If You Could Turn Back Time, What Would You Do Differently? - Page 3

imperfect_cupcake · 07-21-2010, 09:20 AM

this is a difficult question as I don't personally believe in regrets. If I honestly love who I am, I must the process of how I became me.

I honestly, hand over heart, have not regretted anything I ever did. I've been deeply sorry and realised my stupidity but I don't think I've done anything scarring enough.

I'd say "I wish I had been smarter about men and how they would take sexual advantage (rape); I wish I had told my parents about the abuse; I wish I had gone back to school earlier and I wish I had taken any of those job offers or offers to study at Berkley or in Madagascar; I wish I had gone to Guatemala right away instead of waiting for confirmation that never came for the job with the researchers (I found out later they had been waiting for me); I wish I had taken the job I was offered in Panama; I wish I had gone ahead with the position at the London Zoo instead of letting it go because it was minimum wage and just figured out a way to live."

I *could* say any of these things. But if I had changed just ONE of them my life would be *radically* different than it is now. And I've done amazing things, met fabulous people, lived/traveled to spectacular places and have a relationship with someone who gets me to the point I think this must be some "oops. sorry we screwed up the delivery of your life. Perhaps you've like a voucher for 'Best Soul Match Possible' as you are a valued customer and we want you coming back."

I don't really think I *want* to change anything. I'm fucked off about my career, yes. deeply. But I really think the rest of my life has been mind blowing so far. And There's more adventure to come

Whoop!

I'm trying to fix that career problem. It's taking far longer than expected, but eventually, I'll get there.

Maybe I can work for some of my dad's students when I graduate (again...). The debt I'll have will be passed on through generations, but oh well.

The best thing to remember, and it's utterly true, is: You won't regret the things you have done, you'll regret the things you haven't done (AKA it's better to regret the things you have done than to regret the things you haven't done).

Don't stop yourself, go get it. even if you will be dirt poor, lose your sense of security, leave your family and friends, you only get this one tiny tiny short life. that's it. So go. And when ever possible, give most of your shit away. there will always be more crap.

I may have given away a 1940's hardwood vanity with giganto circular mirror with a brocade covered stool with a drawer in it. But at the moment I'm using a cloth covered box, a folding wooden tv table with an apple crate on it and a little plug in light mirror. It works good enough. WTF would I do with good furniture? I move around too much. I need the money for other things.

No. I would be too freaked out about if I had done anything differently. perhaps I should let my mom and dad know how much I love them a bit more before I wish I had done that.

Perhaps I'm not understanding the question?

Scorp · 07-21-2010, 09:26 AM

Hey HB, LTNS...Hope you've been well.

And nope, you understood the question perfectly.

Thanks for your response.

Be well darlin'

-S

Quote:

Originally Posted by honeybarbara

this is a difficult question as I don't personally believe in regrets. If I honestly love who I am, I must the process of how I became me.

I honestly, hand over heart, have not regretted anything I ever did. I've been deeply sorry and realised my stupidity but I don't think I've done anything scarring enough.

I'd say "I wish I had been smarter about men and how they would take sexual advantage (rape); I wish I had told my parents about the abuse; I wish I had gone back to school earlier and I wish I had taken any of those job offers or offers to study at Berkley or in Madagascar; I wish I had gone to Guatemala right away instead of waiting for confirmation that never came for the job with the researchers (I found out later they had been waiting for me); I wish I had taken the job I was offered in Panama; I wish I had gone ahead with the position at the London Zoo instead of letting it go because it was minimum wage and just figured out a way to live."

I *could* say any of these things. But if I had changed just ONE of them my life would be *radically* different than it is now. And I've done amazing things, met fabulous people, lived/traveled to spectacular places and have a relationship with someone who gets me to the point I think this must be some "oops. sorry we screwed up the delivery of your life. Perhaps you've like a voucher for 'Best Soul Match Possible' as you are a valued customer and we want you coming back."

I don't really think I *want* to change anything. I'm fucked off about my career, yes. deeply. But I really think the rest of my life has been mind blowing so far. And There's more adventure to come

Whoop!

I'm trying to fix that career problem. It's taking far longer than expected, but eventually, I'll get there.

Maybe I can work for some of my dad's students when I graduate (again...). The debt I'll have will be passed on through generations, but oh well.

The best thing to remember, and it's utterly true, is: You won't regret the things you have done, you'll regret the things you haven't done (AKA it's better to regret the things you have done than to regret the things you haven't done).

Don't stop yourself, go get it. even if you will be dirt poor, lose your sense of security, leave your family and friends, you only get this one tiny tiny short life. that's it. So go. And when ever possible, give most of your shit away. there will always be more crap.

