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I logged in to say thank you all for the support. The cancer has gone from bones to lungs. I am no longer doing any treatment. I just wanted to tell you that you were the best support when this journey began. lots of love and hugs XOXOXOXOXOXO
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Hey Deb...very sorry to hear this. Please know you are in our thoughts & sends you hugs!!
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Sending positive energy and light your way~~~I will be thinking of you.
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I see my oncologist next week. I just had bloodwork done this week....he checks my tumor marker levels every 6 months. My colonoscopy & EGD were "clean" back in January! I expect great news when I get the latest bloodwork results also!!!!.....
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. I am now 5 years (come December) surviving!!!!Thanks for everyone's kind words & support through this journey!!!
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Congrats Clay! Happy to hear it.
I also got great results this week from blood work markers and ultrasound. Doctor said I can be considered cured from my thyroid cancer and just need annual blood work for the markers now. This thread gets both the very sad and very happy news. Sometimes I feel guilty when others are not as fortunate. Cancer is a fucker. It knows not who or what we are when it attacks us and does not care. Prayers and healing good thoughts to those that are still fighting the battle. Comfort and peace to anyone that is not able to fight anymore.
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Thank you Anya!
That is great news for you as well...congrats!!! Yes, it is a thread filled with good & not so good news sometimes, BUT it is a wonderfully supportive & compassionate thread. It got me through my journey....and still comforts me. Hugs for everyone here.....
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I have my annual CAT scan in a month (moved to annual this year). I am several months late on my colonoscopy. I get sick of doing them so often (every 6 months). The prep doesn't even bother me, it is just having to deal with medical stuff that gets annoying. And yeah, I guess I don't like being reminded of my history with cancer, either!
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A year ago today I was four weeks out from some major surgery and was starting my first day of four months of some serious chemotherapy. I had shaved my head to donate my hair, rather than having it just fall out, and was in a dark scary place.
Today, I'm working in the morning, then taking my daughter on a college tour, and then I want to make a really good dinner. My hair is growing and I'm feeling healthy and strong. What a year... The anniversaries are good for me to celebrate when I "reclaim" days because otherwise when I have these "one year later" moments it can just rear up anxiety and worry. The anxiety and worry still pop up, but I'm trying hard to crowd that out with positives. Cheers, everyone! |
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I will be thinking of you & waiting to see your posts after your exam! Know you are always in my heart & thoughts DB!!!!
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Does anyone ever speak with Lady Pamela?
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Today we found out my mom has cancer again. In September we went for her 3 month check-up and her blood work showed that her CA125 was high. They told her to wait 30 days to test again. We did that Tuesday and on Wednesday they called to say the numbers were higher than in September and that she should have a CT scan of her chest, abdomen and pelvis. That appointment was today and they said the results would be available in 24 hours. I was thinking Monday afternoon or Tuesday we'd hear something. However, they called right after we got home to say the cancer is back. Tuesday we have an appointment with her oncologist.
Understandably my mom is upset. She's resting on the couch and she asked me to call all my siblings because she doesn't want to talk about it. These last 30 days have been hell. She's been so stressed and of course that overflows on to me and the grandkids because she's so tense. I don't know what to expect now. She had already said she doesn't think she can do it again. She fought last time and I know she'll fight again...she just seems defeated right now. Our family doesn't show or share our feelings or emotions so it's hard to know what to say. I moved home from Atlanta to help her when we found out she had cancer the first time. I haven't had a job since. I was just starting to look again because she had been doing so well. When we found out in September about the blood test my older sister said I should hold off looking until we know. Even though I've been helping my mom I still feel like a loser for not working and I worry the longer I go the harder it will be. My other siblings don't help so I feel sort of lost right now. I say we throughout this post because even though my relationship with my mom has been horrible at times I feel like we are a team when it comes to fighting this cancer. I wish I could make it all better for her. |
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I am so very sad to hear this. It IS a very tough road...past & ahead. Even though you are down on yourself right now, the main thing to remember YOU stepped up to the proverbial plate when no one else did! That speaks volumes about YOU! Also, knowing the relationship wasn't good, you STILL did the right thing! That is admirable, my friend!! None of us would want to have to see a parent or anyone else suffer, but we still want to make things better. YOU are a source of inspiration just being with her, you are standing by her, and I am sending you positive energies & wishes for her to battle this again. Know you aren't alone my friend.....I am always here for you buddy!! Be gentle with yourself!!!! Love you much, wrang!!!
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I came here reading through yesterday and began to write a reply to your post but some how couldn't find the right words. However I woke this morning with a few people on my mind, a loved one who has had the worst news, loved ones passed and still fighting, my own uncertain future and you and your Mom too went through my thoughts so I am here again. It made me realise that even though people have never met/interacted before, this in no way means that we can not feel real empathy and concern when we read of cancer rearing its ugly head again. When I tried to write the first time I was worried my words felt flat and didnt convey my empathy enough so I want to say I am sorry your Mom has to go through this fight again, that I dont think the word loser suits your situation, Hero is the word, it is no easy decision to give up a wage and working life to be with someone 24/7 to support and care for them, many would run a mile, it sounds like you are alone in this job, I commend you for it, I`m sure closing the door and setting off to work some days must be a far easier option. I too had a difficult to say the least relationship with my Mother so again I commend you. I shall keep you and your Mom in my thoughts, along with the other folk I think of often, sending positive thoughts and wishing gentle days to all who are touched by this fight.
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Thank you everyone !! I am doing good. Saw the doctor today. My hair is growing back from 17 hits of radiation. Still cant drive or go back home by myself yet. Maybe another 2 months. Kinda getting my appetite back. I look different. creepy to me.
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