And how are you feeling?

[Reach *BANNED*]

Still on top of the world - :batman:

[Gemme]

Frustrated! I broke my leg Wednesday night going to the barn to feed our two horses. Crutches are NOT conducive to country living. I guess it could be worse......it could be winter.

Some people will do anything for attention....if you wanted me to visit you, all you had to do was ask!

:fastdraq:

Anywho, I do hope that you knit quickly and get back on both of your feet.

As for myself, I feel worn. Not like a favorite tee that's soft and a little threadbare kind of worn. More like chiseled lines in the face and sweat on the brow kind of worn. I barely made it through my workout tonight as it is and the next 3 days are going to be even hotter and more humid. I have a ton of manual labor to do outside too.

Oh, and pissed. I feel pissed because I requested a raise and provided clear and concise facts to support my request. A LOT of them. I got it, but it's so small, it's like a slap in the face. I may have invested some time on Indeed the night I got the news.

[nhplowboi]

LOL@Gemme....yep that's me and now that
I am wrapped and booted I am going to look for the sympathy/attention vote. I had surgery on it today and had some hardware attached. I was gonna tell the Dr. (but they gorked me out too quick) that at 68 I have never been screwed by a man and you not only did it once but multiple times according to the the report. You must have been gentle because it feels damn good right now but that could just be the nerve block. ;) Oh and to correct my initial post it was Thursday night not Wednesday that I broke it.

Now Gemme, please tell your manager I do NOT want to have to hobble down there and crutch beat him to get you an appropriate raise. It's not coming out of his damn paycheck and he should be doing what is right by his good workers.

[Stone-Butch]

nh I am sending you wishes for an almost painless speedy recovery bud. Not nice to retire and get hit with this but what is...is.

I am with you and close to your age and NO man ever here ever. My gynecologest was the first and last LOL Keep well my friend.

[nhplowboi]

Thank you Stonie for being such a good friend. The nerve block is still working so all is well right now. LOL about retirement. I should have kept the store and stayed busy AND yes, we old timers are a special group.

[easygoingfemme]

Oh, and pissed. I feel pissed because I requested a raise and provided clear and concise facts to support my request. A LOT of them. I got it, but it's so small, it's like a slap in the face. I may have invested some time on Indeed the night I got the news.


Not cool. I've received those slap in the face raises. Insult to injury.

NH , ugh, sorry it was so bad you needed surgery! Rest up...

I'm feeling thankful that I took today off of work, mostly. I have to attend a meeting in a few so I'm on the computer but other than that I'm home free. It's over 100 degrees out and with no air conditioning at work, well, minimal air conditioning, I just couldn't do it. This heat wave has been in the 90s pretty much every day for weeks. Another 10 degrees and ... nope. I have vacation time for a reason. We installed an air conditioner in the basement woodshop where I mostly work this morning and it is heavenly. I've been down there all day creating away.

[FireSignFemme]

The entire family was out of commission for several days with one type of crud or the other. I live in the middle of nowhere with no buses and was too broke for Uber or a taxi. So all I could do for several days was wait to get out of the house, into town, try and make the best of it. Which I was doing a pretty good job of until my computer broke. Actually I broke the screen trying to fix the problem. Worst part, I couldn't tell if I'd fixed the problem or not because I didn't have a screen to check and see if I had. Grrr... I didn't realize how much I'm on this thing until I couldn't be on it.

Anyhow it took some time but my son came with the new monitor set it up, did a diagnostic and congrats I had diagnosed correctly, fixed it all on my own! Yes it really was that five dollar part I suspected, which wouldn't have cost me a thing because he has dozens of them at home just sitting around doing nothing. Grrr... but he gave me an E for effort, didn't grouch, complain, threaten or lecture. He just said – Okay tell me what you did, exactly what you did. It's going to be a lot easier for me to fix it if you do. I promise whatever it was I won't get mad.

I was so tempted to sarcastically say - Just tap danced all over it and kicked it for fun you think that might have done something to it? I was only trying to help. He was treating me like such a baby but hey he just bought me a new monitor, lugged it up three flights of stairs in the 100 plus degree heat, installed it, did diagnostics, patted me on the back – good job mom! Ate some of that too much for my own good left over popcorn sitting around tempting me, hauled out two bags of garbage, one of which had a nearly whole watermelon in it, and carted off that old monitor for me on his way out the door.

Sometimes a little more appreciation and a whole lot less sarcasm is in order. On top of that everybody got over their crud fairly quickly, and without hearing the costs involved with making a full recovery wouldn't be covered by insurance - pay up. Along with that Monte ate the much healthier for him cat food that costs and arm and a leg he was served up not once but twice so far, without complaint. All things combined today was a really, really good day and I'm feeling grateful, fortunate to have the family I do and a whole lot less irritated with the cat.

[Bèsame*]

I'm very much at peace in this very moment. I'm in my Mom's room and she has a big window. Its currently storming, lots of lightning and thunder. I finished filing her nails. The cable went out and she fell asleep. It's very calming to be here with her.

[kittygrrl]

quite wonderful...an english muffin w strawberry jam, sublime

[easygoingfemme]

Successful! I tried two new things for one woodworking project on my lathe today- a new turning tool and a new turning technique. I turned a beautiful Cedar bowl and am excited about what I learned in the process!

Also relieved that Daddy finished a big hard project that has been hanging over our heads for almost a year and today is a day to celebrate and just feel better without the pressure of it all.

[Soft*Silver]

Miserable! In SOoO much pain!!! This girl has now developed a covered rash. I recently had Covid (am now currently negative) and yesterday I developed a rash all over my face and all over my torso. It is very inflamed and painful, itchy and hot to the touch. I have creams to put on it but might need to go in for a steroid shot if it doesn’t start clearing up in the next couple days. It is all around my eyes and my doctor said if it swells my eyes shut I’m to go to emergency. I can’t stand anything on my body so I’m literally laying in my recliner in front of a rotating fan naked. I have to be off for the next seven days which means I’m going to miss my special training in Anaheim California that was supposed to happen over this weekend. The last time I felt this bad was when I had shingles. This is certainly as bad if not worse than then.
And yes I’ve had all my Covid shots and boosters. My doctor said if I had not had them, I would’ve been much worse off when I got Covid. She said the strain that it’s going around now is so much stronger than when the pandemic first started. Everything has come to a stop with me. I can’t move without inflaming the rash so I have to just sit in this recliner until it stops progressing and begins to decline! I’m so miserable I could cry!

