"straight" women and Butches.

[Gemme]

Originally Posted by Gretchen 1965

Please try not to judge me too much as this forum is supposed to be accepting and non-judgemental.I don’t know what it is, but ever since around high school heterosexual attractive tall curvy feminine females have been very uncomfortable around me.Does anyone relate to this or understand why straight women would get scared or creeped out or repulsed by someone so fast if they’re not really a rapist? Can it really be facial features alone (really ugly wrinkled face)? What kind of outward behaviour will make them creeped out or repulsed?I am short and skinny.it’s not like I randomly walk up to them and start touching their breasts or something. I at least know that that would be totally inappropriate. I am tiny short skinny 53year old masculine woman.I am not tough and strong. I am not intimidating.I am physically completely harmless.

You mentioned that you feel awkward sometimes. That feeling will show in your mannerisms and behavior and that could be off-putting for some people. Also, if you are hyper-focused on a woman, that can be intense and concerning for someone, regardless of your physical presentation.

I'm not sure what you mean by "not really a rapist". Can you elaborate?

[Gretchen 1965]

Originally Posted by Gemme

You mentioned that you feel awkward sometimes. That feeling will show in your mannerisms and behavior and that could be off-putting for some people. Also, if you are hyper-focused on a woman, that can be intense and concerning for someone, regardless of your physical presentation.

I'm not sure what you mean by "not really a rapist". Can you elaborate?

I still find it difficult to be normal around tall well endowed curvy heterosexual feminine women. I feel immensely attracted even standing next to tall,curvy, feminine women. Has anyone dealt with this? For me the, taller a woman the better. If there's a tall feminine woman who's busty and is showing a generous amount of cleavage, well my brain just gets hypnotized by them. Its like I can't focus on her face, my eyes lock on to them like magnets. I've had this problem for a long time (since high school) it probably comes about because of my sexual frustration but I constantly find my eyes darting down to tall curvy female's breasts and butts when I'm talking to them or just pass them.
Its real embarrassing, I feel like I'm some lewd perv but there's no conscious thought, my eyes just lock on to them without my control. Its just tall well endowed curvy ultrafeminine women, not skinny, overweight or short women. My other problem is all the women I gotten far with were not my physical type. I am ugly. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I will take long drives and just think about how sad my life is, how lonely I have become, the things I regret, and what I could have done differently. I do this a few times a week, drive and cry. It makes me feel better momentarily.

I haven't been happy in years, I don't see any signs of it getting any better. I see most people getting excited for the weekend, but for me, I get depressed. I have no girlfriend. I have no one. I have friends, and I have had girlfriends and a long term (12 years) relationship, but only because people tend to like me when they get to know me. I've never received compliments on my looks. It's like my whole life is a struggle because of this. I never feel great or like a winner. I keep no pictures of myself. Sometimes I'll take some with my laptop's webcam or my cellphone, and when I look at them it's really painful. I've taken pictures from every angle and every single one of them looks terrible.

And the problem is that I can't stand to be in any type of relationship anymore because of that. I'm 53 now and the last time I went on a date was 2 years ago. Some feminine lesbian women I've known for a while seem attracted to me, flirt or invite me to activities, but I remember how they looked at me the first time they saw me, and it just kills it for me. Maybe I'm vain and shallow. I know this sounds perverted. Like, just, I always have to hold back urges to just touch some tall curvy women breasts or butt. I just get urges to reach out and grope breasts, or slap their butts, or whatever.

[tantalizingfemme]

Originally Posted by Gretchen 1965

I still find it difficult to be normal around tall well endowed curvy heterosexual feminine women. I feel immensely attracted even standing next to tall,curvy, feminine women. Has anyone dealt with this? For me the, taller a woman the better. If there's a tall feminine woman who's busty and is showing a generous amount of cleavage, well my brain just gets hypnotized by them. Its like I can't focus on her face, my eyes lock on to them like magnets. I've had this problem for a long time (since high school) it probably comes about because of my sexual frustration but I constantly find my eyes darting down to tall curvy female's breasts and butts when I'm talking to them or just pass them.
Its real embarrassing, I feel like I'm some lewd perv but there's no conscious thought, my eyes just lock on to them without my control. Its just tall well endowed curvy ultrafeminine women, not skinny, overweight or short women. My other problem is all the women I gotten far with were not my physical type. I am ugly. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I will take long drives and just think about how sad my life is, how lonely I have become, the things I regret, and what I could have done differently. I do this a few times a week, drive and cry. It makes me feel better momentarily.

