Random's Ramblings...

[Random]

My rough, tough butch
Smells like ginger bread
At the nap of her neck.

She scowls, and scoffs
And says
“Nu-Uh”

But in the dark of the night
When I nuzzle in tight..

There is the most delightful scent
Just under the traces of her cologne..

It speaks of rich darkness, and heavy cream..
It speaks of hidden spices and sugars..

It speaks to me on a primal level..

And what it says is..

Home…

[Random]

Once upon a time I wrote your name and mine in crimson letters
And offered the ashes to the four winds
Letting rose colored smoke carry my words to your heart..

Once upon a time, I bound you to me with colored string ..
Whispering your name and mine as I twined us together
In a circle, unbroken..

Once upon a time, I sighed your name in the velvet of the night..
Giving my very breath to the sky..
Watching a shooting star
Call you to me..

I say to you..

Let your words find a home in my heart
Bind me to you with your unbroken love
Call me to you with your shadowy breath..


Come with me and believe

In

Magik

[Random]

Could I be a little girl?
In your arms
In this room
Just for tonight?

If I asked
Would you
Shut the door
Draw the blinds
Close out the real world
And create a new one with me…

Could you look at me in my cotton nighty
And understand that it was not the time for satin and lace.

Could you look at my naked face and my unpinned hair
And see what I was asking.
See what I was saying without speaking a word?

Would you give me your hard hands
Your fierce heart
Give me your strength so I might be weak?

Just for tonight

And then understand in the morning

When I pinned up my hair and painted my mouth

That it is only in this room

That I am

A little girl….

[Random]

Stay
Perfectly still
Don't lean

Left
or
Right

You cause me pain..
Can't you see?

You make me numb
Don't you know?

With your wishy washy ways..

If you would just stay
as you are
Right now..

I will listen to you..
Do as you want
Be your slave.. (as if I am not already)

Because..

If you can't stay
then
I fear
It is the end of us..
and the beginning
of the surgeons job..
and the tap, tap, tapping of silver pins..

So..
Please..
Beloved Coccyx..
Stay Put..

[Random]

A Cheerleader Dear One?

Smiling at all the Boys while looking at all the Girls?

I would have been the shy one

The quiet one working in the library
Taking out your card
Memorizing all the details
Swooning in your wake.

If I had been brave
I might have asked
To carry
Your pom poms...

[Random]

Hair as black as ebony
Skin as oiled silk...

He moves like the panther
closing on the kill...

The lines, they come so smoothly
so earnest is the plea...

You feel that a denial...
will bring him to him knees..,

The blow does not phase him
does not bother him at all

For all it's sincerity

It Was Just a line After all....

[Random]

I tried to replace you, don't cha know?

She was a poet...
she looked like you,
she sounded like you,
Her arms almost felt like you..
she even almost smelled like you..

But she wasn't you..
a kinder, paler version of you..
She had no belives
She had no wild dreams
She didn't have a drop of your passion..

So, I walked away and didn't look back..
I hurt that gentle soul
Because she wasn't you..

I tried to be you, don't cha know..

I found someone
who wanted hard hands and teeth at her neck..
who wanted someone to keep her safe...
to tell her right from wrong...

But I wasn't you...

I didn't have your control,
I didn't have your strenght
I didn't have your convictions...

So, I told her no more..
and I left her shut down and closed off..
Just like me..

I'm done trying to replace you,
because it can't be done

I'm done trying to be you..
because that's not who I am..

I'm done crying because I lost you...
Because it does no good..

Instead

I will simply smile and remember
and know you own my heart..

Until you don't...

[Random]

3pm Sunday afternoon I fell in love with your little finger

You were standing in the kitchen talking to me..

I didn't hear a word

I was falling in love with your little finger