If You Could Turn Back Time, What Would You Do Differently?

bright_arrow · 02-20-2013, 09:14 AM

If I could turn back time..

I would have left an emotionally abusive relationship sooner, and on my own grounds, face to face. With that said, I would not have tried a second time to repair it.

I would take back the things I said to her in fear to push you away.

I would not sacrifice my home, family, and job for what turned out to be nothing but another notch in her belt.

I never would have gone to her house over spring break, thus meaning I never would of ODed and ended in the ER.

I would tell my newly outed gay self that I did not have to save every 'damsel in distress', and that my happiness was important just as much as my partner's. I did not have to change to be loved, that no one was worth the hurt of any temporary changes attempted.

I would tell my younger self that communication is important. I grew up in a household where looks and thinly veiled threats communicated feelings, especially anger, and to this day there are days where all my cues are physical, none verbal.

02-20-2013, 09:14 AM	#1
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