What is on your mind - Page 507

JustLovelyJenn · 02-05-2013, 12:56 PM

What is on my mind is that I was just passed up for a job... that I have been doing on a temp basis since October... I have no idea why, because everyone I work with has said I am doing an excellent job. SOOO... yeah, they just handed it to someone else. How amazing... back to the drawing board.

StrongButch · 02-05-2013, 01:05 PM

My buddy Shawn just called and said :Hey im asking Brenda to marry me Friday night! You up for a party at your house. Okay quess im not going away this week-end. (lol) Maybe ill ask someone to marry me too. (j-k)

Katniss · 02-05-2013, 01:39 PM

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Originally Posted by cara

My boss got a card for one of my Co-workers who is about to be a first time father. i'm supposed to pass the card around for signatures from the office. I don't want to. The reason? The picture of the baby on the card is a white baby with blonde hair. The parents to be are a Chinese-American couple. Am I being too sensitive on this? How would it look if I got a different card and passed it around instead?

This week needs too be over. Soon. C'mon weekend!

I vote go with a different card.....

Katniss~~

KCBUTCH · 02-05-2013, 01:41 PM

all the cleaning I have to do from temp roommates who gratefully left this morning.
and the meeting I have with Vocational Rehab counselor this afternoon to make a plan to help fund me getting through my BA/MA education. Thanks you state of CA and I guess I can thank my injuries that they are severe enough to qualify me for it
And my new roommate moving in in a few days.. Nice guy

KCBUTCH · 02-05-2013, 01:44 PM

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Originally Posted by cara

desd...i take myself to the movies all the time. i like it. but I suppose doing stuff on your own like that does take some getting used to. if go with ya of we lived closer. :-)

some things on my mind:

is it worth it to consistently make myself available for people who do not consistently make themselves available to me? i'm beginning to think not. even though it's hard to find and make friends in this icy town of mine.

I watched 22 episodes of Once Upon A Time last weekend. I am not pleased with the ending. someone please tell me they didn't cancel this show.

My boss got a card for one of my Co-workers who is about to be a first time father. i'm supposed to pass the card around for signatures from the office. I don't want to. The reason? The picture of the baby on the card is a white baby with blonde hair. The parents to be are a Chinese-American couple. Am I being too sensitive on this? How would it look if I got a different card and passed it around instead?

This week needs too be over. Soon. C'mon weekend!

I don't think you're being too sensitive- its empathy and consideration

BoiJen · 02-05-2013, 03:23 PM

Folly Beach, SC???

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Originally Posted by jcisbutch

flying kites on Folly beach...looooong time ago....parallel lives...

TheMerryFairy · 02-05-2013, 05:37 PM

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Originally Posted by JustLovelyJenn

What is on my mind is that I was just passed up for a job... that I have been doing on a temp basis since October... I have no idea why, because everyone I work with has said I am doing an excellent job. SOOO... yeah, they just handed it to someone else. How amazing... back to the drawing board.

I am sure you will come up with something wonderful. Don't let them keep you down, Jennie!

DamonK · 02-05-2013, 07:08 PM

Homework that is not being cooperative.

TheMerryFairy · 02-05-2013, 07:17 PM

How do I make everything come together? I know life will guide my direction but there are so many things I need to do in the meantime to get everything going. It will be another long night. I hope I have enough tea.

BoiJen · 02-05-2013, 11:01 PM

WTH I still see a blank screen when I go into chat?

DamonK · 02-05-2013, 11:40 PM

A need deep in me.

Gráinne · 02-05-2013, 11:55 PM

Wouldn't you know it. A couple days ago, I'd ruled out going to Austin for the halfway reunion party. Then yesterday, I found out about a conference for science teachers being held The Week Before...in San Antonio.

The conference would be helpful for teaching ideas and technology training, it's true. OTOH, it's a cost I don't really need to be spending now, it's time away from home, and it's not imperative that I go this year. It would have been nice if the weeks had coincided, even if I was conferencing during the days

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Kelt · 02-06-2013, 12:02 AM

I have a long slow fuse and rarely get angry. If I do it is usually with myself and more like frustration.

