What is on your mind - Page 570

~ocean · 05-03-2013, 04:43 AM

shutting the world out w/ hym ~

Sparkle · 05-03-2013, 05:38 AM

A long day to end a long (and challenging) week.

Today is Grandparents & Special Friends Day at school. Actually my favorite of all the events I plan because I LOVE the mutual glee and adoration of the children and their grandparents.

I felt the same way.

I remember bringing my Grampa in for 'Parent Career Day' when I was in 1st grade. He was the City Animal Control officer at the time. Which was SUPER COOL when I was in 1st grade. He had a van and an official uniform with a fancy hat. We got to be outside and he had a couple of dogs with him, to meet my classmates. I was the coolest girl in the first grade that day, for sure. And I was soooooooo proud.

Our house was also a temporary B&B for all strays who were in search of a new home; my Grandfather couldn't bare to bring them to the "pound" because there were no no-kill shelters in the late 70s/early 80s and most unclaimed animals were put down within a week of arrival.

My Grandmother had the patience of a Saint.

Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by how much I still miss them; 24 years gone my Grampa - 7 years my Grama.

And sometimes I can tap in to all the wonderful things they gave me, the most valuable piece being pure unadulterated love.
It's a powerful thing.

StrongButch · 05-03-2013, 05:42 AM

Im convinced and will be a married guy soon!

Hollylane · 05-03-2013, 08:15 AM

This is one of the very few times I actually enjoyed signing out of Skype. She is on her way to the airport, and I am excited beyond belief!

NorCalStud · 05-03-2013, 10:03 AM

Mowing
Fires east of Chico
Farmers market

TheMerryFairy · 05-03-2013, 02:38 PM

The difference a person can make in our lives.

I am thinking that I have been foolish to let things I cannot control get the better of me through my energy. I hope that my meditation exercises can help.

What else is on my mind?

I would really like to be able to go out on a date tonight, comfort, daydreams, my path and a few other things that I really don't know how to express.

I alway half wondered if I was meant to always go on my path alone but I have been hoping that it isn't true, even if I am still working towards my own dreams. I don't think it is and it can be a little scary sometimes, given the course of my life.

I am also thinking about my own patience and my patience for myself being difficult at the moment. If I am getting frustrated with myself and all of these overwhelming feelings sometimes then surely I cannot be the only one feeling it.

Wine. Wine might be nice or swimming in a hot spring. Or hand holding? Or maybe I just need to take some advice from Ellen and DANCE!

GreeneyedMe · 05-03-2013, 08:22 PM

My dad....he fell today....broke his hip....surgery tomorrow. Trying to help mom through it. Getting myself through it. He has beaten back his blood disease for now...and now this. UGH. He is 76 and in fair shape...I really hope he can recover from this. Him and mom enjoy each other so much and love being together...married 52 years....sigh....he doesn't deserve this. I will do all I can to help them. Dammit, it just sucks. I love my Dad.

girl_dee · 05-03-2013, 09:41 PM

a dip in the 40s tonite and the dang charlie horses in my feet

KCBUTCH · 05-03-2013, 10:07 PM

Long couple of days-I want to sleep, but I have too much reading to do for school
so it goes. maybe in an hour or so.

jac · 05-04-2013, 03:06 AM

How waking in the wee hours of the morning on a day off really blows.
The massive air pocket that caused me to wake up.
The errands I need to run this morning after I go back to sleep and wake up again. lol
Hoping there are new and fresh apartment searches today that I plan to check on periodically throughout the day starting now since I can't seem to drift back to sleep just yet.
Chocolate and the lack thereof in this cave dwelling of mine.

DMW · 05-04-2013, 05:38 AM

http://www.wolverine.com/US/en-US/Pr...t?dimensions=0

Those are just awesome.

And I need coffee.
Beautiful sunrise and the birds are chirping, foraging and singing.
I dig the smell of the blooms on the trees and the flowers wafting across my nares.

KCBUTCH · 05-04-2013, 03:52 PM

The way globalization has ruined so many cultures and lives, traditions, societies and status, leaving whole communities to die... DARN you SCHOOL! telling me the TRUTH...

Dominique · 05-04-2013, 05:35 PM

The Pittsburgh marathon is tomorrow. Boston is on my mind.

PaPa · 05-04-2013, 06:32 PM

Tonight I have a lot on my mind....

