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Jane Street The space between wanting to live and not wanting to hurt is the alley in which I live. This lane is not as narrow as you might think, in some places there is room for parking on one side. Since I reside here more often than not I have filled it with many of the appliances, which allow me to pretend at life. It doesn’t afford a truly clean or cheerful locale, but there are laughs, sometimes flowers in the spring. Finding my way out of this is tricky. When unlocked I find these are backdoors to commerce and though better than being sold wholesale, retail is not what I was hoping to find as I wrest myself from a confined existence. I have heard of those who drive through plate glass ignoring the structure. I think this is less workable from the back. What is left when I can’t bully or climb? I guess I will have to throw my hands up and pray. Acknowledge a myth about yourself * ROLES You don’t have to give up playing God Because it was a bad thing to do. You have to give it up because it doesn’t work Said my sponsor in her most gentle voice. In a world seemingly spinning out of control You, brave child, stepped up to the plate and took a swing That is heroic not demonic But impractical nevertheless You have to be your own full-time job Even when it feels like there are other jobs left unfilled You don’t have to run around finding the feet To fill those empty shoes Maybe those empty shoes are just bait for a bad trap Keep on your journey and you will come to a place where the work Is being accomplished by a surprising cast of characters You will be free to stick to the role ahead of you.
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Terry Bradshaw When someone wants to take the easy way out I condemn them for wanting ease and fail to register that they want out. I hear a whine when in fact it’s a cry. A challenge is rarely passed up by the able bodied, but must be foregone by the injured. Carried from the field is no personal victory, not a goal for sure. When I would rather watch than play I need to check for wounds not inflict them. It is not natural for me to sit in the stands, but accusation is never the way to get me on the field. Suit up when I’m whole and hide when I’m not. Absence is a fallback position for the fallen; I have to help myself to get back up. Recognize friends as art * PIGS Talking to a chrysalis about flight Is like talking to a fetus about dry land. Descriptions of future events And possibility are lost in the translation. To the uninitiated these realities sound like gibberish And flight of fancy or foolish dogma Yet I am drawn to talk of these things Imagine and describe them. I am changed by this procedure I am transformed in the details When I can accurately depict it I am taking the stride into living it I am my own pig I have taught myself to sing And have wasted no time at all.
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Van and I (Happy cleaning windows) When the fog clears and I still can’t see, I check my optics and wash my windows. The mundane upkeep hones my pursuit. After the weather and housekeeping concerns are managed, eye exercises are next on the agenda. I have to strengthen my equipment, stay fit or fall prey to vagaries of nearsighted limits or farsighted failings. Myopia is an ever presence danger I must guard against as well. A fixed focus is a death trap. I must learn to track a moving target while I wend onward. Nothing in life is stationary; concentration and a decent line of sight are priceless rudiments. Continual practice with the tools and tactics build my confidence and sharpen wit. Burdens are lightened when I see my goal in stark relief; I can chart my path and make my way. Sobriety means if I can see it I can believe it, so I best go get the Windex. Lock your doors when you need to, open windows when you can * MY SOBER HEART The heart I have today Is not the heart I have had all my life Cells age and are replaced I slough off what I can no longer use And rejuvenate with fresh layers My sobriety is the same. Past step work is revamped and approached in innovative ways Yesterdays prayers are replaced with today’s Today’s meditations will be dispelled by tomorrows The function remains the same but it is constructed with brand-new work Service I render is always for my sobriety But I work to strengthen various quadrants My heart is not as young as it used to be And vigorous action remakes it new each day I rebuild my sober heart continually because forever and today I have the mind of an alcoholic.
