PTSD and Trauma recovery

[Apocalipstic]

I am so sorry this is happening Shug! Is there a way to distance yourself from your ex? I get being glad she still wants you, but it seems to be dragging you down? I am thinking about you and sending you happy vibes!!!!

Or maybe it's the pollen....or who knows what can set off depression. Logically things can seem so wonderful, but underneath the pain and anger simmers.

Sometimes It is hard to know what will set me off. I am considering another psychiatric visit if I don't feel better.

I love you guys and am so thankful we have this place to vent and share.

Hugs all around!

Jen

[TenderKnight]

(((((((((((Shug)))))))))))) sending you some positive thoughts and hugs.. I can relate with what you are going through, as I'm sure a lot of us on this thread can. I agree with Jen.. Is there anyway to set some bounderies or distance with the ex? I was in a simular situation a few years back.. I had an on again off again thing with this woman and it complicated my r/t relationships to no end. I loved giving my power over to this woman, even though she didn't really want it in the way I was giving it.. *shakes my head* Haven't been in contact with her for over three years and I still think about her sometimes. The head and the heart are weird things sometimes..

Wishing you the very best in this process.

Andrew, yes, I am going to ask my sponcer to come with me.. He has been part of my life for over a year and I trust him with everything.. I'm very grateful to have him. I will also be looking into some therapy soon.. I know that I need it, but part of me keeps putting it off. I think that may be some depression stuff coming up.

((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) To everyone on this thread.. Hope today brings you a little light and warmth.

-Tony

[Apocalipstic]

It is natural to think abusers can change. In the years I avoided my father, there were so many times I wondered if possibly I went back things could be different this time. But they never were.

Tony, so glad to hear you will have someone with at court. Just the noise and people can be stressful ion themselves.

[TenderKnight]

Yeah.. I have real issues with crowds anyway.. I get tense and start to stress out. As long as my back is to the wall and I'm near an exit, I'm fine, but if I'm stuck there.. OMG.. crazy time in my head.. Talking myself down the whole time, lol.

I want to thank you again, Jen, for creating this thread.. it has helped me and it gives me something to look forward to in the mornings.. That may sound silly, it may not.. But it's true. Thank you.

[Apocalipstic]

I am so glad to come in here and see what you all are up to too. It is kind of a grounding point. So thank you too!

I do not like crowds at all or loud noises or fussy people.....and it gets worse the older I am.

[Andrew, Jr.]

Crowds are ok. It just depends on who is there in the crowd. You know what I mean. If it is strangers, then no. For example, I am not into going clubbing like I was when I was a teenager. I would rather watch a ball game on TV. Or grill outside on my deck, smoke a cigar, and talk with my neighbors. I am at a point in my life that I no longer take things for granite. My home is my castle type of thing. I love it.

My father is my abuser. I can tell him something and he will go off on me for no reason at all. He is just a mean-spirited elderly man. His joy is ranting and raving about my mistakes in life starting when I was 5 yo. Yep. He goes back that far. When I tell people about my abuser I always say the phrase "crazy as a fox". It is the only way to describe him. He is smart, but nuts. I pity him, and pray for him. That is all that is left to do.

Tony,

I am glad you got your sponsor involved. Good for you!

Apocalipstic,

I have no idea about switching doctors. I am not a good one to ask. You know I just have no more strength or belief in anyone in the medical community because of my past history with doctors and therapists and their betrayal of my trust.

Shug,

I am happy to hear the news about your aunt. That is a positive step!

I think we all go thru the ups and downs in life. It is a rollercoaster. And finding that even keel is just hard work. Some days it is perfect, and others it is just a struggle and fight to get to Point A, and forget about Point B. Take your vitamins, and meds, say your prayers, and go for it. At least that is what I do. All the glory goes to God for keeping me alive this long.

Much love and peace to everyone,
Andrew, living 1 day at a time

[JustBeingMe]

PTSD, oh yeah, I have it. I have a new reason to have it as well. It's a bitch that I gotta deal with and it ain't easy sometimes either. I hope all of you that have this are able to cope with better days ahead.