Big Butch Love

[Andrew, Jr.]

Lipstickgal,

My parents, esp. my mother, was verbally abusive towards me about my weight growing up. I was very thin and extremely muscular. I was out playing football, tennis, lifting weights, and so on. I weighted maybe 100 pounds soaking wet in high school. Everything else was muscle. She was embarassed by me. I was the exact opposite of her ideals of what it was to be a girl/woman/female gender.

If I talk with them today, the entire conversation is just about my weight. Even if I tell them it is not a subject up for debate or discussion, they ignore it. It wasn't until a friend of theirs was in their home, and walked in on a heated conversation of ours, it would have still gone on. I no longer talk with them at all. It is how I survive mentally. As parents, they should be ashamed of themselves. But they are too mentally ill to even know it.

Andrew