 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 20,720 Thanked 16,492 Times in 2,972 Posts Rep Power: 0	her truffles ball caps jeans coats haircuts thanksgiving work movies

11-12-2012, 08:54 PM	#9197
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,993 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	No one on the outside can really understand what its like in my house. Yes, its usually cluttered. Yes, we yell sometimes. Yes, there are things that we just let go... because its not worth the fight. BUT... every day we manage an 8 year old boy who doesn't understand social expectation, limitations, or reasoning. He doesn't adjust to change, he can't grasp the concepts that most children in his class have had mastered for years. This same child, is smarter then most of those children will ever be. He looks normal, he sounds normal and to all outside eyes... I'm sure it looks like his problems are in how things happen in our house. In reality... the way things happen in our house, is the only reason he functions in society at all. EVERY, and when I say every I mean more then 5, professional we have talked to agrees that we (my mother and I) are doing all that we possibly can to advocate and support this amazing and challenging child. This includes allowing my 10 year old daughter move out of my home and in with her father. SO today whats on my mind is how frustrating it is that his fathers fiance still thinks that somehow I am not doing what is needed in my home. I have sacrificed my entire life to raise this child. Lost every friend and had to start from scratch. Given custody of my other child to THEM... do you really think I would be giving away my child if I had any other choice? THIS, is what I do for a living. I work with children with severe disabilities. My specialty is behavioral disabilities, and I am very good at my job. I have put all of my professional knowledge, as well as that of the other education professionals i know to work in trying to find a program that will work for my son. I am sorry if you don't understand what it means to be on guard 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Sometimes, I have to give in. No child should be in trouble all the time... and every parent needs a break. __________________ --Jenn

11-13-2012, 06:02 AM	#9198
StrongButch Member How Do You Identify?: I see the world thru a lens Preferred Pronoun?: Yes Boss Relationship Status: Chillin out with awesome women Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: San Francisco Posts: 1,376 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,018 Thanked 4,183 Times in 1,180 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	On my mind My awesome g-f ! And the fact that this woman knows how to love me! This bad boi might have to put a ring on that finger someday. __________________ Life is like music,so it can be played in many different styles.

11-13-2012, 06:59 AM	#9199
DMW Member How Do You Identify?: FTM/Male (Will 14) Relationship Status: Caught An Angel and she doesn't lie! Join Date: May 2012 Location: @ Posts: 784 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,256 Thanked 1,858 Times in 614 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Man...I am happy for StrongButch and Ocean. That is awesome. Oh, i was thinking about what a small world we live in. and more coffee.