I haven't been happy in years, I don't see any signs of it getting any better. I see most people getting excited for the weekend, but for me, I get depressed. I have no girlfriend. I have no one. I have friends, and I have had girlfriends and a long term (12 years) relationship, but only because people tend to like me when they get to know me. I've never received compliments on my looks. It's like my whole life is a struggle because of this. I never feel great or like a winner. I keep no pictures of myself. Sometimes I'll take some with my laptop's webcam or my cellphone, and when I look at them it's really painful. I've taken pictures from every angle and every single one of them looks terrible.

And the problem is that I can't stand to be in any type of relationship anymore because of that. I'm 53 now and the last time I went on a date was 2 years ago. Some feminine lesbian women I've known for a while seem attracted to me, flirt or invite me to activities, but I remember how they looked at me the first time they saw me, and it just kills it for me. Maybe I'm vain and shallow. I know this sounds perverted. Like, just, I always have to hold back urges to just touch some tall curvy women breasts or butt. I just get urges to reach out and grope breasts, or slap their butts, or whatever.

I hope you don't say the words tall, curvy, well-endowed, busty, cleavage, feminine, etc. verbally as often as you have in your two posts.

Your last two sentences - creepy, perverted, offensive, talking about sexually assaulting someone, and just gross.

Are you really looking for advice or just a forum to repeat yourself and say gross things about women's bodies on a website full of women?

[Gretchen 1965]

Originally Posted by tantalizingfemme

I hope you don't say the words tall, curvy, well-endowed, busty, cleavage, feminine, etc. verbally as often as you have in your two posts.

Your last two sentences - creepy, perverted, offensive, talking about sexually assaulting someone, and just gross.

Are you really looking for advice or just a forum to repeat yourself and say gross things about women's bodies on a website full of women?

I really need some advice. Please don't judge me. I just hate myself. I feel like smashing my head against a wall sometimes I just can't stop thinking. I'm just so upset with myself. keep asking why me. Why I have to be such a pervert? Now I'm convinced I'm a perv and a sexual freak. Why am I like this? Why?

[tantalizingfemme]

Originally Posted by Gretchen 1965

I really need some advice. Please don't judge me. I just hate myself. I feel like smashing my head against a wall sometimes I just can't stop thinking. I'm just so upset with myself. keep asking why me. Why I have to be such a pervert? Now I'm convinced I'm a perv and a sexual freak. Why am I like this? Why?

This is a troll post.

[Gretchen 1965]

Originally Posted by tantalizingfemme

This is a troll post.

This is so upsetting to me I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone without bursting into tears.I came here hoping someone can give me some advice, or even some words of comfort. I am feeling so sad. Here is the truth, calling someone a troll has become a form of trolling in it's self. You have no interest in a discussion with me you just want to call me a troll to get me riled up and hopeful get others on your side with such accusations because people just love mobs with pitchforks. I am a human. Just because I am having weird urges and sexual frustrations does not make me a troll.

[tantalizingfemme]

Originally Posted by Gretchen 1965

This is so upsetting to me I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone without bursting into tears.I came here hoping someone can give me some advice, or even some words of comfort. I am feeling so sad. Here is the truth, calling someone a troll has become a form of trolling in it's self. You have no interest in a discussion with me you just want to call me a troll to get me riled up and hopeful get others on your side with such accusations because people just love mobs with pitchforks. I am a human. Just because I am having weird urges and sexual frustrations does not make me a troll.

First of all, I called your post a troll post, not you. Second, you come onto a website and talk about sexualizing women's body parts and how you want to sexually assault them. Then you want us to figure out why you are like this? You are right, I am not interested in discussing your desire to sexually assault women. Nor am I interested in giving you comfort about your desire to sexually assault women.

[*Anya*]

Gretchen,

If you are not a troll, you need to find a very, very, good therapist because you need much more help than a forum can give you.

I am quoting tantalizing simply because she separated out the most offensive (out of several) parts of your posts.

Originally Posted by tantalizingfemme

I hope you don't say the words tall, curvy, well-endowed, busty, cleavage, feminine, etc. verbally as often as you have in your two posts.

Your last two sentences - creepy, perverted, offensive, talking about sexually assaulting someone, and just gross.

Are you really looking for advice or just a forum to repeat yourself and say gross things about women's bodies on a website full of women?

Originally Posted by tantalizingfemme

This is a troll post.