For those for whom Mother's Day is not a Good Day

Cowboi · 05-06-2010, 07:30 PM

My Momma died March 3, 1993. Mothers day always makes me sad.

To my Momma, The Yellow Rose of Texas!!! I miss you!
Love always, your little Tomboi!

05-06-2010, 07:59 PM

has become just another day to me. I have not spoken to my bio-mom for almost 3.5 years. She was the best person she knew how to be as we grew up. She was 15 when she got pregnant and honestly I think she blamed me for her missing out on her teen years etc, There was always some type of issue regarding me with her. I left home at 15 and moved in with my Paternal Grandparents. That was to me my mom & dad. I have lost them both due to cancer and various other medical stuff. I miss my Grandma really bad, some days are good some days are bad - However I know she was sick and is in a far better place. This Mother's day will not be a day for me to remember a woman who simply gave birth to me (my bio-mom) But I will think back on all the wonderful things my Grandma said, did and taught me throughout our time together.
Her advice to me was always " Chin up and chest out" Gawd I used to cringe and roll my eyes at her only for us to both laugh.
She assisted my fetish with Boy George - bought me the clothes only to tell me " You know someday you are going to act like him" --- Go Figure Gram! *LOL*

When I told her I was into women, that I was gay and and not going to be the typical grand-daughter many would expect me to be.... She stood by me...hugged me and told me she loved me.... Then again as I look back she lit 2 cig's and was smoking them both she was so nervous. LOL I would go get my hair cut and she would call the hair lady and tell her " Dont let her cut her hair that short again, leave the curls" - I had to sit her down and calmly explain - Gram I am 30 - I want to cut my hair my way (which I did) but she still called....LOL

I wish I could call her and say hello or what a wonderful women I think she truly is - Then again, I wish I could call her and wish her a Happy Mother's Day on Sunday - I cant obviously but I can and will remember our times.

So Happy Mothers Day to anyone out there who is deserving of a title such as Mother.

Remember anyone can have a child - but it takes a real lady in my opinion to be a Mother.

ruthie14 · 05-07-2010, 04:09 AM

((((Cowboi))))) (((((Toxic)))))))

Miss Scarlett · 05-07-2010, 04:42 AM

The other day I bought 2 Mother's Day cards. One for Shelia's mother and one for my stepmother. I cannot express how difficult it was to buy the one for my stepmother. I could not bring myself to get her anything mushy or cute but I wanted to acknowledge her somehow. It says "Wishing you a wonderful and happy Mother's Day."

My Mom would have expected this from me out of respect to my stepmother but that did not make it any easier.

Still I felt guilty, like I was betraying Mom or something.

I'm not going to the cemetery this weekend. I will go next weekend. We always celebrated Mother's Day and Mom's birthday on the weekend between the two dates.

ruthie14 · 05-08-2010, 08:46 AM

(((Miss Scarlett))))

Going out to try to take my mind off things. Keep myself busy. This will be a hard day... Mother's day is everywhere... and I always seem hyperaware of kids and moms and pregnant women in particular. They seem to come out of the woodwork.

Will keep us all in my prayers for Strength and peace.

05-06-2010, 07:30 PM	#1
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05-06-2010, 07:59 PM	#2
ToXiC Guest Tournaments Won: 1 Posts: n/a My Photo Gallery	Mother's Day.... has become just another day to me. I have not spoken to my bio-mom for almost 3.5 years. She was the best person she knew how to be as we grew up. She was 15 when she got pregnant and honestly I think she blamed me for her missing out on her teen years etc, There was always some type of issue regarding me with her. I left home at 15 and moved in with my Paternal Grandparents. That was to me my mom & dad. I have lost them both due to cancer and various other medical stuff. I miss my Grandma really bad, some days are good some days are bad - However I know she was sick and is in a far better place. This Mother's day will not be a day for me to remember a woman who simply gave birth to me (my bio-mom) But I will think back on all the wonderful things my Grandma said, did and taught me throughout our time together. Her advice to me was always " Chin up and chest out" Gawd I used to cringe and roll my eyes at her only for us to both laugh. She assisted my fetish with Boy George - bought me the clothes only to tell me " You know someday you are going to act like him" --- Go Figure Gram! LOL When I told her I was into women, that I was gay and and not going to be the typical grand-daughter many would expect me to be.... She stood by me...hugged me and told me she loved me.... Then again as I look back she lit 2 cig's and was smoking them both she was so nervous. LOL I would go get my hair cut and she would call the hair lady and tell her " Dont let her cut her hair that short again, leave the curls" - I had to sit her down and calmly explain - Gram I am 30 - I want to cut my hair my way (which I did) but she still called....LOL I wish I could call her and say hello or what a wonderful women I think she truly is - Then again, I wish I could call her and wish her a Happy Mother's Day on Sunday - I cant obviously but I can and will remember our times. So Happy Mothers Day to anyone out there who is deserving of a title such as Mother. Remember anyone can have a child - but it takes a real lady in my opinion to be a Mother.

05-07-2010, 04:09 AM	#3
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05-07-2010, 04:42 AM	#4
Miss Scarlett Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: . Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: . Posts: 5,530 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,478 Thanked 12,947 Times in 3,419 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	The other day I bought 2 Mother's Day cards. One for Shelia's mother and one for my stepmother. I cannot express how difficult it was to buy the one for my stepmother. I could not bring myself to get her anything mushy or cute but I wanted to acknowledge her somehow. It says "Wishing you a wonderful and happy Mother's Day." My Mom would have expected this from me out of respect to my stepmother but that did not make it any easier. Still I felt guilty, like I was betraying Mom or something. I'm not going to the cemetery this weekend. I will go next weekend. We always celebrated Mother's Day and Mom's birthday on the weekend between the two dates.

05-08-2010, 08:46 AM	#5
ruthie14 Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: NJ Posts: 844 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,904 Thanked 1,245 Times in 461 Posts Rep Power: 5946335	(((Miss Scarlett)))) Going out to try to take my mind off things. Keep myself busy. This will be a hard day... Mother's day is everywhere... and I always seem hyperaware of kids and moms and pregnant women in particular. They seem to come out of the woodwork. Will keep us all in my prayers for Strength and peace.