What Made You Cry Today?

Penelope · 12-18-2012, 08:48 PM

Ginger · 12-18-2012, 09:04 PM

christmas. I want the holidays to be over with.

GreeneyedMe · 12-18-2012, 09:18 PM

Memories....some good, some bad, some happy, some sad....another year almost gone...a new one about to begin...sigh....

Gemme · 12-18-2012, 10:42 PM

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Originally Posted by pajama

I seldom, very SELDOM, almost NEVER cry. But today I wept in a way I haven't in over 11 years.

6 years ago, I got my ex a surprise puppy for her birthday. I had her convinced we were going to look at Labradoodles, which she realllllly didn't want. When we get to the house and walk to the back door, a big black head looks in. And the ex starts yelling "They're dobies, they're dobies." As we walked outside we were greeted by two of the biggest Dobermans I have ever seen. We went down the stairs of the deck and into the back yard. The litter was playing and kinda shying away. But then this one little red-head came right over and grabbed aholt of the ex's pant leg and tugged. Isabella Bleu came home with us that night.

While the marriage didn't last, the friendship did. And I cherished the visits I would get to see Bella. She had a ridge down her nose where her hair grew against the grain that she never out grew and two tiny white spots on her head where her brothers and sisters had bitten her. She had a big red nose that could always make me smile. She was big, her shoulders came to above my waist and solid. She was so smart, and fast. She loved catching squirrels, chipmunks, and even showed up at the back door one day with a deer leg someone had discarded on the property. Convinced it most definetly belonged in the house with her. She loved sticks, they belonged in the house too. LOL And used to pull our sweet ole Mo's bandanas off and eat them. LOL

Today, my beautiful, energetic, funny, sweet, Boo Raddly had what we believe was an aneurism and is gone. I knew when this day would come that it was going to hurt like hell. I don't usually get this attached to animals. But I always thought that it would be known. That I would have time to say goodbye to her. To tell her how much I loved her. Although I told her every time I saw her. I hurt for my sweet ex and her partner. Boo was her child.

Just waiting here for The Boy to get home. We didn't tell him yet because he is driving home from work in rush hour traffic and didn't want him to be distracted.

It's always hits me so hard when it's an innocent that's lost, be it two or four legged or even winged baby.

(((((((((((((Ana and Boo)))))))))))))

SleepyButch · 12-19-2012, 12:01 AM

Just a lot of different things...

Bella~Vita · 12-19-2012, 12:50 AM

The Holidays, and the rest of stuff ..sigh

Words · 12-19-2012, 03:57 AM

A sappy Christmas song on the TV.

It's the first Christmas without Dad and each and every sappy Christmas song has me in floods of tears.

I feel so stupid. He was hardly the perfect father but he was the only one I had and I miss him so damn much.

And now I'm fucking crying again. I hate this. I really and truly hate this.

Words

Sachita · 12-24-2012, 01:51 PM

I woman contacted me to care for her older dog while she went out of the country for 6 months to do something she always wanted to do. I gave her a fair quote and she said it was too much and that she would try and find someone to watch him. He's 9 years old and she's had him all his life. A week goes by and I emailed to just follow up and see if she found someone. She and her vet decided it was best to put him down because if she took him to the pound or in foster care he could spend his life in a kennel and she couldn't bare to do that to him.

I swear if she was standing in front of me I would have assaulted her.

GreeneyedMe · 12-24-2012, 02:12 PM

4 firefighters were shot this morning here in Rochester...2 have died, one has a shattered spine and pelvis...responding to a fire...the shooter was a convicted felon. He opened fire on all first responders...O.M.G...The fire spread to 7 homes....innocent peoples lives destroyed for no reason at all...I am so incredibly sad.... sad beyond belief, stunned. Families displaced, no home to be safe and warm in....one person is still missing and they are hoping there were no more victims in any of the homes.....please send prayers up if you would.....

WintergreenGem · 12-24-2012, 07:28 PM

Someone drunk driving on a freeway pulled over, turned around and drove about a mile before slamming head on into another vehicle. Yes, people were killed and children left without their parents and siblings. SAD!

Katniss · 12-25-2012, 03:58 PM

Watching the magic leave a child's eyes when they were told by their grandmother that there is no santa claus........