I may have given away a 1940's hardwood vanity with giganto circular mirror with a brocade covered stool with a drawer in it. But at the moment I'm using a cloth covered box, a folding wooden tv table with an apple crate on it and a little plug in light mirror. It works good enough. WTF would I do with good furniture? I move around too much. I need the money for other things.

No. I would be too freaked out about if I had done anything differently. perhaps I should let my mom and dad know how much I love them a bit more before I wish I had done that.

Perhaps I'm not understanding the question?

Jet · 08-05-2010, 02:53 PM

There's a book I never should have read.

Dean Thoreau · 08-05-2010, 03:16 PM

all those if only i had, i wish i had, i should have, i should not have's......

.......perhaps i should have used some super glue on my lifes trail......

A few children taught me it is best to do..and not regret, or second guess, if it does not turn out right, or if you say the wrong thing...or do something kinda selfish or stupid from time to time...it is ok......you do the best u can and if u screw up well that just makes u more lovable....

So after 58 years I simply pull the cork from the wine, and put on Edith Piaf and sing "NO Regrets"....

feel free to join me.

Julie · 08-05-2010, 03:25 PM

Simply... Pay closer attention.

Dutch Leonard · 08-05-2010, 07:08 PM

I wish I made a play for Lianne in college and I wish I bought NT05's this summer.

suebee · 08-05-2010, 07:11 PM

I would have ignored everyone's advice and adopted that foster child I worked with. But then again, I surely wouldn't be here now. So NO regrets!

Deborah · 08-20-2010, 02:25 PM

Trusted my instincts and taken better care of me and not so many others....

Soft*Silver · 08-20-2010, 02:27 PM

I would not have picked the flower that held the angry bumblebee ....

lipstixgal · 08-20-2010, 04:05 PM

I would have had the internship changed earlier then August, now I have to ask for an extension which delays me in moving to Florida in October!!

AtLast · 08-20-2010, 04:26 PM

Never started to smoke cigarettes! Quitting is a bitch and I have lost track of how many attempts I have made!

Most other things have just been the usual trials of living and I really have no regrets there.

Be gentle with yourself, we all find our way.

Rockinonahigh · 08-20-2010, 06:31 PM

Ciggys..the bitch.Oh heck have I been down that slipry slope.I started at 14 cause it was cool....quit for 10yrs then at 50 outta the blue liltup and the thing was like it never stoped..In January 2010 I quit again~~~~fell off the wagon for the last couple months but am back on the wagon after adjusting my head as to why I nedded a smoke in the first place.I now take it like AA..one day at a time works good that way ause every day I dont smoke is a day I win and am stronger.

Corkey · 08-20-2010, 06:47 PM

If I changed anything I would not be here now where I am with the love of my life and knowing everything works out the way it is supposed to. Come hell or high water.

Laerkin · 08-20-2010, 06:58 PM

In all honesty, I wouldn't change a thing because all my fumbles have led me here and I'm very happy.

Of course, looking back there are a few things I could have done better:

- I would have lost my V card to that UBER hottie in high school and had the most insane bragging rights ever. Lol

- I would have spent more time learning from my grandparents and listening to their Stories. Too late I found out how interesting their journeys were.

- And maybe I could have spent a little more time putting myself first every once in awhile.

But no regrets. Just musings.

turasultana · 08-20-2010, 09:01 PM

would have bought that damn one bedroom duplex on Norfolk street for 70K 15 years ago. its worth half a million now. dammit.

miss entycing · 08-20-2010, 09:11 PM

I woulda said yes yesterday when SD would have come kidnapped me to go to to the reunion- had I of known that Damon would have let me go alone!
dammmmiiitttttttttt

now where's that damn turn back button??????????????

sweetfemme247 · 08-20-2010, 09:13 PM

I would of never said hello to that person who hurt me so many times in my life

Leigh · 08-20-2010, 09:31 PM

I would have graduated when I was supposed to, not seven years later and I would have kept a job long enough to move out and actually have a life ............ but even with that said, I know that I wasn't ready back then to do any of that so things happened for a reason and I accept it now!

T D · 08-20-2010, 09:34 PM

I would NOT have gotten involved in poly relationships

AND

I would NOT have left that relationship 12 years ago... Hindsight is an interesting thing at the very least!!

What's done is done, but the repercussion from our actions sometimes last a lifetime.

Passionaria · 08-20-2010, 09:37 PM

I would be true to myself, to my inner knowing. Every time I have not, I have gotten hurt.

I have trusted unwisely. When I see the warning signs, of people who's behavior is hurtful, I would keep walking and never look back, rather than giving them a chance.....