My son is in the hospital. He was admitted at 4:30 this morning for SupraVentricular Tachycardia. He will be in there at least until Monday when they perform the tests for his heart. He called me in tears today telling me he is afraid of dying and that he has been gasping for breath all day. They have told him it is not bad enough for him to be placed on oxygen yet, but he says there is no way he can sleep with the breathing difficulties.

Other than that my birth mother / sister had an emotional collapse today and melted like a puddle to the floor screaming and crying. It took all my adopted mother / grandmother could do to help her get up off the floor and to bed. She heard it because she was outside working in her flowerbed.

*Sighs. On top of both of those my exes father's cancer (the kids' grandfather) has returned. This time it is prostate cancer.

Just seems like things are falling apart here right now and I am torn in going all directions....

Lord, give me strength....

~ocean · 05-04-2013, 06:49 PM

does it matter ? lol ~

MysticOceansFL · 05-04-2013, 07:17 PM

Many things are on my mind

Miss Scarlett · 05-06-2013, 07:33 AM

The serious multi vehicle wreck I encountered on the way to work this morning and how glad I am that I didn't leave the house early as originally planned....otherwise my morning drive may have been rather "eventful"...Someone is definitely watching over me...

Despite the weather it was a wonderful weekend...only one thing would have made it even better...

JAGG · 05-06-2013, 07:39 AM

The future and reaching some more goals. Hoping things work out like I want.

LukeCian · 05-06-2013, 08:27 AM

A friend of mine who is going through something pretty serious. I have that helpless feeling knowing I can not help in any way. I send whatever energy I can. That will have to be enough.

~baby~doll~ · 05-06-2013, 09:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by LukeCian

A friend of mine who is going through something pretty serious. I have that helpless feeling knowing I can not help in any way. I send whatever energy I can. That will have to be enough.

Sending Your good thoughts and energy can be plenty. It can be a boost just knowing someone cares.
i am planning me day and trying to think my way though some difficulties i am having with my writing. It seems there is to much going on that has taken me out of my game. ugghhh now it is time to try and get my game back. There has been enough wallowing around here.

05-03-2013, 04:43 AM	#11381
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05-03-2013, 05:38 AM	#11382
Sparkle Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, please Relationship Status: Loved Up Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Western MA Posts: 2,183 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,001 Thanked 6,624 Times in 1,561 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	A long day to end a long (and challenging) week. Today is Grandparents & Special Friends Day at school. Actually my favorite of all the events I plan because I LOVE the mutual glee and adoration of the children and their grandparents. I felt the same way. I remember bringing my Grampa in for 'Parent Career Day' when I was in 1st grade. He was the City Animal Control officer at the time. Which was SUPER COOL when I was in 1st grade. He had a van and an official uniform with a fancy hat. We got to be outside and he had a couple of dogs with him, to meet my classmates. I was the coolest girl in the first grade that day, for sure. And I was soooooooo proud. Our house was also a temporary B&B for all strays who were in search of a new home; my Grandfather couldn't bare to bring them to the "pound" because there were no no-kill shelters in the late 70s/early 80s and most unclaimed animals were put down within a week of arrival. My Grandmother had the patience of a Saint. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by how much I still miss them; 24 years gone my Grampa - 7 years my Grama. And sometimes I can tap in to all the wonderful things they gave me, the most valuable piece being pure unadulterated love. It's a powerful thing. __________________ I am made of stars

05-03-2013, 05:42 AM	#11383
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05-03-2013, 10:03 AM	#11385
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05-03-2013, 08:22 PM	#11387
GreeneyedMe Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Sweet Femme ones Relationship Status: Peeking around the corner... Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Rochester, NY Posts: 874 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,380 Thanked 4,375 Times in 804 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	My dad :( My dad....he fell today....broke his hip....surgery tomorrow. Trying to help mom through it. Getting myself through it. He has beaten back his blood disease for now...and now this. UGH. He is 76 and in fair shape...I really hope he can recover from this. Him and mom enjoy each other so much and love being together...married 52 years....sigh....he doesn't deserve this. I will do all I can to help them. Dammit, it just sucks. I love my Dad. __________________ "I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy." ~Richard Bach