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The Wake Up Call I wake early and watch the lazy rain fall in slow fat random drops. I view it with silent awe, only part of my recently somnolent mind bewildered. Dawn advances toward me and I register a new concept: snow, it is snow; the sky had been, too dark to allow me to see the white, all I could comprehend was the fall. The lighter the sky becomes the more the precipitation behaves like snowfall. I muse this to my sponsor and she laughed, “Well, we all misname things in the dark, Sweetie, lighten up and give yourself a break.” Look for the secrets you keep from yourself * QUEEN’S COUNTENANCE I know the 7 P’s of preparation I set the table for those I know The unexpected arrive clothed in time and tradition They seat themselves at the table with the naked They become mute We prattle and pose Rarely glimpsing the goals sitting at the unset seats What we need to become Is far from what we are I can not even call it other It is within when we make room And ether when we won’t I can wait and try But the juice is deep with the pulp I get myself in line for the future And wait for the clothes offered by my guests I sit the emperor and rise the queen
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With and Without With my sponsor- Without my drinking buddies With my Big Book- Without my contrived dogma With my home group- Without my dysfunctional family With my step work- Without my mental masturbation With my sobriety- Without my insanity With all this I can live Without all that Appreciate the strength of your neck * THE LONG VIEW The long view requires an enduring embrace of the past It requires a great love of people The race and individuals I cannot see what we do and flee I can own what happened, what happens and what is to come If only so I can ratchet improvement into my own behavior I can see and feel change, cringe if I must, but go on The horizon is there to set the stage It hangs long and low It stands guard for the life there is to live I will view it And use it as my gauge Keeping perspective is the key I know it for what it is And that makes me,----me The short sight and the long view My open arms hold it all My sight brings it all into my heart.
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05-06-2013, 04:29 AM | #1746 |
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Yield Don’t Stop If I let amazement stop my progress I will become landlocked instead of becoming free. Picture wagon wheels planted in Kansas when the destination had been California. Yes, the plains are great, but if that was not my aim it is a far cry from heaven. Arriving at any haven is tempting; when it crosses to captivating then to captivation, here is where the problem lay. Steps six and seven changed me and this is good. If I allow this to halt me this is disaster. If the wheels fall off the wagon I walk. If I grow too tired to walk I pant with my friends and we carry each other, we don’t stop. Pickle the pretty fruit from your labors * BRATZLOV If all the world is a narrow bridge, I must broaden my mind. If all the doors are closed to the passage of a hallway, I must exit through the window. Never again can I stay and shelter In a small and confining refuge A womb is a place to come out It is never a place of return. I am not to seek overexposure But I must ever widen the gate The brave face I show is the gift of a tight world Owning me for far too long. Fear is never meant to be larger than life And the world should never collapse Around the sweetness of a smile Today carries us. Tomorrow draws us. The world is a bridge.
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I wanted to stop by and check in. My life is going good today. I am headed to work and hope everyone has a great day. I am glad I can smile today, and have fun in recovery.
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So glad to see ya checking in tomboystud
If we can't laugh and have fun in recovery then I suspect we'd not stick around very long I've had fun this gloriously sunny Bank Holiday Monday (it's a holiday weekend here) with a load of recovering addicts having a barbecue in MsSponsorliscious' back garden. Also took on secretary of our Area F&E (fundraising) committee yesterday. It's my first official committee position and I'm stoked that it's alongside Ms.Sponsoliscious in the chair and the lovely lady I travel with to our Area Sub Committee each month who's taken on F&E treasurer. Tony has taken on 'brews' and catering too. There's a few more positions to be filled but we're all set to get going on raising funds for next years convention. |
