Caregivers and Stress

[TruTexan]

me, I'm a caregiver to my mom already and now my aunt, since my uncle recently passed away. I'm stressed out big time. my ptsd is running an ugly muckity muck in me. I've been ordered by my therapist to do watercolor painting, even though I suck at artistic abilities, and adult coloring with coloring pencils. I'm not amused by this but I'll give it a good go and hopefully it will help lower my own stress levels from my own crap in my head going on. I go for a heart stress test next week just to be on the safe side of my life. I wanted a full blown check up for blockages due to hereditary issues with cholesterol crap in my arteries. Ok ok I'm shutting up. I haven't posted in a while because I'm not enjoying doing much of anything this past couple months. I hope everyone here is getting the support they need. God Bless ya'll.

[Kelt]

Saw this great little video on PBS Newshour this evening:



I was never around the elderly until my father died and I had to move my mother into an elder community. During and after her move I've had occasion to spend 1-3 weeks at a time there with her, (they have guest suites to let), I always have dinner with her in the dining room at a group of 6 friends table, we walk on the campus trails and bump into neighbors, go to her knitting group to be social, etc...

I've gotten to know many of her friends and neighbors to the point of visiting them as well when I am there.

I'm gaining an appreciation for what is really involved in aging in several different ways. I think this is invaluable information, and as much as I may carp about it sometimes, this time may be the best life lesson gift she could give me.

A little pre-Mother's day thankfulness.

[socialjustice_fsu]

Originally Posted by Kelt

Saw this great little video on PBS Newshour this evening:



I was never around the elderly until my father died and I had to move my mother into an elder community. During and after her move I've had occasion to spend 1-3 weeks at a time there with her, (they have guest suites to let), I always have dinner with her in the dining room at a group of 6 friends table, we walk on the campus trails and bump into neighbors, go to her knitting group to be social, etc...

I've gotten to know many of her friends and neighbors to the point of visiting them as well when I am there.

I'm gaining an appreciation for what is really involved in aging in several different ways. I think this is invaluable information, and as much as I may carp about it sometimes, this time may be the best life lesson gift she could give me.

A little pre-Mother's day thankfulness.

This is so apropos for my situation right now, too. Thank you for sharing this. I had no idea my life would detour this way as I become mom's full time caregiver.

[storyspinner70]

I care for my ex. He's 42, but has had a lot of physical issues as well as mental illness. He was abusive when we were together, and has no one else but a sister who is more mentally ill than he. He has Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, OCD which makes him extremely paranoid, ADHD, dyslexia and a host of physical problems - diabetes and neuropathy because of it, hbp, lesions in his brain more than likely caused by the abuse he suffered as a child, etc, etc, etc. He's on roughly 20 separate medications a day.

Generally speaking, he's mobile and gets along pretty well on his own physically, though he tires easily. He is not very well educated in technology, and his dyslexia makes it hard for him to understand things he reads unless he spends a rather long time at it, so I end up taking care of all his bills and his disability check. He can't even write a check or use the ATM without me with him. He does his own laundry, mows the grass (but can't weed eat), pays for our cell phone bill, helps around the house. So, it's not a one-way street.

It's just so hard to deal with him sometimes. The paranoia especially makes for a lot of frustration. I feel "stuck" with him, because I am. I doubt anyone would be able to deal with him, so can't see him ever moving in with any of his girlfriends. Leaving him with no one to care for him is not an option, either. So here I am.

I'm always thinking how much easier my life would be. I try very hard to be patient and I'm failing. He's a better person than he used to be and is no longer abusive, but the stress of dealing with his mental illnesses gets to me. I get angry with him when I should understand. I found some online support places because I can't afford therapy right now with the monthly price of his medication and me having no insurance, and I need somewhere to work through my issues so I stop taking them out on him. I have times of depression, because he is a lot of what is keeping my butch and I long distance. It's so fucking hard. I love him like a brother and resent the hell out of him at the same time.

Women in my family generally live to or past 100, but all seem to have dementia or alzheimer's. My mother is 68 so hopefully I have plenty of time, but even that hits me sometimes - what would I do caring for both of them?

[girl_dee]

My mom is declining and its a hard thing to witness.

She's not the gentle, sweet old lady, heck she's not even old.

[dykeumentary]

Originally Posted by socialjustice_fsu

This is so apropos for my situation right now, too. Thank you for sharing this. I had no idea my life would detour this way as I become mom's full time caregiver.

And I sure didn't ever imagine that I would be my mom's caregiver!
I was the least likely of her children to even reach 25 years old, and certainly put as much distance as I could between myself and my family (and they wanted me far away too) back in the 80s.
But here I am.
It's very very difficult.

[Kelt]

Originally Posted by Kelt

Saw this great little video on PBS Newshour this evening:



I was never around the elderly until my father died and I had to move my mother into an elder community. During and after her move I've had occasion to spend 1-3 weeks at a time there with her, (they have guest suites to let), I always have dinner with her in the dining room at a group of 6 friends table, we walk on the campus trails and bump into neighbors, go to her knitting group to be social, etc...

I've gotten to know many of her friends and neighbors to the point of visiting them as well when I am there.

I'm gaining an appreciation for what is really involved in aging in several different ways. I think this is invaluable information, and as much as I may carp about it sometimes, this time may be the best life lesson gift she could give me.

A little pre-Mother's day thankfulness.

She did it!

In the first minute of this video, Flossie asks "Will this go viral?"

Update: As of tonight over 4 million views.

Made me smile big.

[girl_dee]

I am currently trying to arrange to work from home. Iknow my mom will need me during the day soon.

[socialjustice_fsu]

There are times here lately the only solace I find is through tears and prayer. Does anyone else feel this way? I know this sounds so foolish but I watched a rerun of Frasier late tonight. It was the last one of the last season, I think. I cried until I almost made myself physically ill. It felt like a thousand tears was shed over this stupid rerun...then I wondered if all the fears and unknowns had to find an escape and this was it.

[girl_dee]

Originally Posted by socialjustice_fsu

There are times here lately the only solace I find is through tears and prayer. Does anyone else feel this way? I know this sounds so foolish but I watched a rerun of Frasier late tonight. It was the last one of the last season, I think. I cried until I almost made myself physically ill. It felt like a thousand tears was shed over this stupid rerun...then I wondered if all the fears and unknowns had to find an escape and this was it.

For me i am.just scared for my mom. Glad you had a release

[socialjustice_fsu]

Originally Posted by girl_dee

For me i am.just scared for my mom. Glad you had a release

Dee, I am so scared for my mom, too. I have never known fear this deep and wide. I am thinking of you and holding you close. Please know that.