[Reach *BANNED*]

This last week has been rough. What started out to be (or what I thought to be) a stomach bug landed Me in the ER with the diagnosis of an infection in My blood and decreased kidney function. Today has really been the first day in over a week that I have felt like Myself again and am able to get around without fear of toppling over or driving My car off the road. It was pretty scary I will say that. I am super glad I decided to go to the ER after about 4 days of sickness because it just did not feel like anything that I did was changing anything. So, I am on the mend - and feeling Myself getting stronger each day.

As I side note I just have to say - when something like this happens - and it is very rare that I get really, really sick - it sure does put your mind to work on priorities - and all of that. It also makes you even more grateful for waking up each day as well.

[Bèsame*]

I feel the less stressed I've felt in a long time. I actually dont think I even remember how this is suppose to feel.


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[Soft*Silver]

Recovered. My COVID rash is gone and I am finally back to work. This second round of COVID left me w some fog but that too will pass. Glad to back amongst the well people again!

[easygoingfemme]

Well after two something years of dodging the bullet, COVID caught me. Tested positive last night. My case manager at work tested positive last week and I had a feeling that was the one that was going to do me in. It's been too hot at work for us to be wearing the masks and we got slack about it. I'm not feeling too bad and am working from home today. Hoping things stay that way...

[kittygrrl]

sleepy....

[Reach *BANNED*]

I finally feel back to My old self. To sum it up in a word: relieved.

[Reach *BANNED*]

So very happy!

[bright_arrow]

Have a potential pinched nerve, so I have pain in left side of neck/shoulder that is radiating simply by breathing and existing. Miserable :confused:

[Reach *BANNED*]

The same as 7 days ago!

However, I have a lot on My mind - a whole jumble of things about a lot of different stuff - and that tends to leave Me feeling "off center" which is a feeling I am not a fan of. However, everything happens for a reason - and slow and steady wins the race.

It is funny I am a super organized person - however, when it comes to being able to organize My mind... it takes some work. (laughing).

[Stone-Butch]

Today I am feeling pretty darn good. I hope it lasts.

[Reach *BANNED*]

Just freaking amazing!!!!!

[Gemme]

Pretty good, physically. Emotionally, I'm a bit stressed.

I'm concerned about my vehicle. It's making serious sounding noises. I have two appointments to get it looked at. One's at a quick lane place that is a subsidiary of the dealership I bought it from, which is the second appointment. Given that they are running weeks behind in service, I'm definitely keeping the dealership appointment, even if the quick lane one goes well. I'm just trying to cover my bases.

Other than that, I'm concerned about one of my customers. His car died on my work property and he has nowhere to go so I let him be. His gf is pregnant and has a heart condition so I worry for her. They have pets in the vehicle too, so that's another concern for me. It's definitely not an ideal situation. They are due a payout from her workplace. I hope they get it soon.

[easygoingfemme]

I'm feeling... slow. After having an easy time with COVID two weeks ago I got hit with rebound COVID this week and it kicked my as$. High fever, coughing, couldn't breathe for a while, everything hurt. Been home from work and sleeping a lot this week. Just started to get around better this afternoon. This whole past week is a haze.

[Stone-Butch]

Other than my arm still paining really bad still from my third shot three weeks ago I am feeling good emotionallly.

[Reach *BANNED*]

A bit shaken up. I was almost in a car accident on My way home from My sister's house a little over an hour ago. A guy pulled out in front of Me at a 4 corner/2 way stop and I had the right of way. I had to slam on My brakes and try to control My car around him as he stopped dead instead of continuing to turn. I ended up narrowly missing his car and wound up behind him in the gravel inches from the stop sign that apparently he did not care about.

To make matters worse? He never got out of his vehicle to see how I was or anything - just pulled right out onto the main road and took off. There were two vehicles that were on the opposite side of the road from him at their stop sign that crossed the road and pulled over - they came up to My car to see how I was. Other than feeling like I was going to heave and My heart was going to leave My chest - I feel fine. But, wow.

[Gemme]

Well, not defeated but definitely not 'winning' either.

The initial appointment with my vehicle went well. I needed new brakes and my rotors were warped plus I got an oil change. Then, as I was turning back into work after retrieving my vehicle, the sound that started it all kicked in so I did a U-ey in the middle of the road and went back to the mechanic.

They put it back up on the rack and ran it at 40mph, which is when the sound kicks in....it sounds like when you run over the rumble strips on the side of highways designed to help folks stay awake while driving....and they came back with two things they want to take a look at. My back right shocks and my CV axle are now on the agenda for my next appointment.

The important thing is that I can still drive around safely...for now...with the sound. My next appointment is just a few days away so it should be fine (famous last words...).

[Bèsame*]

I was really happy yesterday. I worked with another Rod Stewart fan. Her and I were texting back and forth during the concert. She opened with, " what ever song he is singing, it's my favorite."

Of course, every song is our favorite. She told me yesterday it was like she was there. A virtual concert for her 😊 So yesterday, I shared alllll my videos, pics and sound bites with her. It was fun to keep my emotional concert going an extra few hours. . Then I shared again with my Mom.

I know that's going to probably be the last time I will get to share space with him. I sooo enjoyed being there.


(and this will be my last post about it....I know I could go on and on....😍 )

[Reach *BANNED*]

Exhausted. So, I went to bed as normal last night - fell asleep watching Shawshank Redemption. Well, around 3am the power went out. Now I am a light sleeper and I sleep with a fan on as the "white noise" of it helps Me sleep along with the movement of the air in My bedroom. I got up went to the bathroom checked to make sure things were ok in the house and tried to lay back down.

Needless to say that was not happening. My cats were all confused so they started meowing for their breakfast - so I fed them. Finally, I thought - well - might as well start the day. I have accomplished doing the litter boxes and also cleaning the kitchen so far.

However, I feel a nap coming on REAL soon!

[Gemme]

Well, not defeated but definitely not 'winning' either.

The initial appointment with my vehicle went well. I needed new brakes and my rotors were warped plus I got an oil change. Then, as I was turning back into work after retrieving my vehicle, the sound that started it all kicked in so I did a U-ey in the middle of the road and went back to the mechanic.

They put it back up on the rack and ran it at 40mph, which is when the sound kicks in....it sounds like when you run over the rumble strips on the side of highways designed to help folks stay awake while driving....and they came back with two things they want to take a look at. My back right shocks and my CV axle are now on the agenda for my next appointment.

The important thing is that I can still drive around safely...for now...with the sound. My next appointment is just a few days away so it should be fine (famous last words...).

CV axle and shocks are fine, apparently. Transmission is where we're at now, which doesn't make me feel good, but I'm grateful I bellied up for the best warranty they offered when I bought the ole girl because the big stuff is covered so I guess I'll put my ticket in the 'hopeful' hat for now.

