Cancer Support and Caregivers Who Are Trail Blazers!

TruTexan · 01-17-2014, 02:04 PM

Today I went back to the Trinity Mother Francis Hospital Ross Breast Center for more imaging. They did 2 more different Mammograms on my right breast along with an ultrasound. Unfortunately, it wasn't a bad screening the first time. I do have a dime to penny size area on my right breast that is suspect. They can't tell from what they did today what it could be, so the oncologist wants a biopsy done. I go next Wednesday Jan 22 for the biopsy at 150 central time. I got to see what they were talking to me about on the mammograms and on the ultrasound. It's actually something there but just not sure what it is. So, it's a precautionary move on the doctors part to do that biopsy on my right breast which will tell him an answer if it's cancer or benign tumor, or fibroid tumor or whatever. My right breast is hurting so bad from that last two mammograms it's not even funny. Squished the shit out of my breast. LOL
I wanted to say thank you to each and everyone of you rendering support to me, it's helping me remain calm. I also had to tell mom today about what is going on so she knows. My sister called while I was telling mom and I had her on speaker phone. Mom is really worried now. I told her there's a good chance it's nothing to worry about and that I am not going to worry about it until they tell me I need to worry.
I"ve thought long and hard since the first call back this week. I've decided that if it is cancer, to have both breasts removed so I don't have to deal with it a second time in the other breast, just to get rid of them and that way I won't have to wear a damn bra anymore. LMAO I can joke about this today and be okay with it. Thank you all for your support. I will post more when I know the results of my biopsy.

And to all those dealing with cancer, I commend you on your bravery. I support you in every way possible even though I haven't posted here before.
I watched my uncle go through 6 1/2 yrs of dealing with brain cancer and he finally gave up his fight a yr ago, on Nov 10 2012 he passed away from it. He was the longest living brain cancer patient his oncologist had. He lived 6yrs longer than his oncologist expected him to and he lived those last 6 yrs loving his family and friends and loving me like he was my dad. He was a brave man and a loving gentle person. I couldn't have asked for a better uncle.
So, if it turns out I do have cancer, I will be just as brave as he was in his fight and live my life just as he taught me it should be lived, loving those you love the most, and letting them know how much you love them everyday.
Justy

Tommi · 01-17-2014, 02:20 PM

A BIG TRU TEXAN

Thinkin aboutcha! Yep, some scary stuff comes up. Glad your Mom knows now, because, I bet know you want her support, love and prayers. Even though she will be worried and scared and the whole thing, sometimes just knowing you are in good hands, you are following up on it and can talk about it is a good thing for some.

Hang in there, come on back and chat.

TruTexan · 01-17-2014, 03:06 PM

Tommi, A BIG THANKS to you today for the shout out. Yes, I did need my mom to know. I told her lets not worry until I find out further from the biopsy, but being my mom that she is, she's OMG stage now. I know she's probably stressing out more than I am today. I told her it's not necessary for her to go with me to get the biopsy. My neighbor is going to drive me there to Tyler, an hour away from where I live to get the biopsy done at the Breast Center at the hospital. I am just more worried today about my mom's stress level, but if I hadn't told her and she found out she'd be pretty upset with me and never let me live it down, it would be a huge issue that I didn't tell her about it and what I'm having done. She's very scared of getting cancer because my grandmother , her mom, died from colon cancer or ovarian cancer that had spread. She is so afraid of cancer it's not even funny. I know I"m in God's hands and if it's his will I have it and have to go through treatment for it, then so be it. I have a positive attitude today and today is all I'm going to worry about. My ptsd and anxiety are bad enough to take meds for, but it's under control . I just hope it's nothing to be honest. That it comes back benign.
Thanks for your shout out and support Tommi. I need it from friends online. I have really have no friends in my tiny town here. I only live where I live so that I can be mom's caregiver and help her when she needs help, take her to her doctor appts. etc. I'm the only child she has that was able to move here to help her after my stepfather passed 4yrs ago this month. My younger sister lives all the way in TN. I called her yesterday about it and today about what they said. She's afraid too. I told her don't be, I can handle it. That my spirits are high and that I will just have both breasts removed if i have cancer and she laughed and said it would make me more butch looking. I laughed. we joked, she teared up, I laughed some more she laughed more. She's the onlyi sister I have that I talk to and not very much, she's so busy with her job and family there. She works really long hours in IT for the state of TN. And is rarely able to talk to me. my older sister is a nut job, I don't speak to her anymore. Anyway, I thank you and all of you in this thread that have reached out to me in posts, it' means a lot to me. Thank you and God Bless all of you here.

