~baby~doll~ heart on her sleeve

[~baby~doll~]

At Long Last

Sailing on memories waters
The fog rolls in
What have I done today
Oh God where have i been

The seeds of past have been planted
The plants once bright are drooped and thin
my mind twists in ways i do not understand
all the memory turns bland.

i glimpse now moments of clarity
when crystal clear all things become
i blink my eyes twice against the light
now my mind again is numb

i write these words which now to me are very clear
in the morning when i focus
all i will do is shed a tear
and i'll walk away filled with fear

yes there are times as now when the curtains open
and sunlight shines right through
i have this joy for just this moment
as tomorrow i may not remember you

i look at images of faces
once recalled as well as places
dimly lit is the place where i am seated
it hides my fears and the soon forgotten tears

Now i say it with emotion
i say to her i love you too
but as i turn to walk to brand new spaces
i may in the end forget her too