Physically, I got as close to a full night's sleep as I could without actually getting there and it apparently threw my body into some sort of tizzy because I woke up more kinked than a 1mm 019 gauge box chain necklace loose at the bottom of a purse.

I'm a bit disappointed because my plan was ambitious to begin with but now, it's not going to happen. On the other hand, I'm going to watch another classic episode of Project Runway sooooo....it's not a total loss.

[Stone-Butch]

I am overwhelmed with grief, our blessed Queen Elizabeth 11 has passed away.

[easygoingfemme]

Finally feeling better after an unwanted 3 week relationship with COVID. It went out with a bang with my breaking out in an auto immune rash response to the virus putting my body on full alert. No amount of Benadryl was touching it. When it got into my eyes and ears I had to consent to steroid treatment. I've had a horrible time with steroids in the past when I've had to take them but I begged for a baby dose and that's what I got and it's working. I'm so relieved to feel better.

[VintageFemme]

Kinda like crap to be honest. I broke my back two weeks ago this Sunday and it's been miserable. I'm finally starting to have less pain though but I just want my life back. This has been such a nightmare. It's going to be months before I'm out of this back brace too and I'm moving in November, ugh. And to add insult to injury, three nights ago a ginormous oak tree split and crashed into the side of my apartment building inches away from my living room window. Geezus! Seriously, the damn thing shook the entire building when it happened and I literally thought it was an earthquake. That was pretty scary I have to admit. I was just lying on the sofa resting and healing when bam! I thought the end was here. LoL I really wish I could shave my legs.

[Reach *BANNED*]

Feeling pretty good other than I have caught the "procrastination bug" (laughing). I am not sure if there is a cure!

[Stone-Butch]

I am feeling touched when remembering the 9/11 happenings. What a horrendous day for Americans and those who reached out to comfort them in their time of grief. The terrible loss of so many innocent lives will always be remembered by those affected in their own ways.
I also remember how proud I felt that the people from my home in Newfoundland reached out to comfort, feed and house a plane full of Americans who were downed because of this attack. This is the second time that Newfoundlanders have reached out to our American neighbors in their time of stress and need. It should be so at any time people are in need as Americans help so many people around the world in their time of need as well. When a hand is needed a hand should be given.
My true condolences go to the American people for their loss and prayers that this not happen again.

[Reach *BANNED*]

The birthday week has begun and I feel beyond happy for so many reasons! However, more than feeling happy I feel grateful for those very same reasons.

p.s. The birthday is not till later in the week but this whole week is going to be part of that day- I mean hey, at least I do not take a whole month! (laughing).

[JDeere]

Same ole same ole with Lupus BS

Tired and everything that it entails

I see a new dr tomorrow morning so maybe we can get more opinions and tests done and med switch

[Stone-Butch]

Not so bad. Spent the weekend with my brother so he made me relax and enjoy the weekend. He is the best.

[Reach *BANNED*]

Feeling pretty darn good. This has been a great week so far - and it is going to end even better than it started!!

[nhplowboi]

Great and ready to get back to a quazi normal life after the doc told me I can lose my walking cast today. Saturday is my 50th high school class reunion (yep I are old) and will be glad to show up fully footed so to speak. Not sure I will be doing any two stepping but am sure I will still have a great time with the people I grew up with. You know what I mean, reaching back and touching base (ie grounding) with my peeps. Such a gift in these screwed up times.

[FireSignFemme]

Much better! No one, not me, not Poshmark, not the seller knows WTH happened to those packages but they gave me a full refund and reassured me the sellers won't be out the product and minus their money either. I'd rather have the items and be out the money but guess it just wasn't meant to be. Now with the money credited back, I can get back to the fun of shopping again.

[kittygrrl]

sleepy ..

[Stone-Butch]

Pretty good.

[Bèsame*]

confused, stressed, and worrisome.

Entire state issued State of Emergency. Yeah, coming towards me for sure. This will be my first major hurricane. I have my preparation list. Checking off things as I gather.

I have to evacuate. That means finding shelter for me and Jellybean. Be ready for damage or loss of power. Have gasoline in car, food supplies. You know, I dont have an ice chest..yikes. I have to lower the window awnings and extend the water gutters. Yeah, that's what I'll be doing.

Again, thanks to all my weather peeps, keeping me informed while we are swamped at work. Thanks for the constant kindness, you have eased some of the stress.💗💗💗

[JDeere]

Tired, stressed, kinda homesick for Texas, worried about my truck.

[Kenna]

Like I need a double hip replacement, wishing I could be 30 again.

[Stone-Butch]

very relaxed

[Gemme]

I'm with Kenna; aging is no fun. So, my elbow hurts. I've had a repetitive strain in my dominant elbow for almost 2 months now. Some days are better than others and I'm wearing a brace most of the time but it sucks. I've lost strength in that arm and that annoys the Hell out of me.

Other than that, I feel okay.

[FireSignFemme]

Pretty darn good. The post office finally found the packages! I let Poshmark know and they said I could keep them free of charge, sorry for the hassle, thanks for telling them and happy poshing! Note it wasn't Poshmark who screwed up, it was the postal worker, maybe even workers. Yet it was Poshmark who apologized, made right and the post office who couldn't care less, did diddly squat. Well eventually they did deliver them but no apologies, sorry for the delay. My order wasn't anything important but what if it had been? Anyhow I'm glad I held off on shopping because it will be easier to find pieces to match what I already have than it would be to start all over again.

Well everything I ordered is fantastic and brand new. Even the T-shirts which I couldn't tell from the photos because they didn't show tags or stickers on and the listing didn't mention it but that's what they are. I couldn't believe it, everything in fantastic shape, at such savings and the sellers through this whole process were really great about it and easy to work with too. So now I'm sitting at the computer, happy to be back to poshing again. My youngest grandson likes ladybugs, really likes the color navy blue and I found a long sleeve navy blue top with cute, tiny little red ladybugs printed all over it. I'll wear it when we work together outside. He'll get a kick out of it and it will protect my arms from the sun. :happyjump:

[Kenna]

Thankful to be safe at home.
Thankful this medicine is taking the edge off excruciating pain that sent me to the ER on Sunday.
Thankful for my best friend who has had to deal with me while I've dealt with horribleback and hip pain.
Feeling exhausted but enjoying the profound quiet of the house at this moment.

[Reach *BANNED*]

I feel much, much better than I had over the past couple of weeks - everything is centered - the physical and emotional - that is always a welcome feeling.

