What is on your mind - Page 7

WILDCAT · 11-21-2009, 08:07 PM

... the usual ten million things, I just can't believe "what I can't believe".

That is what is on my mind.

JustLovelyJenn · 11-22-2009, 12:21 AM

How some days I feel like this...

and some days I feel like this...

And I really wish I could make the icky days go away.

lillith · 11-22-2009, 12:36 AM

I am thinking that 13 years ago my life was so different. I miss some things and am grateful to have outlived others. It's kind of funny, this sort of apathy that takes over. And then I saw this:

and thought, "How funny to have the state of California randomly as a smilie." Then discovered it is a sock. Yup, that is the kind of day I am having.

NotAnAverageGuy · 11-22-2009, 02:47 AM

What was said between her and I this evening

Bit · 11-22-2009, 01:56 PM

Tiger Balm can make your back smell like the spices in chai tea....

someone should make that scent as a perfume...

Blaze · 11-22-2009, 02:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bit

Tiger Balm can make your back smell like the spices in chai tea....

someone should make that scent as a perfume...

Now that's a thought. I too like the scent of Tiger Balm, and your absolutely correct, it does smell like a spiced chai tea, wow, I knew the smell but could never pin point it.
As for my thought, I still wish Doll picked perfume again this year, instead of night wear, ~hush~ stop with the giggles of my old school pajama talk.
I still like flannel jammies!!!

Jet · 11-22-2009, 03:27 PM

Tutorials.......

blush · 11-22-2009, 09:19 PM

twodaystilthanksgivingbreak
twodaystilthanksgivingbreak

And yes, I'm using that "new" math.

Softly · 11-22-2009, 09:21 PM

I want to see new moon again.

violaine · 11-22-2009, 09:26 PM

a friend coming to town tomorrow for a few days

yummie scented vegan lotion

& a cup of coffee

Diva · 11-22-2009, 10:01 PM

Holy mother of GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adam Lambert just sang a BDSM song on the American Music Awards that was OVER THE FRIGGIN' TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mouth may have dropped open a few times! It was bold.....

Eddie · 11-22-2009, 10:21 PM

A lot lately.

Kosmo · 11-22-2009, 10:43 PM

The short work week. *thumbs up* Too many smilies to go through to find a thumbs up. *chuckles* That's another one, though I guess it could also be *giggles*

weatherboi · 11-22-2009, 10:48 PM

I love it that my dogs sleep so sound!!

JustLovelyJenn · 11-22-2009, 11:04 PM

Lately there always seem to be a million things on my mind. Dreams and possibilities, eventualities, what-if's, worries and even a few regrets. A lot of "I'm not good enough"s and now and then a few "I cant believe I did it"s. Every once in a while I get like this... Its my sign to myself that its probably time to reevaluate again, make sure that I am headed in the right direction. I have been doing that the last few weeks and I am starting to come to some conclusions.

So whats on my mind right now is a little like this....

I have always wanted to sing, since I was old enough to know I got to be something when I grew up it was always with my voice, a rockstar, a jazz singer, and when I matured and took a real look, a music teacher... a high school choir teacher to be exact. I decided that when I was in 9th grade, it never changed. I went on job shadows for that, I planned out college for that, and I started college for that. Then rebellion kicked in... I got married (to someone I shouldn't have, mostly because my parents hated him) and I had two beautiful kids, I quit school and I stayed at home to raise them. The ill fated marriage didn't last long, not quite 5 years. I got some help to go back to school... but only if I studied one of their approved programs, so it was Medical Reception for me. Work in that field is now hard to find... and I have never used the certification, I got my kids back from their dad, where they had lived while I was in school, and my mother suggested a fall back. Shes a teacher and she suggested that I work as a substitute educational assistant, the schooling I have provides the necessary credits for this position.

One day on the job working in the local high school was enough to bring back all the passion I have ever had for teaching and more! So now is where the hard part comes in. I have a goal... its the getting there that needs figured out.

When I took back my children, I also moved back in with my parents. My son is a special needs child and raising him on my own would not allow me to provide the extras that are so important to children, and the special attention he in particular needs. I talked to my mother about my desire we have agreed that I can stay with them for the next 4 to 5 years while I work and go to school to get my teaching certificate. Its going to be a long road but a very rewarding one.

This is the first time since I turned 18 that I have finally felt like my life is headed somewhere. It makes me very happy, but it has accentuated a missing element in my life. Someone to share my happiness with. My focus has been so much on my children and my home that I haven't had time or opportunity to be out and about... I know that somewhere there is someone perfected paired for me. I am just sometimes afraid that in my "one thing at a time" outlook to life, I might have walked right past them already.

When I do run into this person, I am sure it will be a head on collision, if not, I probably wont even notice... And most likely, they will be exactly the opposite of everything I think I want. Until then I guess I just keep fumbling through life. At least my feet are pointed in a general direction again.

Bit · 11-23-2009, 01:19 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Blaze

~hush~ stop with the giggles of my old school pajama talk.
I still like flannel jammies!!!

