Diabetic anyone?

[JustJo]

(((( ravfem ))))...thanks for joining us. I also had gestational diabetes...although we now believe it was actually just undiagnosed diabetes that we happened to catch when I was pregnant since I had what looked like 20 year old eye damage.

I also had chronic yeast infections...in fact, any little infection would run wild with me as a teenager and young adult. I also had high blood pressure even as young as 18, and always showed blood and protein in any urine test in college. Looking back...either diabetic or close to it, but as you said - they weren't testing then like they do now.

My hug for you is also about the fatigue...which I feel. There are days when I am so exhausted that all I want to do is sit down and cry, even when I feel like I haven't done enough to warrant that level of tiredness. And times when I will sit down on the couch to relax for a minute in the late afternoon or early evening and find myself sound asleep ...or struggling to keep my eyes open.

And, even more, for the feeling of helplessness and depression. When I was first diagnosed and told was the medications were, the blood testing, the diet, the needles...to poke my finger in the beginning and the prospect of injections in my future...it was all pretty overwhelming and depressing. For me, food has been a big part of my comfort, an expression of love, all of that emotional stuff hooked up with it. I remember sitting there and telling myself that all I had to do was get my son grown...and then I could stop taking meds, eat what I wanted and...well...if I died from diabetic complications young then I wouldn't be the first one. My feelings about that have changed (thankfully), but I still feel the depression and frustration more often than I'd like.

Hugs to everyone...feels good to be able to share this stuff.