[Kenna]

Very exhausted after today's trip to my new spine surgeon. Upset that insurance is making me go to 6 to 8 weeks of PT before surgery.

[deb0670]

I am finally on the mend from a sinus procedure done in Sept.

[Bèsame*]

Happy!

Morning conversation turned into BBQ ribs and baseball game at her house.

Well...OK!!

[Gemme]

I feel okay, albeit still a little flu-ey. I sound like Hell. I'm still coughing and my voice isn't back to 100% yet and now, Mother Nature is sticking it to me. Three months without a visit and now, two in as many weeks.

Rude.

[Mel C.]

Overwhelmed. Lots going on right now. Rationally, everything will be okay. Emotionally, I need some relief from the negative. I’m well aware that I’m blessed. I have an amazing wife, a fur baby, friends and family, a well paying job that provides the material things I need, like a roof over my head, etc. sometimes it’s hard to feel blessed even when you know you are blessed.

[AlexF]

So, I decided to take the day off today. I have been a bit stretched with work, making myself available to accommodate several time zones for this new project.

So, to start the day, I decided on a later-than-usual run, in which I ended up with a nail in my foot. Luckily, I have had a recent tetanus shot.

Second, I decided to make a favourite high-protein lunch which ended up on the floor as I was sitting down to devour it. It gets better, while I was cleaning up the glass bowl slipped and shattered.

Finally, as I was leaving the house, I thought I will finish my coffee, which ended up all over my shirt.

Some days remind us of why we have a sense of humour.

[Bèsame*]

My emotions have been an array of ups and downs these past couple of days. I met a wonderful woman. Started a friendship then she initiated the flirting. I knew what I was up against, there were a couple of things she was dealing with. But alas, so was I. Caregiver to Mom and all the entailed.

We had a couple of great days as a dating couple, unsure what the future held.

Last week we had dinner. But before that, she took me by the hand and said she wanted to show me something. We went into the kitchen. She proceeded to open each and every cupboard showing me what was in them. Saying, if I needed anything, this is where it it. She had bought all kinds of fresh food. The coffee I liked. Then kissed me in the kitchen.
Tell me, that was some serious thought and effort. After dinner, we again danced in the front room to my favorite song, Tennessee Whiskey. Oh my. This woman really likes me.
We had a wonderful night together. She spoiled me with breakfast. I was invited back later that day.

Not even 3 hours after I left...I get a text. " I missed you when you left. But, this is freaking me out"

BUT??

we had a long conversation. It's not you. It's me. It ended before it started. I told her to take some time. I'm heart broken. This is hard because it was so good.

Now I've brought my Mom home. I have my own stress. But it sure would be great to have some joy. That she brought to me.

What is with the other freaking out?? I check all their boxes yet?? Tell me why?? This happened a few years back as well. Do I attract that?? I know I'm not that perfect..LOL!!!

[Gemme]

I feel disappointed. I found a Queer book club and then I learned that they are doing their meetings via Zoom, which is not what I had in mind. I had hoped to get a monthly dose of family in person, which I sorely need.

[Kätzchen]

I feel a ton of gratitude tonight.

<<<<<<~~ 🤫😘☺️

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling apprehensive. For several years, I've been sidestepping a (former?) friend. Basically, I screwed up: we were flirting, as we had the habit of doing. He's a gay man, so I thought this was totally safe flirting, just for fun. Then I took it a little too far one night; it was at a party, we had been drinking, and we were lying on his bed (which we had done many times in the past, in just a close, friendly way). He flirted back in a way that went just a little too far - and it shocked me. It occurred to me that he could be serious. And I freaked out - just a little, but it was enough. I realized that my mouth had written a check that my ass couldn't cash. And, I got up off the bed, made some lame excuse, and ran away, basically.

From talking to a mutual friend later, I realized I had really hurt his feelings. We have only seen each other since then when we are around our mutual friend - like for a funeral. We send each other Christmas cards, but like our conversations around our mutual friend, they are carefully worded. Not so much cold, but distant. And I have never been invited to another party. Nor have I invited him to anything.

I did a lot of thinking while I was going through cancer, about things I regret in my life. There aren't many, thank goodness, but I do regret messing up this friendship. I think about him often. I wonder if I should call, I've consulted our mutual friend about how he thinks the friend might take it. But I've never done anything about it.

Until now. He was on my mind again (it's Christmas card writing time again) and I thought, I have mostly recovered from my cancer treatments and other illnesses. There's no reason I couldn't give him a call and ask to meet up. Because I want to make this apology in person. It's much too deep to do it over the phone, or worse text (although a part of me, that part that is still highly embarrassed over this whole thing, would love to do it by text or phone. But no. No, no, no.)

So I gave myself a good talking to, and then I called him Sunday night. And we are meeting tomorrow night for dinner. Thus, the apprehension. And I know I can get through this, although it will be painfully embarrassing. I just hope he forgives me, and that we can be real friends again.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I feel apprehensive. For several years, I've been sidestepping a (former?) friend . . . we are meeting tomorrow night for dinner. Thus, the apprehension. And I know I can get through this, although it will be painfully embarrassing. I just hope he forgives me, and that we can be real friends again.

Dinner went great! He didn't even remember the specific incident until I gave him details; he pointed out that we were both really drunk at the time. He said he felt badly that I had worried all this time about such a thing. He said he had wondered why I hadn't called him, and I had just seemed to cut him off. Anyway, we made up, lots of hugging, with sincere "I love you"s. We have definite plans to meet again. We caught up on some of what's happened, but there's more talking to do. I feel relieved, grateful and happy.

[Kätzchen]

Sometimes, when we least expect it, someone will come along and say something about your work ethic or conduct on the job and make your day.

This is what happened to me yesterday. They even gave a tremendous boost to our company website by articulating their observations about my service skills and conduct on the job, after waiting nearly an hour for their turn for service.


When this happened to me yesterday, it felt like a "Second Wind," and it lifted my spirit and even my new boss boosted that feeling as well.

I feel validated. Seen. Heard. And I feel like a valuable person (which I know I am, but it feels good when a complete stranger sees you in your entire state of being).

Here's to "Second Winds".


:kissy:

[Bèsame*]

sometimes I just dont pay attention. Or....things run together. I thought I worked my second job tonight. But after I stopped to pick up dinner and arrive in the breakroom. I chat it up with my coworkers.
They are always so happy to see me.

And then...I realize I dont even work today. Its tomorrow.

I can get a good nights sleep and do it all over again tomorrow!

[Stone-Butch]

Feeling pretty up to see my brother for a few hours.