PS. Maybe this just hasn't hit me yet like it should. I don't know. I'm kinda feeling like I am in limbo and nervous about it all.

Justy

TruTexan · 01-17-2014, 07:17 PM

Just bumping the thread for some support please. thanks.

RockOn · 01-17-2014, 07:49 PM

TruTexan, I am sending positive, uplifting thoughts your way. Hang tight! I wish you did not have to wait to know exactly what is going on with that breast.

Best Wishes,
Brock

TruTexan · 01-17-2014, 10:48 PM

today is almost over and I'll wake up with a new day and for that day I will try to only focus on it instead of the what if's because the what if's will only drive me crazy with more fear. Thank you for your support here. I need friends right now the most.
Justy

mustangjeano · 01-18-2014, 01:29 AM

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Originally Posted by TruTexan

Tommi, A BIG THANKS to you today for the shout out. Yes, I did need my mom to know. I told her lets not worry until I find out further from the biopsy, but being my mom that she is, she's OMG stage now. I know she's probably stressing out more than I am today. I told her it's not necessary for her to go with me to get the biopsy. My neighbor is going to drive me there to Tyler, an hour away from where I live to get the biopsy done at the Breast Center at the hospital. I am just more worried today about my mom's stress level, but if I hadn't told her and she found out she'd be pretty upset with me and never let me live it down, it would be a huge issue that I didn't tell her about it and what I'm having done. She's very scared of getting cancer because my grandmother , her mom, died from colon cancer or ovarian cancer that had spread. She is so afraid of cancer it's not even funny. I know I"m in God's hands and if it's his will I have it and have to go through treatment for it, then so be it. I have a positive attitude today and today is all I'm going to worry about. My ptsd and anxiety are bad enough to take meds for, but it's under control . I just hope it's nothing to be honest. That it comes back benign.
Thanks for your shout out and support Tommi. I need it from friends online. I have really have no friends in my tiny town here. I only live where I live so that I can be mom's caregiver and help her when she needs help, take her to her doctor appts. etc. I'm the only child she has that was able to move here to help her after my stepfather passed 4yrs ago this month. My younger sister lives all the way in TN. I called her yesterday about it and today about what they said. She's afraid too. I told her don't be, I can handle it. That my spirits are high and that I will just have both breasts removed if i have cancer and she laughed and said it would make me more butch looking. I laughed. we joked, she teared up, I laughed some more she laughed more. She's the onlyi sister I have that I talk to and not very much, she's so busy with her job and family there. She works really long hours in IT for the state of TN. And is rarely able to talk to me. my older sister is a nut job, I don't speak to her anymore. Anyway, I thank you and all of you in this thread that have reached out to me in posts, it' means a lot to me. Thank you and God Bless all of you here.

PS. Maybe this just hasn't hit me yet like it should. I don't know. I'm kinda feeling like I am in limbo and nervous about it all.

Justy

Hi Justy, Thanks for posting about today. It sucks to wait for another test but whichever way the biopsy turns out you will know what your next step is and that is much more empowering than the waiting part. I'm in your corner Buddy. You are doing GREAT!
Jeano

Tommi · 01-18-2014, 08:38 PM

Happy Saturday night everyone.

Watching the SAG awards . eating nacho's.

kaijira and the Mom are doing A thousand piece puzzle....I help with the edges only.

