What is on your mind - Page 533

KCBUTCH · 03-06-2013, 12:32 PM

Thinking this last dream was a true nightmare, full of fear and violence... I woke up sweaty and anxious and called in...

I have a lunch this Sunday with a former EX it'll be the first time we've had any contact in almost 9 years, I am extremely curious as to why she asked to meet up to catch up out of the blue.

The speech I have to write for class
The test I have tmrw
and the chapters I have to read

SleepyButch · 03-06-2013, 12:49 PM

In about 45 minutes from now, the vet will be here to put my little girl to sleep. She's had severe heart failure for several months now and just has not been doing well. So many things are going through my mind right now. Part of me wants to cancel the appointment and the other part knows it's right.

We have been together for 12 years now, not long enough. She has been with me through thick and thin... through good and bad times. I am so afraid, afraid to lose her, afraid that it's not the right time, and afraid that I will never emotionally get over this. She has been my "child", my pain in the ass, I could always count on her. How am I going to go through this? I can only hope I have the strength to do this for her.

Nurse Darlin · 03-06-2013, 03:00 PM

My heart goes out to you. I was just tellin my girl yesterday that its not fair that we live longer than our pets.

03-06-2013, 03:25 PM

This weekend's fellowship convention.

TheMerryFairy · 03-06-2013, 03:26 PM

What comes next?

dixie · 03-06-2013, 04:25 PM

Ok, so good news....the ultrasound looked good, as for the artery and veins. I do have a large bundle of scar tissue which causes a type of hematoma and swelling. This in turn presses against the nerve, which causes the pain and numbness I've been feeling in my groin/leg area where the heart cath was inserted. I am not allowed to exercise for at least a week, supposed to take ibuprofen to reduce the inflammation, and just see what happens. They said it may correct itself in time, or......it will be something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. Go figure. I guess we'll see. I'm just very glad that it wasn't something more serious, such as a clot or leakage. At least now I know.

KCBUTCH · 03-06-2013, 04:43 PM

Just got a call from someone with a heavy accent asking me if I want any prescriptions? I dont know who to be pissed at the pharmacy of my insurance for releasing information that I take meds to begin with and my cell number?

DamonK · 03-06-2013, 04:45 PM

I'm the man to hold my ground
I'm the man who sticks around
I'm the man to hold you tight
I'm the man in love with you
I'm the man to make it right
I'm the man you kiss goodnight
I'm the man that won't let you down --chorus and verse from "I'm the Man" by Elliot Yamin

Leave it to me to get that stuck in my head whilst reading a business textbook

TheMerryFairy · 03-06-2013, 05:22 PM

I am going to need something to eat soon and I am thinking about my friends and if I will get a chance to have a needed conversation tonight.

PaPa · 03-06-2013, 05:51 PM

The exam and the logistics about the routes getting there, what to take, how to prepare, and how to get the results in the quickest fashion afterwards. It seems the school gets the scores before we do! Wth!

WingsOnFire · 03-06-2013, 06:10 PM

dishes are done... I am officially sleepy... Nap time... Hmmmm someone stole my pillow... Wonder who that might be? Hmmmm... Lol

Sassy · 03-06-2013, 06:28 PM

Every time I get my bearings my job description changes. Suddenly I'm a video producer? oh dear ...

StrongButch · 03-06-2013, 07:27 PM

It been a long day!

DMW · 03-06-2013, 07:28 PM

Everybody has so much goin on....dang. And goin' on in their minds. Dogs and health. so much.

I am thinking about Kim Novak and how she is on AMC or TMC? right now and I need to go watch some of that beautiful.
Yummy Yummy Woman

LoyalWolfsBlade · 03-07-2013, 12:06 AM

The only thing that can get through the fog surrounding my brain is pain and just how many different types there are. The different ways I feel pain and just how sick and tired I am of doing it.

Leigh · 03-07-2013, 12:28 AM

moving forward, that's all i can do.

sierragirrl · 03-07-2013, 12:39 AM

this show weed country
i can't really watch it watch it cause duck dynasty is on.
hope to catch it on again later tonight
what is with the law putting up cameras on the trees
chicken shit way to do it.

Sun · 03-07-2013, 01:39 AM

Insensitive people

DamonK · 03-07-2013, 01:55 AM

Where I'd rather be.

TheMerryFairy · 03-07-2013, 09:15 AM

My floating energy and how to change directions just enough for smooth sailing until I land on my path.