[Stone-Butch]

I am feeling upset with me. It crossed my mind again today that I had met this fine woman and she made some of her income from making comforters etc. in her home. I thought that would be ideal to have so I spoke to her about it and told her what I wanted and she started looking for the material etc. that was needed. A friend of mine brought two that she had bought and gave me one SO. I cancelled on this lady and probably got on the bad side of her because of this and to this day I do not blame her and I still feel very bad about what had happened but I have never had a real opportunity to tell her how sorry I am and that I have never forgotten about it. For this I feel upset with me as that is not like me but it is done and I can't undo it. I do hope she is doing well with her work.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling sad because I'm probably going to miss out on the family Christmas weekend. I will probably Zoom part of it, like I did for for Covid. I am so sick right now and I don't really seem to be getting better. Even if I am better, I'm not sure I would not be contagious in time for the get-together. I am especially concerned about being around the family baby, who is currently eight months old. He has surgery scheduled for the 20th and he does not need to catch something before then.

Zooming isn't like being there, though. I'm not baking anything this year either, because I don't want to poison people with my germs. I'm not going to go stay with my mom for a few days either. So I don't expect much Christmas spirit to come around here.

[nanners]

I’m exhausted and ready to be home in the warmth. Minnesota is just too cold. It’ll be good to be in my own bed and see our cats.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm still feeling sniffly, sneezy, cough-y and wheezy.

[Bèsame*]

Definitely well rested this morning. Last night, I think I nodded off every time I sat down. Finally I said, this is ridiculous, go put yourself to bed!

And ...I'm also feeling frustrated. You know how you feel when you take the time to write out something and you hit the wrong button and its deleted??
I wrote out a list of holiday baking ingredients.
Twice. And I used it on Friday to pick up some stuff.

Now where is it????

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling very tired and frustrated. I can't. quit. coughing!

[FireSignFemme]

Pampered. Instead of saying oh that's too spendy I don't really need it, went ahead and purchased some Dr. Teal's Eucalyptus & Spearmint soaking solution that was on discount and gave myself a pedicure. The combination seemed odd and I wondered if it would smell good but it does. The directions said to use half a bag, no way! I only put in ½ a tablespoon and even that might have been overkill, I probably could have gotten away with half that amount making it such a great deal I'm going back and buying more tomorrow. I also bought myself some winter theme slipper socks and when I put them on another surprise they're double layered, better than just one plush layer because they'll wash out better and stay looking nice longer.

J and I bought some slipper socks at Costco recently and what a waste of money. No grippers on the bottom, don't stay put, twist completely around on your foot from simply just walking in them not tap dancing or anything. Then though I washed according to package directions they still came out pilled up with all kind of bits of fuzzy stuff clinging to them. Well I should say embedded in them. To get it off you'd have to tweezer it out. Just one wear and it already looks like I've worn them for a couple. So these are great. Even better I just realized the pair with a different print I bought on discount last week at a different store are made of the exact same material by the same company. I am in home spa day heaven!

[Bèsame*]

Excited!!

Apparently someone moved out and left their kitty. How can anyone do that? Breaks my heart. At least try to re-home.

Anyways, enter me. And ta da...I'm saving her. Gonna go try to catch her over by a neighbors house.

Come ..<new> home...I have treats. Here kitty kitty.

[Orema]

Better. Have been in a funk. Listened to a friend's blues that caused a lot of triggers. Tried to reframe it early in the conversation, but she needed to face it in her way. After listening for awhile I felt like I was in a mental war zone and gave myself till Sunday to get over the grief. That didn't work but things are getting better.

Don't know if the cloud is moving on or just letting a few rays of sunshine through. Whatever the case, I'll go with it.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Accomplished! I got all my holiday cards done, and I'm going to start on a crafty project next.

[Kätzchen]

I'm okay today. Kind of feisty, in a non-confrontational way. :bow:

I'm wearing some favorite shoes (https://cdn.shopify.com/s/files/1/0360/7615/9107/products/IMG_4988_740x.jpg?v=1618248370) and a matching belt, which is close enough to "black belt" status for me

(LOL :jester:)

[FireSignFemme]

Warm, cozy and in a happy mood. The kid's washing machine broke down and mine isn't heavy duty enough to deal with all the big bulky things that got got caught up in the flood. So I'm getting ready to watch my grandson while J takes it to the laundromat. Of course that would happen not under normal circumstances but on an off day when the place is a sty. So i had to do some last minute cleaning, spend time getting the place more toddler friendly. At least as much as I could on short notice. I'll just have to watch him more closely.

Anyhow the place looks great and it's snowing. I can sit at the computer view my handwork, gaze at what I've accomplished and out the kitchen window and through the sliding glass door watch it fall. Or sit on the couch, take breaks from the television shows now and then and watch through the living room window. So peacful. That combined with maple doughnuts for breakfast, fresh coffee, my new warm slipper socks on and Monte sleeping peacefully away all cuddled up next to me has me in fine spirits. It's a great morning.

[Stone-Butch]

Feeling pretty good. We didn't get any snow yet, lots of wind and rain just like I like it. I am here with the window open enjoying the sound of the trees in the wind. It is 34o now.

[Genesis]

i am not sure how i am feeling... just enjoying awesome music, dancing around, and creating magik....

Wishing all a wonderful weekend!

[Toolio]

I went to Walmart and as I was walking I came to where this young woman was and we stared for a few then I remembered it was my ex wife's daughter and she had her daughter with her. I haven't seen them in years and they both were happy to see me but my stepdaughter says to me your hair is really short...lol. I guesstimated her age because I really didn't remember but I guessed 40 and she was only 39 and says don't age me....lol kids

[Kenna]

Great.
Enjoyed a wonderful, delightful day meeting with a local friend (previous coworker) to celebrate our birthdays together. She invited me to an incredible restaurant I've never been to.
We had fun exchanging gifts and sharing stories.
Great day.

[Stone-Butch]

Woke up with the flu I am sure. aw throat, coughing, no fever, headache from hell, no appetite, aching all over. Going back to couch.

[Stone-Butch]

4th day of feeling like crap. Headache and sore throat is a pain in the head LOL.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

So much better. Down to the occasional dry cough with the help of a cough pill that my nurse practitioner gave me. Not nearly so achy. A little tired, but overall just much better.

[Toolio]

So much better. Down to the occasional dry cough with the help of a cough pill that my nurse practitioner gave me. Not nearly so achy. A little tired, but overall just much better.
Glad to hear that your feeling better.

[Stone-Butch]

Body ache all over, rampant headache, sore throat and coughing without end, runny nose then stuffyness. Other that that ok.

[Toolio]

I hope you feel better soon.....