There is about one person that I can express that to, and I did today.

It feels wrong to unload like that onto someone who just wants to be empathetic. I really need to keep that to myself. What a way to reward somebody for caring.

You just can't unsay stuff.

TheMerryFairy · 02-06-2013, 04:28 AM

There is a lot weighing on my mind tonight. I don't know how to process it all. I have been taking in the peaceful morning with a cup of tea, reflecting on everything that has happened in the last 24 hours and I am unsure where life is going to take me.

I am a little in shock, a little nervous and very much confused. I cannot sleep and for the sake of my sanity I am just going to to clean out my things at work and move on.

I have a lot to consider right now. For the last month I have been floating above everything, confident in my decisions, ready to make things happen and have had a smile glued to my face while fluttering in an abundance of vibrant energy.

Tonight I feel the complete opposite. I am still happy and floating but there is a mist creeping up. A storm perhaps? I don't know how to calm it so I guess I am meant to ride it out.

I haven't been myself the last few days. The closer I am to feeling completely free, the more on edge I become.

I daydream, wish and wonder about the experiences I've shared recently and those I will enjoy down the road. I feel shifts everywhere. There are a lot of changes about to take place in my life. I think I am ready? I want to close my eyes and feel my senses soar again.

I will be happy, whatever happens.

I miss so many of of my friends and so many of the things I used to do. I am trying to live my life the way I know is right for me and I want to balance it all with my other desires. Where did things turn? Why did they have to turn this week? How much has really turned and how much is just my perception?

I hope I wake up and the fog will be lifted into the best mood filled with kindness and all of the little things I love, including my crushes.

Kenna · 02-06-2013, 04:45 AM

why is it that I wake up more tired than what I was when I went to bed

luv2luvgirls · 02-06-2013, 05:47 AM

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Originally Posted by Kenna

why is it that I wake up more tired than what I was when I went to bed

I don't know but that has been happening to me too... so if you find out let me know

SelfMadeMan · 02-06-2013, 07:18 AM

That I have SO much homework to do, yet here I am sipping coffee and reading threads

LoyalWolfsBlade · 02-06-2013, 07:30 AM

That no matter how hard I tried sleep just did not come. Promises of things I made someone of things I would get accomplished. The pain that the medication of course did not touch. Of course she is as well....is there any wonder I got no sleep again.

StrongButch · 02-06-2013, 04:04 PM

How lucky I am to live on 5 acres. Im gonna plow soon and grow lots of veggies and berries this year. Thank god im a country boy!

MaggieBluIze · 02-07-2013, 07:33 AM

Today is a day of doctor appointments.

I was finally able to get a day to do my yearly checkup, go to dentist again (yuck) and then to my Chiropractor.

Can't quit stressing about not being able to find a dermatologist. Did not know that would be so hard. This is the one that is most needed.
*deep breath* That's ok. It will happen.

I am so thankful I have insurance, just really do not like our new company we are using.
They really seem to be working against you, not with you.

I really wish I had someone to go with me. Can't help it. Just do.

Oh ... Also going to Apple store to FINALLY fix my iPhone. This has been needed for far too long.

I have to turn in something to my supervisor by tomorrow of things I have accomplished this year ...
Ummmm ... It was a crazy year ... My brain goes blank.
Maybe google will help me with ideas of things supervisors are looking for. It could happen.

I will see today as a day of accomplishments, getting things done, taking care of myself.

I can never shut my brain down.
Hopefully getting it all these things done today will finally ease some of the thoughts.

Who knows, I might sleep tonight. That would be good.

Have a great day ...
Thanks for listening to some of what's been on my mind ...

Have a great day!!!