Shhhhh... *looks all around; nobody to overhear* come over here and I will tell you a lil secret.... *speaking very softly* when Gryph wears flannel, velour, fleece, anything like that, I cannot keep my hands off him. I have to pet him.... oh yeah *nods*

...........But then *she says normally* I have to pet the cats and the dog too, and for the same reason: they're sooo soft.

Flannel is just not about sex appeal, lol.... sorry, Blaze...

Surayna · 11-23-2009, 02:36 AM

Daddy had two clients at the house tonight. I am so proud of the work she does.

NotAnAverageGuy · 11-23-2009, 08:25 PM

I miss her and wish she would be at home but nooo she is at work

my sister might be coming into town a day early and not alot is done at my house and my parents house in preparation for her arrival with her hooligans lol

Bit · 11-23-2009, 08:38 PM

YAAAY the Planet is back! or maybe that was just my puter, glitching? Glad to be able to post again, anyhow!

JustLovelyJenn · 11-23-2009, 11:33 PM

Thanksgiving dinner... and that I haven't started cooking it yet!!

11-21-2009, 08:07 PM	#121
WILDCAT Member How Do You Identify?: Very PROUD BUTCH LESBIAN! Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: PA Posts: 679 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 796 Thanked 547 Times in 236 Posts Rep Power: 761790	Other than... ... the usual ten million things, I just can't believe "what I can't believe". That is what is on my mind.

11-22-2009, 12:21 AM	#122
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,995 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	How some days I feel like this... and some days I feel like this... And I really wish I could make the icky days go away. __________________ --Jenn

11-22-2009, 09:19 PM	#128
blush Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: I'm with goofy. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Texas Posts: 911 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 962 Thanked 2,376 Times in 616 Posts Rep Power: 15632316	twodaystilthanksgivingbreak twodaystilthanksgivingbreak And yes, I'm using that "new" math. __________________ "We never forget those who make us blush." Jean-Francois de la Harpe

11-22-2009, 11:04 PM	#135
JustLovelyJenn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: That's Need to Know Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Aberdeen, WA Posts: 4,478 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,464 Thanked 13,995 Times in 3,685 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Lately there always seem to be a million things on my mind. Dreams and possibilities, eventualities, what-if's, worries and even a few regrets. A lot of "I'm not good enough"s and now and then a few "I cant believe I did it"s. Every once in a while I get like this... Its my sign to myself that its probably time to reevaluate again, make sure that I am headed in the right direction. I have been doing that the last few weeks and I am starting to come to some conclusions. So whats on my mind right now is a little like this.... I have always wanted to sing, since I was old enough to know I got to be something when I grew up it was always with my voice, a rockstar, a jazz singer, and when I matured and took a real look, a music teacher... a high school choir teacher to be exact. I decided that when I was in 9th grade, it never changed. I went on job shadows for that, I planned out college for that, and I started college for that. Then rebellion kicked in... I got married (to someone I shouldn't have, mostly because my parents hated him) and I had two beautiful kids, I quit school and I stayed at home to raise them. The ill fated marriage didn't last long, not quite 5 years. I got some help to go back to school... but only if I studied one of their approved programs, so it was Medical Reception for me. Work in that field is now hard to find... and I have never used the certification, I got my kids back from their dad, where they had lived while I was in school, and my mother suggested a fall back. Shes a teacher and she suggested that I work as a substitute educational assistant, the schooling I have provides the necessary credits for this position. One day on the job working in the local high school was enough to bring back all the passion I have ever had for teaching and more! So now is where the hard part comes in. I have a goal... its the getting there that needs figured out. When I took back my children, I also moved back in with my parents. My son is a special needs child and raising him on my own would not allow me to provide the extras that are so important to children, and the special attention he in particular needs. I talked to my mother about my desire we have agreed that I can stay with them for the next 4 to 5 years while I work and go to school to get my teaching certificate. Its going to be a long road but a very rewarding one. This is the first time since I turned 18 that I have finally felt like my life is headed somewhere. It makes me very happy, but it has accentuated a missing element in my life. Someone to share my happiness with. My focus has been so much on my children and my home that I haven't had time or opportunity to be out and about... I know that somewhere there is someone perfected paired for me. I am just sometimes afraid that in my "one thing at a time" outlook to life, I might have walked right past them already. When I do run into this person, I am sure it will be a head on collision, if not, I probably wont even notice... And most likely, they will be exactly the opposite of everything I think I want. Until then I guess I just keep fumbling through life. At least my feet are pointed in a general direction again. __________________ --Jenn

11-23-2009, 02:36 AM	#137
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11-22-2009, 12:36 AM	#123
lillith Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, her, hey you! Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 514 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 204 Thanked 687 Times in 224 Posts Rep Power: 5173240	I am thinking that 13 years ago my life was so different. I miss some things and am grateful to have outlived others. It's kind of funny, this sort of apathy that takes over. And then I saw this: and thought, "How funny to have the state of California randomly as a smilie." Then discovered it is a sock. Yup, that is the kind of day I am having.

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NotAnAverageGuy Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Trans Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Texas Posts: 1,723 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 109 Thanked 282 Times in 178 Posts Rep Power: 0	I miss her and wish she would be at home but nooo she is at work my sister might be coming into town a day early and not alot is done at my house and my parents house in preparation for her arrival with her hooligans lol

11-23-2009, 08:38 PM	#139
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