Mental Illness

[Mindy]

Originally Posted by apocalipstic

Thank you for sharing with us!

I also know what you mean! My meds have had to be changed many times over the years. I also have recurrent suicidal thoughts and struggle with doctor changes and so forth.

Something I have discovered recently is that if I write out my history and medicines and what has and had not worked and hand it to my new health care provider, they tend to take me more seriously and believe what I am saying.

I have no idea why...maybe it shows them I am organized and on top of managing my own issues?

Best of luck with the move, I know moves can be much more difficult for us than for most people.

Also, years ago when I had no insurance, the clinic I went to with sliding scale also had erally low prices on the latest meds. I hope it will be the same for you. Mental health drugs have come a really long way in the last 30 years.

Right now the town I am in has a clinic that will actually give your drugs for as low as FREE! I also found out where I am moving has a clinic that does the same. So while I am looking for work after the move, I will at least be able to get them while job searching and waiting for insurance to kick in. Just a matter of waiting to get in initially.

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Mindy

Right now the town I am in has a clinic that will actually give your drugs for as low as FREE! I also found out where I am moving has a clinic that does the same. So while I am looking for work after the move, I will at least be able to get them while job searching and waiting for insurance to kick in. Just a matter of waiting to get in initially.

Cool!

Remember to give yourself lots of breaks and take it as easy as you can with the move and all the change.

Best to you!

[Apocalipstic]

Overwhelmed today.

Maybe its all the rain?
Maybe its the holidays?
Maybe I feel pushed?

Wish I could be on a warm beach with white sand, listening to the waves.

[Andrew, Jr.]

I am clinically depressed. For me right now, I feel like I walk on egg shells around people. My words are taken out of context or misconstrued to mean something other than what they were meant to mean. And for me, it takes too much energy to get it out. I am tired of always and then being labeled a . Let me give an example. Today I went to the grocery store for Rosie. She has to give me a list, otherwise I come home with half the store. Anyway, she had some spice on the list that was for baking. I could barely pronounce the word, plus had no clue it was a spice. I handed the list to the lady in the help booth or whatever it's called nowadays. She looked at it, then laughed. She said the entire end cap was just filled with it from top to bottom. Who knew? I didn't. Heck, I didn't even see it. I felt like a jerk.

Holidays are hard on me. I used to enjoy being around people when I was younger, but not any more. It is more like dread as I have aged. Just another person to jump me, and make fun of me. I think I do better one on one. But that is just me.

I am glad that you guys and gals understand me, and help me. It makes my life so much more full. I use this site as a safe haven. You enrich my life more than you will ever know.

Love,
Andrew

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I am clinically depressed. For me right now, I feel like I walk on egg shells around people. My words are taken out of context or misconstrued to mean something other than what they were meant to mean. And for me, it takes too much energy to get it out. I am tired of always and then being labeled a . Let me give an example. Today I went to the grocery store for Rosie. She has to give me a list, otherwise I come home with half the store. Anyway, she had some spice on the list that was for baking. I could barely pronounce the word, plus had no clue it was a spice. I handed the list to the lady in the help booth or whatever it's called nowadays. She looked at it, then laughed. She said the entire end cap was just filled with it from top to bottom. Who knew? I didn't. Heck, I didn't even see it. I felt like a jerk.

Holidays are hard on me. I used to enjoy being around people when I was younger, but not any more. It is more like dread as I have aged. Just another person to jump me, and make fun of me. I think I do better one on one. But that is just me.

I am glad that you guys and gals understand me, and help me. It makes my life so much more full. I use this site as a safe haven. You enrich my life more than you will ever know.

Love,
Andrew

Andrew, I agree 100% about the holidays. All sorts of people to be around and unfamiliar places to navigate. It takes all my energy for one party, and I have several in my future. Kind of like a field of landmines.



One thing I have found helpful is to remember that most people are so into themselves that I am noticed way less than I think I am. If someone takes you wrong...calmly appologize and laugh with them. I know its hard, I am working on this myself. I am very defensive when I feel like I have done somehting dumb...in reality, most people have not noticed what I did or me at all. Don't feel like a jerk.

Really, if they are laughing to your face, they are either laughing with you, or a way huger jerk than you are even capable of being and thats on them!

PS. yes, I know huger is not a word, but I live to make up words

[Andrew, Jr.]

Apocalipstic,

Thank you for your post. I love the words you make up. I do that too. It is my thing.

Yes, I am feeling like the holidays are a landminds just ready to go off. I am going to try what you said to do. I am just praying it works. My anxiety is off the charts now. I have been to the doctor 3x's already for this. Each year it just gets worse and worse.

Thanks again.

Love,
Andrew

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Apocalipstic,

Thank you for your post.

Yes, I am feeling like the holidays are a landminds just ready to go off. I am going to try what you said to do. I am just praying it works. My anxiety is off the charts now. I have been to the doctor 3x's already for this. Each year it just gets worse and worse.

Thanks again.

Love,
Andrew

It makes me anxious too. Maybe it will help that we can talk about it here.