I am also thinking that today would be a good day to do something for me. I should cook a really nice breakfast and hope that I can eat it.

Friends are also on my mind. I care a lot. They are really my outter strength and support through all of this.

Feeling free. It has already happened but I am hoping soon it can be fully embraced.

03-06-2013, 12:32 PM	#10641
KCBUTCH Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Undaunted QUEER Dom, Daddy Preferred Pronoun?: MYSELF, Syr, Hy, or friend prefered Relationship Status: Cautious, indifferent... Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Below the foothills above the beach Posts: 1,848 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,240 Thanked 3,305 Times in 884 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Thinking this last dream was a true nightmare, full of fear and violence... I woke up sweaty and anxious and called in... I have a lunch this Sunday with a former EX it'll be the first time we've had any contact in almost 9 years, I am extremely curious as to why she asked to meet up to catch up out of the blue. The speech I have to write for class The test I have tmrw and the chapters I have to read __________________ "If you want to know the secrets of the Universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration"-Nikola Tesla

03-06-2013, 12:49 PM	#10642
SleepyButch Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Dude Preferred Pronoun?: He, Him Relationship Status: Taken Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Hidden Valley Ranch Posts: 3,511 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,220 Thanked 11,248 Times in 2,754 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	In about 45 minutes from now, the vet will be here to put my little girl to sleep. She's had severe heart failure for several months now and just has not been doing well. So many things are going through my mind right now. Part of me wants to cancel the appointment and the other part knows it's right. We have been together for 12 years now, not long enough. She has been with me through thick and thin... through good and bad times. I am so afraid, afraid to lose her, afraid that it's not the right time, and afraid that I will never emotionally get over this. She has been my "child", my pain in the ass, I could always count on her. How am I going to go through this? I can only hope I have the strength to do this for her. __________________ . You cannot embrace those things that will not embrace you back.

03-06-2013, 03:00 PM	#10643
Nurse Darlin Member How Do You Identify?: Femme-agressive at times Preferred Pronoun?: she/her/babygirl Relationship Status: Never been more in love with my Sugarbear! Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: West Virginia Posts: 148 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 278 Thanked 477 Times in 87 Posts Rep Power: 4732369	My heart goes out to you. I was just tellin my girl yesterday that its not fair that we live longer than our pets. __________________ Forever is not a word, but rather a place where two lovers go when true love takes them there I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. - Marilyn Monroe

03-06-2013, 04:43 PM	#10647
KCBUTCH Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Undaunted QUEER Dom, Daddy Preferred Pronoun?: MYSELF, Syr, Hy, or friend prefered Relationship Status: Cautious, indifferent... Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Below the foothills above the beach Posts: 1,848 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,240 Thanked 3,305 Times in 884 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Just got a call from someone with a heavy accent asking me if I want any prescriptions? I dont know who to be pissed at the pharmacy of my insurance for releasing information that I take meds to begin with and my cell number? __________________ "If you want to know the secrets of the Universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration"-Nikola Tesla

03-06-2013, 06:10 PM	#10651
WingsOnFire Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer..femme.. .babygirl...girl Preferred Pronoun?: Female Ones... Relationship Status: Enjoying life but ready to meet someone Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Portland Oregon Posts: 3,945 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,015 Thanked 12,476 Times in 3,357 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	dishes are done... I am officially sleepy... Nap time... Hmmmm someone stole my pillow... Wonder who that might be? Hmmmm... Lol __________________ Previously known as MidnightBlueEyes ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://gailsforum.files.wordpress.co...-psd340941.png

03-06-2013, 03:25 PM	#10644
Daktari Guest Tournaments Won: 1 Posts: n/a My Photo Gallery	This weekend's fellowship convention.

03-06-2013, 03:26 PM	#10645
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	What comes next?

03-06-2013, 04:25 PM	#10646
dixie Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: I usually just poke it with a stick. Preferred Pronoun?: Bitch Relationship Status: Intertwined deeply Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: We're all a little mad here. Posts: 6,627 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 10,972 Thanked 21,384 Times in 4,808 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	Ok, so good news....the ultrasound looked good, as for the artery and veins. I do have a large bundle of scar tissue which causes a type of hematoma and swelling. This in turn presses against the nerve, which causes the pain and numbness I've been feeling in my groin/leg area where the heart cath was inserted. I am not allowed to exercise for at least a week, supposed to take ibuprofen to reduce the inflammation, and just see what happens. They said it may correct itself in time, or......it will be something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. Go figure. I guess we'll see. I'm just very glad that it wasn't something more serious, such as a clot or leakage. At least now I know.