[deb0670]

I have a crown on my bottom left molar in the very back of my mouth that somehow shifted or broke away from the piece that is still inside my gum. That has created a small gap between my crown and gum and now gum is really, really tender. I have to be careful how i eat cause food gets trapped in that hole and causes my gum to hurt. The pain is radiating all throughout the left of my bottom jaw.
I can't go see a dentist until January, so, in the meantime i rinse my mouth out as well as i can, then break up a Tylenol and put it in that hole. It gives a little bit of relief for a few, but,.. owies.
All that to say, i feel owies. lol not lol

[Gemme]

Body ache all over, rampant headache, sore throat and coughing without end, runny nose then stuffyness. Other that that ok.

Yep, that's the flu going around. My turn on the merry go round lasted 3 weeks in all. Feel better soon!


I have a crown on my bottom left molar in the very back of my mouth that somehow shifted or broke away from the piece that is still inside my gum. That has created a small gap between my crown and gum and now gum is really, really tender. I have to be careful how i eat cause food gets trapped in that hole and causes my gum to hurt. The pain is radiating all throughout the left of my bottom jaw.
I can't go see a dentist until January, so, in the meantime i rinse my mouth out as well as i can, then break up a Tylenol and put it in that hole. It gives a little bit of relief for a few, but,.. owies.
All that to say, i feel owies. lol not lol

I'm sorry. Mouth stuff is so frustrating! Eat on the opposite side of your mouth and rinse your mouth out with warm salt water every 2-3 hours to help keep inflammation and swelling down. I would look into Orajel and/or Anbesol to numb things up a bit until you can get in to see the dentist.

Personally, I'm feeling okay. I had to take today off to balance holiday hours, which was nice. I stayed in bed longer and I was able to lounge around and take my time getting ready. It wasn't my intention originally but I wound up in a 'cute' outfit. You know; one that makes you feel extra attractive and maybe a little more flirty or sassy. It's been a while since I wore something that lifted my spirits a bit so that has been nice. I ran errands and did things in said outfit so lots of people saw me today. I like to think that one or two of them thought that I looked kinda adorable. There's no way to tell for certain but that's what I've decided to think and that's that.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Body ache all over, rampant headache, sore throat and coughing without end, runny nose then stuffyness. Other that that ok.

Yes, that's what I had too. I'm leaning toward feeling it was not the flu because I had my flu shot weeks earlier, although there's no guarantee that those work. I'm leaning toward feeling it was RSV. Mine also lasted 3 weeks. In any case, I was tested for strep and bacterial infections, and it wasn't those, so it was viral whatever it was and there was nothing to do but cover up the symptoms as best I could. In the end, Mucinex DM, some extra dextromethorphan/Delsym (the coughing was massive), Sudafed, Benadryl, Tylenol and a bit of Jim Beam worked for me, plus my nurse practitioner helped me out with some Robitussin with codeine for the cough and sore throat, and once I had a dry nonproductive cough, some Tessalon Perles for the persistent dry cough.

I sure hope you feel better soon. Achieving the perfect balance of symptom relief is key, IMHO. I'm a believer in better living through chemistry - I understand that everyone is not. And of course, lots of rest.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I have a crown on my bottom left molar in the very back of my mouth that somehow shifted or broke away from the piece that is still inside my gum. That has created a small gap between my crown and gum and now gum is really, really tender. I have to be careful how i eat cause food gets trapped in that hole and causes my gum to hurt. The pain is radiating all throughout the left of my bottom jaw.
I can't go see a dentist until January, so, in the meantime i rinse my mouth out as well as i can, then break up a Tylenol and put it in that hole. It gives a little bit of relief for a few, but,.. owies.
All that to say, i feel owies. lol not lol

Aww, so sorry for the owies. I don't have anything to add to what Gemme advised, except if you can't get any Anbesol right away a little Jim Beam can help. (You may have noticed in my other posts that Jim Beam is my go-to; I'm not kidding, it really can help. Or whatever other whiskey you happen to prefer.) I hope you can get in with your dentist soon, and until then I hope you get your symptoms under control. Owies during the holidays are especially no fun.

[Bèsame*]

smiling, because I made another batch of fudge. Ahhhh, so much better.

Also little bit less stressed. My Mom is making great strides. I can worry less now. What I thought my life was over..its beginning slowly again.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

A little more cheerful. It was rejuvenating being out today on a sunny, relatively warm afternoon; I've had dinner, which always improves my mood; I'm halfway through It's a Wonderful Life which has me feeling more Christmas spirit; and Brittany has finally settled down to sleep which is a relief.

[deb0670]

[



I'm sorry. Mouth stuff is so frustrating! Eat on the opposite side of your mouth and rinse your mouth out with warm salt water every 2-3 hours to help keep inflammation and swelling down. I would look into Orajel and/or Anbesol to numb things up a bit until you can get in to see the dentist.

.[/QUOTE]

Thank you. Orajel has been my best friend as of late, will get Anbesol asap.
Rinsing mouth out and eating on opposite side does help some too.

[deb0670]

Aww, so sorry for the owies. I don't have anything to add to what Gemme advised, except if you can't get any Anbesol right away a little Jim Beam can help. (You may have noticed in my other posts that Jim Beam is my go-to; I'm not kidding, it really can help. Or whatever other whiskey you happen to prefer.) I hope you can get in with your dentist soon, and until then I hope you get your symptoms under control. Owies during the holidays are especially no fun.


I neeed to invest in some Jim Beam it appears. lol Definitely will taste better than Tylenol lol.
Thank You so much!

[Stone-Butch]

Just shoot me...........

[Bèsame*]

My favorite ex/now really good friend/crazy is on her way to spend the Holiday Weekend with us. She is about 3 hours away and will stop in at work to say Hi, before she goes back to the house to see my Mom. Yay...fun weekend of shenanigans and lack of sleep?? Lol

Oh and there may or may not be some holiday drinks being made and possible random phone calls😯😯😯😉😎🍹

[Stone-Butch]

I have not felt this sick as far back as I can remember. Bed and water are the only things I need.

[Kenna]

Very worried about my beloved adopted grandparents. We took him to the hospital 2 days ago and they decided to admit him that night but he's still in the ER waiting on a room upstairs. She's beside herself and exhausted because she refuses to go home to rest.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Very worried about my beloved adopted grandparents. We took him to the hospital 2 days ago and they decided to admit him that night but he's still in the ER waiting on a room upstairs. She's beside herself and exhausted because she refuses to go home to rest.

It's ridiculous and scary how hard it is to get a bed in a hospital now. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents' difficulty, Kenna.