(F*ck bio-family. Next year me and my kid party in Vail, Steamboat Springs, Tahoe, etc....anywhere where "family" isn't....)

Katniss~~(experiencing the last holiday from hell borne of guilt and obligation)

Miss Scarlett · 12-25-2012, 04:00 PM

Happiness...

Gemme · 12-25-2012, 05:02 PM

Music. If nothing else loosens the tap on the waterworks for me, it's music. Whether it's because of grief or sadness, happiness or pure appreciation for a voice or lyric that grabs you by the jugular and won't let go until you give into it, music has the power to move me like nothing else.

Kätzchen · 12-25-2012, 05:14 PM

it was earlier this morning...
listening quietly to music streaming
through to my ears and wandering
through photos and albums of things
my sons have given to me over the years
and the song below, was in the playlist
and tears spilled... funny how music
gives us the ability to connect more deeply
to our feelings...

laruss · 12-25-2012, 05:52 PM

Watching Dear John, I bawled.

Soon · 12-25-2012, 06:05 PM

I cried in a terrible dream I was having...I made myself wake up but was gasping as I did. Horrible.

ArtistLady · 12-25-2012, 07:52 PM

My son acting like an a** and screaming at me over stinking politics. Is this really the same person I raised? He was such a sweet child. Grown children can really break your heart.

cinnamongrrl · 12-25-2012, 10:01 PM

I picked up a favorite book of mine, Merle's Door...I read the last page...

That book was one of many that I read in preparation for losing my dog, Matty.... it was all I could do in the form of self help...

I loved the book...but it made me profoundly sad...both the story and the memories it evokes.....

firegal · 12-25-2012, 10:11 PM

Knowing there won't be another Christmas with my lil sis.

starryeyes · 12-25-2012, 10:18 PM

Seeing my Dad, and the state he is in. All alone and in a horribly abusive relationship and not willing to do anything about it. No wonder he's going half cookoo. I wish I could force him to come home with me, but I know I can't. He needs to make the first step. I'll be here when he is ready tho.

12-18-2012, 08:48 PM	#1
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12-18-2012, 09:18 PM	#3
GreeneyedMe Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Sweet Femme ones Relationship Status: Peeking around the corner... Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Rochester, NY Posts: 874 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,380 Thanked 4,375 Times in 804 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Memories....some good, some bad, some happy, some sad....another year almost gone...a new one about to begin...sigh.... __________________ "I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy." ~Richard Bach

12-19-2012, 12:01 AM	#5
SleepyButch Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Dude Preferred Pronoun?: He, Him Relationship Status: Taken Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Hidden Valley Ranch Posts: 3,511 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,220 Thanked 11,248 Times in 2,754 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Just a lot of different things... __________________ . You cannot embrace those things that will not embrace you back.

12-19-2012, 12:50 AM	#6
Bella~Vita Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: where salt is used for Margaritas not Snow Posts: 891 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,049 Thanked 1,322 Times in 443 Posts Rep Power: 7157596	The Holidays, and the rest of stuff ..sigh __________________ ~ I believe that pleasing everyone is impossible..... but pissing everyone off is a piece of cake ~

12-24-2012, 01:51 PM	#8
Sachita Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Alpha Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Goddess Relationship Status: Completely in love Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Southern Virginia Posts: 3,225 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,564 Thanked 8,993 Times in 2,247 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	I woman contacted me to care for her older dog while she went out of the country for 6 months to do something she always wanted to do. I gave her a fair quote and she said it was too much and that she would try and find someone to watch him. He's 9 years old and she's had him all his life. A week goes by and I emailed to just follow up and see if she found someone. She and her vet decided it was best to put him down because if she took him to the pound or in foster care he could spend his life in a kennel and she couldn't bare to do that to him. I swear if she was standing in front of me I would have assaulted her. __________________ You either like me or you don't. It took me Twenty-something years to learn how to love myself, I don't have that kinda time to convince somebody else. ~ Daniel Franzese

12-18-2012, 09:04 PM	#2
Ginger Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme lesbian Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: East coast Posts: 2,416 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,829 Thanked 12,298 Times in 2,057 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	christmas. I want the holidays to be over with.