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Pinocchio as a Girl I should be painting today instead of reframing the future, an unnecessary and ephemeral job at best. Kind of like lassoing an unborn colt, I try to put a rope around something that cannot get away. Outcome hasn’t much to do with foregone conclusion and wouldn’t I be better mixing colors and wetting brushes than cutting slices from a pie in the sky? But tomorrow seems more spacious than this crowded present and I con myself into believing this is a harmless trip to the fair. I lose my light, my thought, my sight with these thieving sojourns; leaving me to creak around because all that is left is wood. Nothing gets in the way of something * I form my query Fold my mind And mail it off to God With a stamp of approval from my sponsor The questions sent are of no great interest But the responses are a spellbinding group What is returned unopened Is a wide array The circuitous route taken by some Is a charm of elucidation I rub my finger over the intact seals And marvel at the travels of the wax I mourn over the defunct gods And their public relations organizations Slow is my resolve to pour over the replies I get easily caught in lackings and shy from true contact The equations embedded in my heart read the letters And sing the notes; these songs are just for me I know them like my name I turn the envelope and see how old the postmark is
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Turning turmoil into peace “With the world in such a turmoil, I feel I have been blessed to be where I am.” Basic Text, p. 145 ––––=–––– Some days it doesn’t pay to turn on the news, we hear so many stories about violence and mayhem. When we used, many of us grew accustomed to violence. Through the fog of our addiction, we rarely got too disturbed by the state of the world. When we are clean, however, many of us find we are particularly sensitive to the world around us. As recovering people, what can we do to make it a better place? When we find ourselves disturbed by the turmoil of our world, we can find comfort in prayer and meditation. When it seems like everything is turned upside down, our contact with our Higher Power can be our calm in the midst of any storm. When we are centered on our spiritual path, we can respond to our fears with peace. And by living peaceably ourselves, we invite a spirit of peace to enter our world. As recovering people, we can affect positive change by doing our best to practice the principles of our program. ––––=–––– Just for today: I will enhance peace in the world by living, speaking, and acting peacefully in my own life. |
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A Good Ship Recently my life has taken on a surreal quality. I stand in front of myself as if I were a business to be run or a project to be undertaken. The intensity, uncertainty and drama seem to be on the wane. There are choices to be made and outcomes to be determined, but this is all work and numbers, nothing at risk below the skin. My heart is secure, true love its protector, faith its inborn light. I am docked in safety harbor; the waves may rock me, but my anchor holds me fast. Follow your lead * ALL- BETTER NOW Mother kissed the booboo And I wait for the admonition to take effect Waiting, I count the problems Like telephone poles on a long journey What will it be like The world all- better? The anticipation nearly breaks me for awhile Until waiting turns to disbelief. A chill fills the space And all- better becomes the cry My sponsor calls for moderation And lowering my expectation The child’s ears ring with the promise to be fulfilled She cannot give herself over to a world Where band -aids are not a cure-all But only a cover for the slow work of internal healing, scars and all. Sheer survival is not sufficient for the screaming toddler Heartbreak from injustice calls for more than endurance But alas, a kiss is all we have.
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Teachable “We have learned that it is okay to not know all the answers, for then we are teachable and can learn to live our new life successfully.” Basic Text, p. 96 ––––=–––– In a way, addiction is a great teacher. And if addiction teaches us nothing else, it will teach us humility. We hear it said that it took our very best thinking to get to NA. Now that we’re here, we’re here to learn. The NA Fellowship is a wonderful learning environment for the recovering addict. We aren’t made to feel stupid at meetings. Instead, we find others who’ve been exactly where we’ve been and who’ve found a way out. All we have to do is admit that we don’t have all the answers, then listen as others share what’s worked for them. As recovering addicts and as human beings, we have much to learn. Other addicts—and other humans—have much to teach us about what works and what doesn’t. As long as we remain teachable, we can take advantage of the experience of others. ––––=–––– Just for today: I will admit that I don’t have all the answers. I will look and listen to the experience of others for the answers I need. |