I heard a story on NPR about how one of the reasons beds don't turn over more often is because the nurses drag their feet on completing discharge papers. When they are understaffed and so many patients need them "right now", it's hard for them to find 45 minutes to do one patient's discharge papers. I have no idea how accurate this is - it sounds like blaming the nurses for the hospitals poor administration to me.

[clay]

It's ridiculous and scary how hard it is to get a bed in a hospital now. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents' difficulty, Kenna.

I heard a story on NPR about how one of the reasons beds don't turn over more often is because the nurses drag their feet on completing discharge papers. When they are understaffed and so many patients need them "right now", it's hard for them to find 45 minutes to do one patient's discharge papers. I have no idea how accurate this is - it sounds like blaming the nurses for the hospitals poor administration to me.

You are exactly "spot on".

Having two recent back to back experiences, I was told at 900am, okay, you can go home today. I know that it takes a bit for "paperwork", etc etc. BUT at 800pm, to be told, "oh, you aren't going til tomorrow". My wife now had an hour & a half drive in the DARK, alone. I was so pissed.

For what it is worth, I recently presented to an ER, in acute distress, sat in a very crowded waiting room for THREE hours, then in an ER room, another 5 hours BEFORE an MD saw me. Then another 4 hours to get a "diagnosis", and an "admission to wait on a room. I spent 13 hours BEFORE getting a room. NOT A THING WAS ONE OR ME.

MY particular nurse3 had a max of 5 patients each day, 3 of us went home on my discharge day, NONE before 230pm!!

I read where 1 out of every 4 admissions will have some type of error made in their care. THAT! IS! NOT! GOOD!

Someone somewhere certainly does drag their feet!

[kittygrrl]

a little of this

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[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling tired, achy and mostly happy. It was a long, struggle-filled trip to see my sister and mom and the rest of the family today. I got up at 6 a.m. and it took me 6-1/2 hours to get prepared and go 100 miles. So much time in the car led to the tiredness and achiness. But then things mostly went right, and it was good to see the fam. We shared a delicious meal, oohed and ahhed over the baby, and exchanged Christmas presents since I was too sick at Christmas to attend the festivities. My mom and I got some quality time to talk, although honestly I think I mostly bored her with stories of my dog. I texted my sister when I got home and asked her if she thought mom knew who I was. She said she thought that mom knew I "was a familiar person to her". She said mom "knows" her the same way most of the time. So that's bittersweet. I also had some good conversation with my sister today. The drive home only took an hour and a half, thankfully.

[kittygrrl]

sleepy ...

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Sleepy but good, and like I don't want to sleep any more today. I blew off a doctor's appointment this morning; the soonest I could reschedule was July, and I don't really care. I feel like I'm really glad I don't have to leave this house in the rain today.

[Kätzchen]

I'm feeling pretty good. :blueheels::cherry::hk20:

[Gemme]

Disconnected.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling fine except for the very tip of my right index finger, which feels like it's burning. It's kind of weird - it might be nerve pain as a result of the chemo.

[Stone-Butch]

A little over three weeks and I think this flu has lost its battle.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

A little over three weeks and I think this flu has lost its battle.

I think three weeks is about par for the course for this strain of flu. That's what I've heard from almost everyone I know who's had it. I'm glad you're on schedule and are getting better.

* * * * *

I'm feeling very tired and kind of depressed. I need to have my car worked on before going on vacation next week, but I just can't make myself do it. It will delay our vacation if I don't do it today, but it's just not going to happen. I got up and took care of the dog this morning, but I just can't even make myself take a shower. Maybe later today.

[Stone-Butch]

Georgia Ma'am ty so much for your kind words when you have and are going through so much yourself. I think you are a very brave woman to stand up and not give in one inch. You are a lesson to all of us with problems that facing things make the tolerable. ty again and do take care of you *S

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Georgia Ma'am ty so much for your kind words when you have and are going through so much yourself. I think you are a very brave woman to stand up and not give in one inch. You are a lesson to all of us with problems that facing things make the tolerable. ty again and do take care of you *S

Stone-Butch, you are so thoughtful. This put a great big smile on my face! It surprises and pleases me greatly to be thought of as brave. To paraphrase Melissa Etheridge, I think I might be "brave and crazy" (in a good way). Thank you. Please take care of yourself too.

[Soft*Silver]

Unraveling….

In 1973 when I was a teenager, I had two weeks worth of dreams about a death of a young person. So many details. Alarming ones. Very specific sexual ones. Then suddenly the dream stopped. And within a week, a body was found. So many things around that death were details from my dreams. Including the specific sexual torture. I even picked up on the killer. But they never found the killer!
Until now… 50 years later.
So many things about the killer were also in my dreams. I am re-experiencing the god awful feelings I had when I was having those dreams. Now that there is closure I hope this all ends…..

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Unraveling….

... Now that there is closure I hope this all ends…..

Soft*Silver, I'm so sorry you're experiencing this. I've had a couple of premonitions, including that someone was going to die. After going through dealing with it, I realized there was nothing I could do, there was no reason for me to get this knowledge and there was no one who could benefit from it. It was just some glitch in the universe that I found out. I just had to let it go.

I hope you can let this go and find peace. Your situation includes awful details that mine didn't and I know our circumstances are not the same, but I sincerely hope this is not as vivid and immediate for you now as it was when you were a teenager. You have my best wishes, and if you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Relaxed and happy. A brief vacation was a very good idea. It rained all day today, but we stayed inside with the fireplace going and were warm and cozy.

[Gemme]

A little over three weeks and I think this flu has lost its battle.

I think three weeks is about par for the course for this strain of flu. That's what I've heard from almost everyone I know who's had it. I'm glad you're on schedule and are getting better.


Ditto. My bout with it lasted 3 weeks and that was at the beginning of it all in October. I'm glad you are feeling better.

I'm feeling disenchanted. With my job. With people. With life in general. There's a part of me that is an eternal optimist but that part gets smaller and smaller every year and more so lately than previously. I have some pretty big decisions to make this year and I can't see a good, healthy outcome for any of them.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Slightly guilty. I postponed/rescheduled all the doctors' appointments I had this week. It was just too many for one week. Also, I'm too tired to get dressed in nice clothes and fix my hair. Vacation was fun but it kind of wore me out. I've spent all day sleeping ever since we got back.

[nhplowboi]

A little sad. I sent the two boys out to be boarded today. The first time in 10 years I have been horseless. I am happy with their new accomodations but wish they were closer than an 1.5 hour drive.

