Feelings of fayedoll

[~baby~doll~]

Waiting creates a turbulent me.
Her eyes scream yearning, yet she is patient as can be
I wait on bended knee, her will overrides mine
She springs like a cat forcing me

We race to our gift of mutual delight
Mine a sharper consciousness realizing her joy as my body wails
Hers from the love of seeing the look of joy from pain in her objects eyes
We taste the fruits of love taken when the spirit of sexual nature guides her hand
It embraces the ropes with glorious lust
My fruit is to submits to the harshness, such a loving way to bind.

Vivid color of love becomes my breasts
Wax delivers my eyes the tears of utter bliss.
Wrap me twist me take me
The flower of me
You take as you will


1989 kwin, Your Will

[~baby~doll~]

Crushed, smashed, shattered
Empty, lost. confused
My is torn in ten thousand pieces and scattered into broken glass
The fire storm of bloody feelings mashes at me spine.

Oh loss oh how broken the feelings desert me and now I sit alone

[~baby~doll~]

Today love embraces me
With a sense of warmth
Such peaceful feelings
I do not always know

Love most times
Involves the roughest play
Yet today is a misty haze
It sends me on my way
Oh sweet ecstasy I twist and turn in the wind

But how says I
This altered state of mind
I relish the new today
But recall last night
Through loves haze

Twist and turn me on my head
Bend me sideways and call loves praise
My distant heart I seem to see
This phantom love
Such mystery

Bent not broken
The flame and candle to persuade
Oh passion and tender tears
Bewildered your servant plays

Oh touch me harshly with words and tongue
Sweet love by which I am overcome
Relieve me, as love me in your special way
Let me dangle all the day

Love it twists and turns me
It leaves me exhausted yet filled with life
Bitter is the sting that shares such passion on my wings
Let me serve you on bended knee
Today I yearn to be tender held

Embrace me with all you are
Oh my love be not far
The soil which is Mother Earth
Has touched me with her love
Though I worship you
Sweet Helen and wondrous Dan the women so dear at heart

My love it bends to fill you both
It carries me like bitter smoke.
And when it clears to shine anew
Twist and turn me oh please do.

[~baby~doll~]

i felt lost at times
drifting on a sea of wind and misery
then SHE found me
i became HER life
HER life became my joy
the completion of HER is me
i am solely and extension if HER desire
i have faded and am only a shadow of what she is
to some it would be fearful to lose self so completely
for me it has purified and made me better
it has filled me with more than i could ever give myself
perfect
wondrous
amazing
no need to fear in HER
as i am complete in knowing i serve HER

[~baby~doll~]

New Way

Somehow i have changed
forced or choice or just rearranged

over years i examined self
not i have moved to a different shelf

dresses and heels now set me free
how long have i yearn to let this side be

i find a femme a different light
no longer always is the night

what more i am is still to be seen
in the end what will it mean

am i me
or what you perceive me to be

i now find beauty means much more
i am a femme to the core

i am now what i long to see
finally i have found the real me

[~baby~doll~]

in lingerie i gaze in a mirror to see
a reflection of a woman and who is she?

my fingers glide over silk and satin
seeking out hidden secrets within

i stand in lingerie and heels gazing upon this mysterious reflection
for this girl, woman feminine thing, what lies in store
i never imagined this before

how does a mind grasp such a dainty change?
i fall into the arms of this feminine heart it is what remains
perhaps i wanted this from the start
How is it SHE knew i would fit the part?
i had no inkling from the start

i am woman
i am she
i am her
i have a woman's heart
it's not who i was at the start

i slide the, charmeuse trumpet, skirt over my hips
i apply gloss over my lips
my body resides in this feminine home
i adore what i have become

i am woman
i am she
i am her
it's not who i used to be

i have fully become her lovely doll
in my feminine i have finally evolved
in this form i achieved my dream
i fully disappeared no more am i seen
i am HER property forever HERS
SHE accepted my gift to be HER slave
i delivered my old self to the grave
this woman has a heart of the brave

those questions and doubts have disappeared
after years of service and bowing my wish was granted
by the Goddess above

my feminine has set me free
the i, i was has faded into my LOVE
i have become what i want to be
my life is gone and i am happy be
the reflection of her finally see
SHE is and i am gone

there is a woman smiling in my heart