12-19-2012, 03:57 AM	#7
Words Member How Do You Identify?: Queer femme submissive Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: UK Posts: 969 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,449 Thanked 4,259 Times in 677 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	A sappy Christmas song on the TV. It's the first Christmas without Dad and each and every sappy Christmas song has me in floods of tears. I feel so stupid. He was hardly the perfect father but he was the only one I had and I miss him so damn much. And now I'm fucking crying again. I hate this. I really and truly hate this. Words

12-24-2012, 02:12 PM	#9
GreeneyedMe Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Sweet Femme ones Relationship Status: Peeking around the corner... Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Rochester, NY Posts: 874 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,380 Thanked 4,375 Times in 804 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	Tears....so many tears.... 4 firefighters were shot this morning here in Rochester...2 have died, one has a shattered spine and pelvis...responding to a fire...the shooter was a convicted felon. He opened fire on all first responders...O.M.G...The fire spread to 7 homes....innocent peoples lives destroyed for no reason at all...I am so incredibly sad.... sad beyond belief, stunned. Families displaced, no home to be safe and warm in....one person is still missing and they are hoping there were no more victims in any of the homes.....please send prayers up if you would..... __________________ "I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy." ~Richard Bach

12-24-2012, 07:28 PM	#10
WintergreenGem Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Ms, Miss Relationship Status: Married to Graham Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: Lincoln, Nebraska Posts: 180 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 347 Thanked 505 Times in 140 Posts Rep Power: 6005574	Someone drunk driving on a freeway pulled over, turned around and drove about a mile before slamming head on into another vehicle. Yes, people were killed and children left without their parents and siblings. SAD! __________________ Did you take the time to truly know?

12-25-2012, 03:58 PM	#11
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12-25-2012, 04:00 PM	#12
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12-25-2012, 05:02 PM	#13
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12-25-2012, 05:14 PM	#14
Kätzchen Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, please. Join Date: May 2010 Location: Somewhere over the rainbow ツ Posts: 16,050 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,111 Thanked 33,507 Times in 10,638 Posts Rep Power: 21474868	it was earlier this morning... listening quietly to music streaming through to my ears and wandering through photos and albums of things my sons have given to me over the years and the song below, was in the playlist and tears spilled... funny how music gives us the ability to connect more deeply to our feelings... __________________ “In the end, it’s not about how much stuff you have, it’s about how many hearts you touched,” — Iva Ursano.

12-25-2012, 05:52 PM	#15
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12-25-2012, 06:05 PM	#16
Soon Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: femme Relationship Status: attached Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: . Posts: 6,896 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 29,046 Thanked 13,094 Times in 3,386 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	I cried in a terrible dream I was having...I made myself wake up but was gasping as I did. Horrible.

12-25-2012, 07:52 PM	#17
ArtistLady Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: she/her Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Dec 2012 Location: Somewhere in Alabama Posts: 24 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 150 Thanked 94 Times in 20 Posts Rep Power: 1098140	My son acting like an a** and screaming at me over stinking politics. Is this really the same person I raised? He was such a sweet child. Grown children can really break your heart.

12-25-2012, 10:01 PM	#18
cinnamongrrl Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: cleverly disguised as a responsible adult* Preferred Pronoun?: wild woman Relationship Status: No, thank you. Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Home in NC..gonna dig in like a tick this time… Posts: 7,660 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 15,225 Thanked 27,595 Times in 6,955 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	I picked up a favorite book of mine, Merle's Door...I read the last page... That book was one of many that I read in preparation for losing my dog, Matty.... it was all I could do in the form of self help... I loved the book...but it made me profoundly sad...both the story and the memories it evokes.....

12-25-2012, 10:11 PM	#19
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12-25-2012, 10:18 PM	#20
starryeyes Senior Member How Do You Identify?: a round peg in a square hole Preferred Pronoun?: Guess... Relationship Status: Seat taken Join Date: May 2011 Location: Rocky Mountain High Posts: 2,491 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,199 Thanked 10,052 Times in 2,076 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Seeing my Dad, and the state he is in. All alone and in a horribly abusive relationship and not willing to do anything about it. No wonder he's going half cookoo. I wish I could force him to come home with me, but I know I can't. He needs to make the first step. I'll be here when he is ready tho. __________________ "It's ok to make mistakes. It's ok to fall down. Get up! Look sickening....and make them eat it!" - Latrice Royale Starry