02-05-2013, 12:56 PM	#10121
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,995 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	What is on my mind is that I was just passed up for a job... that I have been doing on a temp basis since October... I have no idea why, because everyone I work with has said I am doing an excellent job. SOOO... yeah, they just handed it to someone else. How amazing... back to the drawing board. __________________ --Jenn

02-05-2013, 01:05 PM	#10122
StrongButch Member How Do You Identify?: I see the world thru a lens Preferred Pronoun?: Yes Boss Relationship Status: Chillin out with awesome women Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: San Francisco Posts: 1,376 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,018 Thanked 4,184 Times in 1,179 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	On my mind My buddy Shawn just called and said :Hey im asking Brenda to marry me Friday night! You up for a party at your house. Okay quess im not going away this week-end. (lol) Maybe ill ask someone to marry me too. (j-k) __________________ Life is like music,so it can be played in many different styles.

02-05-2013, 01:41 PM	#10124
KCBUTCH Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Undaunted QUEER Dom, Daddy Preferred Pronoun?: MYSELF, Syr, Hy, or friend prefered Relationship Status: Cautious, indifferent... Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Below the foothills above the beach Posts: 1,848 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,240 Thanked 3,305 Times in 884 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	all the cleaning I have to do from temp roommates who gratefully left this morning. and the meeting I have with Vocational Rehab counselor this afternoon to make a plan to help fund me getting through my BA/MA education. Thanks you state of CA and I guess I can thank my injuries that they are severe enough to qualify me for it And my new roommate moving in in a few days.. Nice guy __________________ "If you want to know the secrets of the Universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration"-Nikola Tesla

02-05-2013, 11:01 PM	#10130
BoiJen Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Boi Relationship Status: happy to find inner peace Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: Motor City Posts: 65 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13 Thanked 120 Times in 46 Posts Rep Power: 214765	WTH I still see a blank screen when I go into chat? __________________ *BoiJen* The past is our definition. We may strive with good reason to escape what is bad in it, but we will escape it only by adding something better to it. -Wendell Barry

02-05-2013, 11:55 PM	#10132
Gráinne Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Neither, nada, out of the box Preferred Pronoun?: My name always works Relationship Status: Happy whatever happens Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Little Rock Posts: 1,818 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,011 Thanked 7,245 Times in 1,415 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	Wouldn't you know it. A couple days ago, I'd ruled out going to Austin for the halfway reunion party. Then yesterday, I found out about a conference for science teachers being held The Week Before...in San Antonio. The conference would be helpful for teaching ideas and technology training, it's true. OTOH, it's a cost I don't really need to be spending now, it's time away from home, and it's not imperative that I go this year. It would have been nice if the weeks had coincided, even if I was conferencing during the days . __________________ The odds of going to the store for a loaf of bread and coming out with only a loaf of bread are three billion to one. ~Erma Bombeck

02-05-2013, 07:08 PM	#10128
DamonK Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: May 2010 Location: . Posts: 2,199 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,527 Thanked 7,762 Times in 1,881 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Homework that is not being cooperative.

02-05-2013, 07:17 PM	#10129
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	How do I make everything come together? I know life will guide my direction but there are so many things I need to do in the meantime to get everything going. It will be another long night. I hope I have enough tea.

02-05-2013, 11:40 PM	#10131
DamonK Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: May 2010 Location: . Posts: 2,199 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,527 Thanked 7,762 Times in 1,881 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	A need deep in me.

02-06-2013, 12:02 AM	#10133
Kelt Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Beach Butch Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: SoCal Posts: 2,751 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 19,765 Thanked 15,379 Times in 2,542 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	I have a long slow fuse and rarely get angry. If I do it is usually with myself and more like frustration. There is about one person that I can express that to, and I did today. It feels wrong to unload like that onto someone who just wants to be empathetic. I really need to keep that to myself. What a way to reward somebody for caring. You just can't unsay stuff.