05-03-2013, 08:15 AM	#11384
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05-03-2013, 02:38 PM	#11386
TheMerryFairy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Pansexual/Sapiosexual femmey dyke who likes to crossdress now and then Preferred Pronoun?: She/her OR ze if I'm crossdressing Relationship Status: Floating and walking My path, happy in life. Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: On my Merry Fairy way! , Canada Posts: 3,630 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,727 Thanked 8,694 Times in 2,987 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	The difference a person can make in our lives. I am thinking that I have been foolish to let things I cannot control get the better of me through my energy. I hope that my meditation exercises can help. What else is on my mind? I would really like to be able to go out on a date tonight, comfort, daydreams, my path and a few other things that I really don't know how to express. I alway half wondered if I was meant to always go on my path alone but I have been hoping that it isn't true, even if I am still working towards my own dreams. I don't think it is and it can be a little scary sometimes, given the course of my life. I am also thinking about my own patience and my patience for myself being difficult at the moment. If I am getting frustrated with myself and all of these overwhelming feelings sometimes then surely I cannot be the only one feeling it. Wine. Wine might be nice or swimming in a hot spring. Or hand holding? Or maybe I just need to take some advice from Ellen and DANCE!

05-03-2013, 09:41 PM	#11388
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05-03-2013, 10:07 PM	#11389
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05-04-2013, 03:06 AM	#11390
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05-04-2013, 05:38 AM	#11391
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05-04-2013, 03:52 PM	#11392
KCBUTCH Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Undaunted QUEER Dom, Daddy Preferred Pronoun?: MYSELF, Syr, Hy, or friend prefered Relationship Status: Cautious, indifferent... Join Date: Jan 2013 Location: Below the foothills above the beach Posts: 1,848 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,240 Thanked 3,305 Times in 884 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	The way globalization has ruined so many cultures and lives, traditions, societies and status, leaving whole communities to die... DARN you SCHOOL! telling me the TRUTH... __________________ "If you want to know the secrets of the Universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration"-Nikola Tesla

05-04-2013, 05:35 PM	#11393
Dominique Member How Do You Identify?: Female/Lesbian/half the athlete I used to be Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Relationship Status: Dates Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: So proud to be a Pittsburgher Posts: 1,484 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,645 Thanked 3,735 Times in 1,168 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	The Pittsburgh marathon is tomorrow. Boston is on my mind. __________________ As long as there was coffee in the world, how bad could things be??

05-04-2013, 06:32 PM	#11394
PaPa Senior Member How Do You Identify?: GQ Butch Daddy Relationship Status: A Very Protective BIG Daddy... Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 2,657 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,597 Thanked 5,873 Times in 1,530 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	A lot... Tonight I have a lot on my mind.... My son is in the hospital. He was admitted at 4:30 this morning for SupraVentricular Tachycardia. He will be in there at least until Monday when they perform the tests for his heart. He called me in tears today telling me he is afraid of dying and that he has been gasping for breath all day. They have told him it is not bad enough for him to be placed on oxygen yet, but he says there is no way he can sleep with the breathing difficulties. Other than that my birth mother / sister had an emotional collapse today and melted like a puddle to the floor screaming and crying. It took all my adopted mother / grandmother could do to help her get up off the floor and to bed. She heard it because she was outside working in her flowerbed. *Sighs. On top of both of those my exes father's cancer (the kids' grandfather) has returned. This time it is prostate cancer. Just seems like things are falling apart here right now and I am torn in going all directions.... Lord, give me strength....

05-04-2013, 06:49 PM	#11395
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05-04-2013, 07:17 PM	#11396
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05-06-2013, 07:33 AM	#11397
Miss Scarlett Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: . Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: . Posts: 5,530 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,478 Thanked 12,949 Times in 3,419 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	The serious multi vehicle wreck I encountered on the way to work this morning and how glad I am that I didn't leave the house early as originally planned....otherwise my morning drive may have been rather "eventful"...Someone is definitely watching over me... Despite the weather it was a wonderful weekend...only one thing would have made it even better...

05-06-2013, 07:39 AM	#11398
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05-06-2013, 08:27 AM	#11399
LukeCian Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: Jake Tulane Relationship Status: Can you adjust suspenders and a bow tie? Join Date: Apr 2013 Location: New York Posts: 224 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,050 Thanked 805 Times in 207 Posts Rep Power: 0	A friend of mine who is going through something pretty serious. I have that helpless feeling knowing I can not help in any way. I send whatever energy I can. That will have to be enough.