I acknowledge responsibility for my choices, even though at times I have hurt myself. Given a second chance I would do better.

Our self worth, and how we share the beauty of our soul, is all we really own in this life. And it's worth a lot.

08-05-2010, 03:16 PM	#44
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08-05-2010, 03:25 PM	#45
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imperfect_cupcake Senior Member How Do You Identify?: feminine dolly dyke Preferred Pronoun?: Your Grace Relationship Status: I put my own care first Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: In a gauze of mystery Posts: 1,776 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,426 Thanked 9,712 Times in 1,611 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	this is a difficult question as I don't personally believe in regrets. If I honestly love who I am, I must the process of how I became me. I honestly, hand over heart, have not regretted anything I ever did. I've been deeply sorry and realised my stupidity but I don't think I've done anything scarring enough. I'd say "I wish I had been smarter about men and how they would take sexual advantage (rape); I wish I had told my parents about the abuse; I wish I had gone back to school earlier and I wish I had taken any of those job offers or offers to study at Berkley or in Madagascar; I wish I had gone to Guatemala right away instead of waiting for confirmation that never came for the job with the researchers (I found out later they had been waiting for me); I wish I had taken the job I was offered in Panama; I wish I had gone ahead with the position at the London Zoo instead of letting it go because it was minimum wage and just figured out a way to live." I could say any of these things. But if I had changed just ONE of them my life would be radically different than it is now. And I've done amazing things, met fabulous people, lived/traveled to spectacular places and have a relationship with someone who gets me to the point I think this must be some "oops. sorry we screwed up the delivery of your life. Perhaps you've like a voucher for 'Best Soul Match Possible' as you are a valued customer and we want you coming back." I don't really think I want to change anything. I'm fucked off about my career, yes. deeply. But I really think the rest of my life has been mind blowing so far. And There's more adventure to come Whoop! I'm trying to fix that career problem. It's taking far longer than expected, but eventually, I'll get there. Maybe I can work for some of my dad's students when I graduate (again...). The debt I'll have will be passed on through generations, but oh well. The best thing to remember, and it's utterly true, is: You won't regret the things you have done, you'll regret the things you haven't done (AKA it's better to regret the things you have done than to regret the things you haven't done). Don't stop yourself, go get it. even if you will be dirt poor, lose your sense of security, leave your family and friends, you only get this one tiny tiny short life. that's it. So go. And when ever possible, give most of your shit away. there will always be more crap. I may have given away a 1940's hardwood vanity with giganto circular mirror with a brocade covered stool with a drawer in it. But at the moment I'm using a cloth covered box, a folding wooden tv table with an apple crate on it and a little plug in light mirror. It works good enough. WTF would I do with good furniture? I move around too much. I need the money for other things. No. I would be too freaked out about if I had done anything differently. perhaps I should let my mom and dad know how much I love them a bit more before I wish I had done that. Perhaps I'm not understanding the question?

08-05-2010, 02:53 PM	#43
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08-20-2010, 06:31 PM	#52
Rockinonahigh Senior Member How Do You Identify?: stone butch Preferred Pronoun?: makes no diffrence,I know who I am. Relationship Status: single,maybe looking if the right person comes along. Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: shreveport,Louisiana Posts: 4,907 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,682 Thanked 14,933 Times in 3,938 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Ciggys..the bitch.Oh heck have I been down that slipry slope.I started at 14 cause it was cool....quit for 10yrs then at 50 outta the blue liltup and the thing was like it never stoped..In January 2010 I quit again~~~~fell off the wagon for the last couple months but am back on the wagon after adjusting my head as to why I nedded a smoke in the first place.I now take it like AA..one day at a time works good that way ause every day I dont smoke is a day I win and am stronger.

08-20-2010, 06:47 PM	#53
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08-20-2010, 06:58 PM	#54
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08-20-2010, 09:01 PM	#55
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08-20-2010, 09:34 PM	#59
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08-20-2010, 09:37 PM	#60
Passionaria Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Urban Bohemian : http://youtu.be/IM96Ch9Gx4A Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: She ran away with with the Gypsy's ✿ Posts: 2,519 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,316 Thanked 3,737 Times in 1,248 Posts Rep Power: 16689910	If You Could Turn Back Time, What Would You Do Differently? I would be true to myself, to my inner knowing. Every time I have not, I have gotten hurt. I have trusted unwisely. When I see the warning signs, of people who's behavior is hurtful, I would keep walking and never look back, rather than giving them a chance..... I acknowledge responsibility for my choices, even though at times I have hurt myself. Given a second chance I would do better. Our self worth, and how we share the beauty of our soul, is all we really own in this life. And it's worth a lot. __________________ *Moon cat madness*