03-06-2013, 04:45 PM	#10648
DamonK Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: May 2010 Location: . Posts: 2,199 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,527 Thanked 7,762 Times in 1,881 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	I'm the man to hold my ground I'm the man who sticks around I'm the man to hold you tight I'm the man in love with you I'm the man to make it right I'm the man you kiss goodnight I'm the man that won't let you down --chorus and verse from "I'm the Man" by Elliot Yamin Leave it to me to get that stuck in my head whilst reading a business textbook

03-06-2013, 05:22 PM	#10649
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	I am going to need something to eat soon and I am thinking about my friends and if I will get a chance to have a needed conversation tonight.

03-06-2013, 05:51 PM	#10650
PaPa Senior Member How Do You Identify?: GQ Butch Daddy Relationship Status: A Very Protective BIG Daddy... Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 2,657 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,597 Thanked 5,873 Times in 1,530 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	The exam and the logistics about the routes getting there, what to take, how to prepare, and how to get the results in the quickest fashion afterwards. It seems the school gets the scores before we do! Wth!

03-06-2013, 06:28 PM	#10652
Sassy Member How Do You Identify?: Female Relationship Status: Together Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: In the sunshine Posts: 598 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 815 Thanked 1,929 Times in 460 Posts Rep Power: 19641163	Every time I get my bearings my job description changes. Suddenly I'm a video producer? oh dear ...

03-06-2013, 07:27 PM	#10653
StrongButch Member How Do You Identify?: I see the world thru a lens Preferred Pronoun?: Yes Boss Relationship Status: Chillin out with awesome women Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: San Francisco Posts: 1,376 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,018 Thanked 4,183 Times in 1,180 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Mind It been a long day! __________________ Life is like music,so it can be played in many different styles.

03-06-2013, 07:28 PM	#10654
DMW Member How Do You Identify?: FTM/Male (Will 14) Relationship Status: Caught An Angel and she doesn't lie! Join Date: May 2012 Location: @ Posts: 784 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,256 Thanked 1,858 Times in 614 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Everybody has so much goin on....dang. And goin' on in their minds. Dogs and health. so much. I am thinking about Kim Novak and how she is on AMC or TMC? right now and I need to go watch some of that beautiful. Yummy Yummy Woman

03-07-2013, 12:06 AM	#10655
LoyalWolfsBlade Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pre-Op FtM, Preferred Pronoun?: Masculine ones plz Relationship Status: Single but haven't given up on finding the One Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: I gaze upon the same moon as you do Posts: 3,827 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,214 Thanked 9,646 Times in 3,123 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	The only thing that can get through the fog surrounding my brain is pain and just how many different types there are. The different ways I feel pain and just how sick and tired I am of doing it. __________________ Life should never be stagnant hence my quest for new knowledge will continue until my last breath. Wolf

03-07-2013, 12:28 AM	#10656
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	moving forward, that's all i can do. __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"

03-07-2013, 12:39 AM	#10657
sierragirrl Member How Do You Identify?: .... Relationship Status: <3 Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: ..... Posts: 783 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,417 Thanked 2,870 Times in 667 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	this show weed country i can't really watch it watch it cause duck dynasty is on. hope to catch it on again later tonight what is with the law putting up cameras on the trees chicken shit way to do it. Last edited by sierragirrl; 03-07-2013 at 12:41 AM. Reason: dumb c letter wasnt workin!

03-07-2013, 01:39 AM	#10658
Sun Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Trans Preferred Pronoun?: He, him, his Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: N/A Posts: 1,775 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,557 Thanked 5,551 Times in 1,456 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Insensitive people __________________ “Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.” ― Rumi

03-07-2013, 01:55 AM	#10659
DamonK Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: May 2010 Location: . Posts: 2,199 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,527 Thanked 7,762 Times in 1,881 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Where I'd rather be.

03-07-2013, 09:15 AM	#10660
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	My floating energy and how to change directions just enough for smooth sailing until I land on my path. I am also thinking that today would be a good day to do something for me. I should cook a really nice breakfast and hope that I can eat it. Friends are also on my mind. I care a lot. They are really my outter strength and support through all of this. Feeling free. It has already happened but I am hoping soon it can be fully embraced.