Knowing Justy is just about to learn a whole lot waiting. It will all be okay. Imagine next year. This will all be over. You will have memories of now, and you will post in this thread for someone new.
Love and hugs to ya. Ever want to talk PM us, and we are like be extended family all over the country . You are not alone

TruTexan · 01-18-2014, 08:41 PM

I'm doing ok today, staying into just today. Been watching movies and keeping my mind off what next week will bring and the waiting game afterwards.
Thanks Tommi.

Tommi · 01-18-2014, 08:46 PM

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Originally Posted by TruTexan

I'm doing ok today, staying into just today. Been watching movies and keeping my mind off what next week will bring and the waiting game afterwards.
Thanks Tommi.

GAME! Football
Glad to hear you are hangin out. Game. game

Tomorrow ! Go. Denver
Go 49ers

01-17-2014, 02:04 PM	#1
TruTexan Senior Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian butch Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: in a one horse town in a large state, in the U.S. Posts: 3,952 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,112 Thanked 5,266 Times in 1,633 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	Further diagnostics today Today I went back to the Trinity Mother Francis Hospital Ross Breast Center for more imaging. They did 2 more different Mammograms on my right breast along with an ultrasound. Unfortunately, it wasn't a bad screening the first time. I do have a dime to penny size area on my right breast that is suspect. They can't tell from what they did today what it could be, so the oncologist wants a biopsy done. I go next Wednesday Jan 22 for the biopsy at 150 central time. I got to see what they were talking to me about on the mammograms and on the ultrasound. It's actually something there but just not sure what it is. So, it's a precautionary move on the doctors part to do that biopsy on my right breast which will tell him an answer if it's cancer or benign tumor, or fibroid tumor or whatever. My right breast is hurting so bad from that last two mammograms it's not even funny. Squished the shit out of my breast. LOL I wanted to say thank you to each and everyone of you rendering support to me, it's helping me remain calm. I also had to tell mom today about what is going on so she knows. My sister called while I was telling mom and I had her on speaker phone. Mom is really worried now. I told her there's a good chance it's nothing to worry about and that I am not going to worry about it until they tell me I need to worry. I"ve thought long and hard since the first call back this week. I've decided that if it is cancer, to have both breasts removed so I don't have to deal with it a second time in the other breast, just to get rid of them and that way I won't have to wear a damn bra anymore. LMAO I can joke about this today and be okay with it. Thank you all for your support. I will post more when I know the results of my biopsy. And to all those dealing with cancer, I commend you on your bravery. I support you in every way possible even though I haven't posted here before. I watched my uncle go through 6 1/2 yrs of dealing with brain cancer and he finally gave up his fight a yr ago, on Nov 10 2012 he passed away from it. He was the longest living brain cancer patient his oncologist had. He lived 6yrs longer than his oncologist expected him to and he lived those last 6 yrs loving his family and friends and loving me like he was my dad. He was a brave man and a loving gentle person. I couldn't have asked for a better uncle. So, if it turns out I do have cancer, I will be just as brave as he was in his fight and live my life just as he taught me it should be lived, loving those you love the most, and letting them know how much you love them everyday. Justy __________________