02-06-2013, 04:28 AM	#10134
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	There is a lot weighing on my mind tonight. I don't know how to process it all. I have been taking in the peaceful morning with a cup of tea, reflecting on everything that has happened in the last 24 hours and I am unsure where life is going to take me. I am a little in shock, a little nervous and very much confused. I cannot sleep and for the sake of my sanity I am just going to to clean out my things at work and move on. I have a lot to consider right now. For the last month I have been floating above everything, confident in my decisions, ready to make things happen and have had a smile glued to my face while fluttering in an abundance of vibrant energy. Tonight I feel the complete opposite. I am still happy and floating but there is a mist creeping up. A storm perhaps? I don't know how to calm it so I guess I am meant to ride it out. I haven't been myself the last few days. The closer I am to feeling completely free, the more on edge I become. I daydream, wish and wonder about the experiences I've shared recently and those I will enjoy down the road. I feel shifts everywhere. There are a lot of changes about to take place in my life. I think I am ready? I want to close my eyes and feel my senses soar again. I will be happy, whatever happens. I miss so many of of my friends and so many of the things I used to do. I am trying to live my life the way I know is right for me and I want to balance it all with my other desires. Where did things turn? Why did they have to turn this week? How much has really turned and how much is just my perception? I hope I wake up and the fog will be lifted into the best mood filled with kindness and all of the little things I love, including my crushes.

02-06-2013, 04:45 AM	#10135
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,786 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,613 Thanked 12,110 Times in 3,757 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	why is it that I wake up more tired than what I was when I went to bed __________________ **************************** She has been through hell, so believe me when I say, fear her when she looks into a fire and smiles. ~E.Corona~

02-06-2013, 07:18 AM	#10137
SelfMadeMan Member How Do You Identify?: Transsexual Man Preferred Pronoun?: Male Relationship Status: Married to The Woman of My Dreams <3 Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Minnesota Posts: 802 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 796 Thanked 2,669 Times in 527 Posts Rep Power: 18972344	That I have SO much homework to do, yet here I am sipping coffee and reading threads

02-06-2013, 07:30 AM	#10138
LoyalWolfsBlade Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pre-Op FtM, Preferred Pronoun?: Masculine ones plz Relationship Status: Single but haven't given up on finding the One Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: I gaze upon the same moon as you do Posts: 3,827 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,214 Thanked 9,646 Times in 3,123 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	That no matter how hard I tried sleep just did not come. Promises of things I made someone of things I would get accomplished. The pain that the medication of course did not touch. Of course she is as well....is there any wonder I got no sleep again. __________________ Life should never be stagnant hence my quest for new knowledge will continue until my last breath. Wolf

02-06-2013, 04:04 PM	#10139
StrongButch Member How Do You Identify?: I see the world thru a lens Preferred Pronoun?: Yes Boss Relationship Status: Chillin out with awesome women Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: San Francisco Posts: 1,376 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,018 Thanked 4,184 Times in 1,179 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	My mind How lucky I am to live on 5 acres. Im gonna plow soon and grow lots of veggies and berries this year. Thank god im a country boy! __________________ Life is like music,so it can be played in many different styles.

02-07-2013, 07:33 AM	#10140
MaggieBluIze Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Feisty Kick Butt Bratty Babygirl Femme LOL Preferred Pronoun?: Something Sweet Please =) Relationship Status: My rainbow bubble holds love, happiness and life with my sweet Husbutch Daddy Bass! Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Austin TX Baby!!! Posts: 2,154 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,912 Thanked 5,385 Times in 1,504 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Today is a day of doctor appointments. I was finally able to get a day to do my yearly checkup, go to dentist again (yuck) and then to my Chiropractor. Can't quit stressing about not being able to find a dermatologist. Did not know that would be so hard. This is the one that is most needed. deep breath That's ok. It will happen. I am so thankful I have insurance, just really do not like our new company we are using. They really seem to be working against you, not with you. I really wish I had someone to go with me. Can't help it. Just do. Oh ... Also going to Apple store to FINALLY fix my iPhone. This has been needed for far too long. I have to turn in something to my supervisor by tomorrow of things I have accomplished this year ... Ummmm ... It was a crazy year ... My brain goes blank. Maybe google will help me with ideas of things supervisors are looking for. It could happen. I will see today as a day of accomplishments, getting things done, taking care of myself. I can never shut my brain down. Hopefully getting it all these things done today will finally ease some of the thoughts. Who knows, I might sleep tonight. That would be good. Have a great day ... Thanks for listening to some of what's been on my mind ... Have a great day!!! __________________ s her sweet Daddy Bass ~~http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a1...ion/maggie.jpg