What do you want to do when you grow up?

Bubala · 02-15-2016, 06:08 PM

Lately, I have been thinking about my own liberally eclectic approach to life... I have always been a nerd and a wonderer of sorts. I do everything "right" by the book, I got educated, I know how to hold a job down and pay my bills, etc.
However, I do acknowledge certain lack of focus in my life.

Some ppl know what they want from the get go, they go straight for it, settle down and are just fine being stuck in the same life choices, same career, same job, same kind of life, they are content with the only way of existence they know of. Stability is something I never had, and frankly at this point it might be something I may not be able to handle, I wouldn't know how.

Turning 30 triggered a huge panic call in my brain -I felt like OMG you are 30 and you haven't done anything with your life!!! The truth of the matter is that by the age of 30 I've traveled half of the world, lived in 10 countries on 3 continents, survived 3 wars, gone through military service, obtained one undergrad and two graduate degrees, learned to speak 7 languages (ok only 4 properly), etc.

Some would say that should be enough shouldn't it? I cannot help it, I cannot shake off the feeling that I still haven't found what I'm looking for...

I'm still chasing something, not even sure what, how or where it might be, I'm still on my own crazy nomadic quest to beat the time , the short time we have to spend on this earth, I still keep on running, keep chasing more utopic dreams, further and further, mind over matter, passion over stability. When should this end? Should I cut down the roots of this childish wondering once and for all?

By when should one know what they want to do when they grow up?

What do you want to do when you grow up?
Or ever better have you grown up? How do you know you have, who or what told you or told on you?

Please please please do share your respectful thoughts with me. Any and all insights will be highly appreciated. Thank you.

02-15-2016, 06:08 PM	#1
Bubala Member How Do You Identify?: Lady Sunflower Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Join Date: Dec 2015 Location: San Fran Posts: 844 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 463 Thanked 1,669 Times in 615 Posts Rep Power: 9338275	What do you want to do when you grow up? Lately, I have been thinking about my own liberally eclectic approach to life... I have always been a nerd and a wonderer of sorts. I do everything "right" by the book, I got educated, I know how to hold a job down and pay my bills, etc. However, I do acknowledge certain lack of focus in my life. Some ppl know what they want from the get go, they go straight for it, settle down and are just fine being stuck in the same life choices, same career, same job, same kind of life, they are content with the only way of existence they know of. Stability is something I never had, and frankly at this point it might be something I may not be able to handle, I wouldn't know how. Turning 30 triggered a huge panic call in my brain -I felt like OMG you are 30 and you haven't done anything with your life!!! The truth of the matter is that by the age of 30 I've traveled half of the world, lived in 10 countries on 3 continents, survived 3 wars, gone through military service, obtained one undergrad and two graduate degrees, learned to speak 7 languages (ok only 4 properly), etc. Some would say that should be enough shouldn't it? I cannot help it, I cannot shake off the feeling that I still haven't found what I'm looking for... I'm still chasing something, not even sure what, how or where it might be, I'm still on my own crazy nomadic quest to beat the time , the short time we have to spend on this earth, I still keep on running, keep chasing more utopic dreams, further and further, mind over matter, passion over stability. When should this end? Should I cut down the roots of this childish wondering once and for all? By when should one know what they want to do when they grow up? What do you want to do when you grow up? Or ever better have you grown up? How do you know you have, who or what told you or told on you? Please please please do share your respectful thoughts with me. Any and all insights will be highly appreciated. Thank you.