01-17-2014, 03:06 PM	#3
TruTexan Senior Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian butch Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: in a one horse town in a large state, in the U.S. Posts: 3,952 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,112 Thanked 5,266 Times in 1,633 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	Tommi, A BIG THANKS to you today for the shout out. Yes, I did need my mom to know. I told her lets not worry until I find out further from the biopsy, but being my mom that she is, she's OMG stage now. I know she's probably stressing out more than I am today. I told her it's not necessary for her to go with me to get the biopsy. My neighbor is going to drive me there to Tyler, an hour away from where I live to get the biopsy done at the Breast Center at the hospital. I am just more worried today about my mom's stress level, but if I hadn't told her and she found out she'd be pretty upset with me and never let me live it down, it would be a huge issue that I didn't tell her about it and what I'm having done. She's very scared of getting cancer because my grandmother , her mom, died from colon cancer or ovarian cancer that had spread. She is so afraid of cancer it's not even funny. I know I"m in God's hands and if it's his will I have it and have to go through treatment for it, then so be it. I have a positive attitude today and today is all I'm going to worry about. My ptsd and anxiety are bad enough to take meds for, but it's under control . I just hope it's nothing to be honest. That it comes back benign. Thanks for your shout out and support Tommi. I need it from friends online. I have really have no friends in my tiny town here. I only live where I live so that I can be mom's caregiver and help her when she needs help, take her to her doctor appts. etc. I'm the only child she has that was able to move here to help her after my stepfather passed 4yrs ago this month. My younger sister lives all the way in TN. I called her yesterday about it and today about what they said. She's afraid too. I told her don't be, I can handle it. That my spirits are high and that I will just have both breasts removed if i have cancer and she laughed and said it would make me more butch looking. I laughed. we joked, she teared up, I laughed some more she laughed more. She's the onlyi sister I have that I talk to and not very much, she's so busy with her job and family there. She works really long hours in IT for the state of TN. And is rarely able to talk to me. my older sister is a nut job, I don't speak to her anymore. Anyway, I thank you and all of you in this thread that have reached out to me in posts, it' means a lot to me. Thank you and God Bless all of you here. PS. Maybe this just hasn't hit me yet like it should. I don't know. I'm kinda feeling like I am in limbo and nervous about it all. Justy __________________

01-17-2014, 07:17 PM	#4
TruTexan Senior Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian butch Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: in a one horse town in a large state, in the U.S. Posts: 3,952 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,112 Thanked 5,266 Times in 1,633 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	bump bump bump for support please Just bumping the thread for some support please. thanks. __________________

01-17-2014, 10:48 PM	#6
TruTexan Senior Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian butch Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: in a one horse town in a large state, in the U.S. Posts: 3,952 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,112 Thanked 5,266 Times in 1,633 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	today is almost over and I'll wake up with a new day and for that day I will try to only focus on it instead of the what if's because the what if's will only drive me crazy with more fear. Thank you for your support here. I need friends right now the most. Justy __________________

01-18-2014, 08:38 PM	#8
Tommi Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Usually "Hello" Relationship Status: Married and Bound to Tommi's kaijira (Ts_kaijira ) Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Suthun.... California that is. Across the ridge from Laguna Beach. Posts: 8,151 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,621 Thanked 21,337 Times in 5,970 Posts Rep Power: 21474860	Happy Saturday night everyone. Watching the SAG awards . eating nacho's. kaijira and the Mom are doing A thousand piece puzzle....I help with the edges only. Knowing Justy is just about to learn a whole lot waiting. It will all be okay. Imagine next year. This will all be over. You will have memories of now, and you will post in this thread for someone new. Love and hugs to ya. Ever want to talk PM us, and we are like be extended family all over the country . You are not alone Last edited by Tommi; 01-18-2014 at 08:41 PM.

01-17-2014, 02:20 PM	#2
Tommi Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Usually "Hello" Relationship Status: Married and Bound to Tommi's kaijira (Ts_kaijira ) Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Suthun.... California that is. Across the ridge from Laguna Beach. Posts: 8,151 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,621 Thanked 21,337 Times in 5,970 Posts Rep Power: 21474860	A BIG TRU TEXAN Thinkin aboutcha! Yep, some scary stuff comes up. Glad your Mom knows now, because, I bet know you want her support, love and prayers. Even though she will be worried and scared and the whole thing, sometimes just knowing you are in good hands, you are following up on it and can talk about it is a good thing for some. Hang in there, come on back and chat.

01-17-2014, 07:49 PM	#5
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,304 Times in 2,610 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	TruTexan, I am sending positive, uplifting thoughts your way. Hang tight! I wish you did not have to wait to know exactly what is going on with that breast. Best Wishes, Brock

01-18-2014, 08:41 PM	#9
TruTexan Senior Member How Do You Identify?: lesbian butch Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Aug 2013 Location: in a one horse town in a large state, in the U.S. Posts: 3,952 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,112 Thanked 5,266 Times in 1,633 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	I'm doing ok today, staying into just today. Been watching movies and keeping my mind off what next week will bring and the waiting game afterwards. Thanks Tommi. __________________