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The Little Black Dress The holes in my pockets cause me to feel naked. Though it is an inside pocket and no one can see through I feel exposed, my thinking changed and for that matter chained, one link looped through the next. I start with a hole in my pocket so I know I can’t stay in this dress all day. I know I will need the storage later as time wears on but I can’t change now and I don’t want to waste time putting on my tights. My legs are cold. I fly from room to room. I gather my keys, but forget my phone. I am bare legged and unreachable, overexposed due to a hole in my pocket. Keep in mind that love doesn’t conform to opinion, even well meaning opinion * SLAYING OLD DRAGONS Your roar is Doppler-low And I can feel my steps move the earth As I go forward. Former dominator Scary from every angle I come for you today The scales are falling, I don’t rip them but they fall I can breathe at the heights of you lair I am not shrinking The booming voice you had is gone The power spilling away from you I don’t fly from you Gone is the tremble you once instilled The curtain has parted And you are revealed
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Write about it! "We sit down with a notebook, ask for guidance, pick up our pen, and start writing." Basic Text, p. 30 ––––=–––– When we're confused or in pain, our sponsor sometimes tells us to "write about it." Though we may groan as we drag out the notebook, we know that it will help. By laying it all out on paper, we give ourselves the chance to sort through what's bothering us. We know we can get to the bottom of our confusion and find out what�s really causing our pain when we put the pen to the paper. Writing can be rewarding, especially when working through the steps. Many members maintain a daily journal. Simply thinking about the steps, pondering their meaning, and analyzing their effect is not sufficient for most of us. There's something about the physical action of writing that helps to fix the principles of recovery in our minds and hearts. The rewards we find through the simple action of writing are many. Clarity of thought, keys to locked places inside of us, and the voice of conscience are but a few. Writing helps us be more honest with ourselves. We sit down, quiet our thoughts, and listen to our hearts. What we hear in the stillness are the truths that we put down on paper. ––––=–––– Just for today: One of the ways I can search for truth in recovery is to write. I will write about my recovery today. Copyright © 1991-2013 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved |
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More Than a Fedora I have no explanations only expletives, I wish I had something to say that you wished to hear, but that is not current events; foul humored broadcasts are what fill the air this day. Bad temper is tempting, but I can no longer be satisfied in this way nor is this a performance that you care to witness. I will play FCC to my ruminations curtailing this colorful darkness for my benefit and the clearing of the air. I have never shied from dramatic vocabulary and I do not now, but throwing out words is waste and I am learning to conserve. I don’t have to leak my power I can cover my head and close my mouth. Know what you are holding on to * URBAN LANDSCAPE I am taking this giraffe to the penthouse, Do you suggest the elevator or the stairs? Why do you chose these complicated tasks To fill your days asked my sponsor? You think this is beyond my abilities? I didn’t say that, I do believe either you or the giraffe Are likely to get bent out of shape But that is the most obvious of observations What if I told you being disproportionate Is both of our natural states, I asked? I know that too, my darling little lamb. You may be a contrast to the multitude But why make it harder? Why not a ranch with a cathedral ceiling Bay doors even? You are taking out the spirit of adventure, I say Baby, you may have confused frustration With excitement, says my sponsor Yes, but you have forgotten the view.
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Becoming entirely ready “We... get a good look at what these defects are doing to our lives. We begin to long for freedom from these defects.” Basic Text, p. 34 ––––=–––– Becoming entirely ready to have our defects of character removed can be a long process, often taking place over the course of a lifetime. Our state of readiness grows in direct proportion to our awareness of these defects and the destruction they cause. We may have trouble seeing the devastation our defects are inflicting on our lives and the lives of those around us. If this is the case, we would do well to ask our Higher Power to reveal those flaws which stand in the way of our progress. As we let go of our shortcomings and find their influence waning, we’ll notice that a loving God replaces those defects with quality attributes. Where we were fearful, we find courage. Where we were selfish, we find generosity. Our delusions about ourselves will disappear to be replaced by self-honesty and self-acceptance. Yes, becoming entirely ready means we will change. Each new level of readiness brings new gifts. Our basic nature changes, and we soon find our readiness is no longer sparked only by pain but by a desire to grow spiritually. ––––=–––– Just for today: I will increase my state of readiness by becoming more aware of my shortcomings. Copyright © 1991-2013 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved |
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