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06-04-2013, 05:18 AM

Oh how I need to open that window and allow in the cleansing rain again.

My worm is getting all errrm wormy!

Stuck...stuck in uncertainty. Can I, can't I. Only me can do this one. That step four resentment list has got me by the proverbials. Doing step work usually means I live it alongside writing it and I just don't want to be living in/with those resentments.

I could write much about how I feel but don't feel safe enough. I guess I'll just put this bit out to the universe and the universal power.

God grant me the serenity...willingness, courage and discipline to do what I have to do.

tomboystud · 06-04-2013, 06:12 AM

Today is a new day and I am feeling much better. I am working through my feelings and not avoiding any of them. This is an amazing journey that in my wildest dreams I would have never guessed I would be this blessed.
Thanks for letting me share,
Aiden

tomboystud · 06-04-2013, 06:13 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Daktari

Oh how I need to open that window and allow in the cleansing rain again.

My worm is getting all errrm wormy!

Stuck...stuck in uncertainty. Can I, can't I. Only me can do this one. That step four resentment list has got me by the proverbials. Doing step work usually means I live it alongside writing it and I just don't want to be living in/with those resentments.

I could write much about how I feel but don't feel safe enough. I guess I'll just put this bit out to the universe and the universal power.

God grant me the serenity...willingness, courage and discipline to do what I have to do.

Keep sharing about it. And thanks for sharing.

tomboystud · 06-04-2013, 06:18 AM

June 4
Build, don’t destroy
“Our negative sense of self has been replaced by a positive concern for others.”
Basic Text, p. 16
––––=––––
Spreading gossip feeds a dark hunger in us. Sometimes we think the only way we can feel good about ourselves is to make someone else look bad by comparison. But the kind of self-esteem that can be purchased at another’s expense is hollow and not worth the price.
How, then, do we deal with our negative sense of self? Simple. We replace it with a positive concern for others. Rather than dwell on our low self-esteem, we turn to those around us and seek to be of service to them.
This may seem to be a way of avoiding the issue, but it’s not. There’s nothing we can do by dwelling on our low sense of self except work ourselves into a stew of self-pity. But by replacing our self-pity with active, loving concern for others, we become the kind of people we can respect.
The way to build our self-esteem is not to tear others down, but to build them up through love and positive concern. To help us with this, we can ask ourselves if we are contributing to the problem or to the solution. Today, we can choose to build instead of destroy.
––––=––––
Just for today: Though I may be feeling low, I don’t need to tear someone down to build myself up. Today, I will replace my negative sense of self with a positive concern for others. I will build, not destroy.

Copyright © 1991-2013 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

tomboystud · 06-04-2013, 10:59 PM

June 5
Honest prayer
“Although honesty is difficult to practice, it is most rewarding.”
Basic Text, p. 96
––––=––––
How difficult we find it to be honest! Many of us come to NA so confused about what really happened in our lives that it sometimes takes months and years to sort it all out. The truth of our history is not always as we have told it. How can we begin to be more truthful?
Many of us find it the easiest to be honest in prayer. With our fellow addicts, we sometimes find that we have a hard time telling the whole truth. We feel certain that we won’t be accepted if we let others know us as we really are. It’s hard to live up to the “terminally hip and fatally cool” image so many of us portrayed! In prayer, we find an acceptance from our Higher Power that allows us to open our hearts with honesty.
As we practice this honesty with the God of our understanding, we often find that it has a ripple effect in our communications with others. We get in the habit of being honest. We begin to practice honesty when we share at meetings and work with others. In return, we find our lives enriched by deepening friendships. We even find that we can be more honest with ourselves, the most important person to be truthful with!
Honesty is a quality that is developed through practice. It isn’t always easy to be totally truthful, but when we begin with our Higher Power, we find it easier to extend our honesty to others.
––––=––––
Just for today: I will be honest with God, myself, and others.

06-04-2013, 05:18 AM	#1
Daktari Guest Tournaments Won: 1 Posts: n/a My Photo Gallery	Oh how I need to open that window and allow in the cleansing rain again. My worm is getting all errrm wormy! Stuck...stuck in uncertainty. Can I, can't I. Only me can do this one. That step four resentment list has got me by the proverbials. Doing step work usually means I live it alongside writing it and I just don't want to be living in/with those resentments. I could write much about how I feel but don't feel safe enough. I guess I'll just put this bit out to the universe and the universal power. God grant me the serenity...willingness, courage and discipline to do what I have to do.

06-04-2013, 06:12 AM	#2
tomboystud Member How Do You Identify?: trans Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Happy Daddy Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 329 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 242 Thanked 851 Times in 291 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	Today is a new day and I am feeling much better. I am working through my feelings and not avoiding any of them. This is an amazing journey that in my wildest dreams I would have never guessed I would be this blessed. Thanks for letting me share, Aiden

06-04-2013, 06:18 AM	#4
tomboystud Member How Do You Identify?: trans Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Happy Daddy Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 329 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 242 Thanked 851 Times in 291 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	June 4 Build, don’t destroy “Our negative sense of self has been replaced by a positive concern for others.” Basic Text, p. 16 ––––=–––– Spreading gossip feeds a dark hunger in us. Sometimes we think the only way we can feel good about ourselves is to make someone else look bad by comparison. But the kind of self-esteem that can be purchased at another’s expense is hollow and not worth the price. How, then, do we deal with our negative sense of self? Simple. We replace it with a positive concern for others. Rather than dwell on our low self-esteem, we turn to those around us and seek to be of service to them. This may seem to be a way of avoiding the issue, but it’s not. There’s nothing we can do by dwelling on our low sense of self except work ourselves into a stew of self-pity. But by replacing our self-pity with active, loving concern for others, we become the kind of people we can respect. The way to build our self-esteem is not to tear others down, but to build them up through love and positive concern. To help us with this, we can ask ourselves if we are contributing to the problem or to the solution. Today, we can choose to build instead of destroy. ––––=–––– Just for today: Though I may be feeling low, I don’t need to tear someone down to build myself up. Today, I will replace my negative sense of self with a positive concern for others. I will build, not destroy. Copyright © 1991-2013 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

06-04-2013, 10:59 PM	#5
tomboystud Member How Do You Identify?: trans Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Happy Daddy Join Date: Feb 2013 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 329 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 242 Thanked 851 Times in 291 Posts Rep Power: 21474849	June 5 Honest prayer “Although honesty is difficult to practice, it is most rewarding.” Basic Text, p. 96 ––––=–––– How difficult we find it to be honest! Many of us come to NA so confused about what really happened in our lives that it sometimes takes months and years to sort it all out. The truth of our history is not always as we have told it. How can we begin to be more truthful? Many of us find it the easiest to be honest in prayer. With our fellow addicts, we sometimes find that we have a hard time telling the whole truth. We feel certain that we won’t be accepted if we let others know us as we really are. It’s hard to live up to the “terminally hip and fatally cool” image so many of us portrayed! In prayer, we find an acceptance from our Higher Power that allows us to open our hearts with honesty. As we practice this honesty with the God of our understanding, we often find that it has a ripple effect in our communications with others. We get in the habit of being honest. We begin to practice honesty when we share at meetings and work with others. In return, we find our lives enriched by deepening friendships. We even find that we can be more honest with ourselves, the most important person to be truthful with! Honesty is a quality that is developed through practice. It isn’t always easy to be totally truthful, but when we begin with our Higher Power, we find it easier to extend our honesty to others. ––––=–––– Just for today: I will be honest with God, myself, and others.