[Orema]

Feelling better. Woke up on Monday with a sore throat and it was downhill from there. Feel like I've been in a feverish haze for a couple days. Woke up this morning feeing much better.

Took a couple covid tests that gave me negative results—that's good. Guess is was a 24-48 hour flu.

And I lost 5 lbs. There is that.

:bow:

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Still tired but at least I didn't sleep all day. Currently taking a break from cleaning the kitchen. Three espressos following dinner helped. I don't expect any difficulty falling asleep tonight though.

[Orema]

Good. Had a pre-op appt this morning and have been cleared for the first knee-replacement surgery later this month. Am scheduled to get the left knee replaced first because it causes more pain, but am thinking maybe I should start with the right knee since it's the weaker knee. I'm a leftie so maybe that's why my left knee is stronger? Whatever. I'll discuss it with the health team. Probably doesn't make a difference as bad these knees are. We'll see.

[Bèsame*]

Super excited!! My bestie from California is here in Tampa. I'm leaving work today and going to go hang out with her. So much to talk about!

I met her at a Superbowl party..23 years ago. We haven't seen each other in 7 years. The phone lines burn though! We are going to find some gay hangouts..you have been warned, I might call to compare drinks! 😉😎🍷🍸🍹🍺

[kittygrrl]

Beautiful..https://t4.ftcdn.net/jpg/03/22/18/99/360_F_322189992_kOPoq9DCTM22hoatkoibg2mzbsN13hLd.j pg

[Soft*Silver]

It’s a full moon. I have been tearful all day, while at the same time being fussy and angry. We have an arctic blast and it’s been on and off single-digit temperatures for the past couple days and then it’s supposed to get in the 40s almost 50s. This change the temperature and the moon is fluctuating my mind and body.
Can’t be spring so that I can go play in the soil? I bought $100 worth of seeds again today. I am truly eager to get started!

[Kenna]

Thankful that I'm not sick tonight like I was last night. That was awful.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Thrifty. I have been sticking to my budget and it's showing in my checking account.

[Gemme]

Good. Had a pre-op appt this morning and have been cleared for the first knee-replacement surgery later this month. Am scheduled to get the left knee replaced first because it causes more pain, but am thinking maybe I should start with the right knee since it's the weaker knee. I'm a leftie so maybe that's why my left knee is stronger? Whatever. I'll discuss it with the health team. Probably doesn't make a difference as bad these knees are. We'll see.

We tend to start off with our dominant side when we walk every time and get in a few extra steps with that leg. That's as good a reason as any, I suppose.

For thread compliance, I am feeling neutral.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Pretty good. Climbing and going down the stairs has gotten easier. Probably because I am doing it so many times a day now. I have even stopped counting. I would say more than 5 times, and less than 10 most days. It's time to add in some walking and sitting-to-standing exercises now.

So this morning I had to get up early and take my car to the mechanic's. It was no trouble at all, walking a bit and dealing with my rollator and a Lyft, although I have a bit of a backache now. Nothing that a Goody's powder and a nap won't cure.

[Bèsame*]

Feeling much better than yesterday that's for sure. I was feeling very lightheaded and a little nauseated. Luckily I had a routine dr appt yesterday. I just figured it was going to be low blood pressure. But, get this..I have vertigo. It's a thing. I have calcium
deposits in my inner drum.

My doctor positioned me so I was at angle to get those floating deposits in one place. Interesting, I say.

Oh things we can look forward to!

[FireSignFemme]

Pleased with myself and happy about all I accomplished yesterday.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Pretty darn happy!

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Inadequate. I'm staying with my Mom for 5 days, and her dementia has worsened so much. I'm at my sister's house because that's where my Mom lives now. My sister and her husband desperately wanted to go on a vacation with some of their friends, and asked me weeks ago if I could stay. I was happy to say yes. Then one day before I'm supposed to arrive (yesterday) my sister called and described our Mom's condition.

Essentially, Mom has become more emotional, more prone to wander, and physically combative. One day recently she went for a walk down a major highway (this makes 4 times she has done this now). When her daytime caregiver went after her, my Mom slapped her and bit her and told her to leave her alone. The caregiver had to call the police to come pick her up and take her back home. By the time my Sister arrived on the scene, our Mom was screaming about not wanting to live here, and how nobody in the family wanted her here.

My sister called me one day before I was to arrive to tell me this. She also admitted that she only told me because my BIL told her she really ought to, and advocated for me that I would need this information to adequately care for Mom.

My Sister also told me she had called the doctor yesterday and he had prescribed Seroquel to help Mom sleep better and hopefully alleviate some of her symptoms. So here I am, supposedly taking care of my Mom, who is rapidly declining, and who is taking a new drug that nobody knows yet how it will affect her.

Personally, I think my Sister should have canceled her trip. If she's going to keep Mom at home, she's going to have to sacrifice more of her time and money to do it. At least she should have stayed while Mom is getting used to her new medication. There is no physical way I can chase my Mom down the highway if she should take off again. I pointed this out to my sister and asked her what I should do if it happens, and she said to call 911. I feel that is an inadequate first line of action.

I told my Sister that I feel uncomfortable but that I would still stay with Mom. My Sister does so much to take care of our Mom, and there is very little I can do to help. I also know my Sister really needs some time away with her husband and friends.

So here I am, feeling inadequate and hyper vigilant. I am thanking the Goddess that there is supposed to be a huge rain storm all day tomorrow, because I think it will deter my Mom from going outside. If I can keep her interested in helping me cook and watching TV for just a few days, I will make it through.

Please light a candle for us and/or send us your good thoughts and wishes. Thanks Peeps.

[nhplowboi]

God bless you GeorgiaMa'am. I am wishing you the strength, patience and wisdom to care for your mom this week. If your sister has not started your mom on the meds, I would hold off until she got back. I have to say and it is none of my business but a quick review of that particular med for elderly dementia patients appears problematic. I hope your sister gets her much needed break and the next few days will be a safe, loving, uneventful, visit for you and your mom.

[ksrainbow]

God bless you GeorgiaMa'am. I am wishing you the strength, patience and wisdom to care for your mom this week. If your sister has not started your mom on the meds, I would hold off until she got back. I have to say and it is none of my business but a quick review of that particular med for elderly dementia patients appears problematic. I hope your sister gets her much needed break and the next few days will be a safe, loving, uneventful, visit for you and your mom.

Following along with nhplowboi response: Ms Georgia, The path you are traveling with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one. Your sister's path with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one either. Each of you have a unique love for your Mom. Both of your journeys are/will take different directions both for the love and care of your Mom.

Enjoy these personal moments Georgia!

Ks-

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Feeling relieved, accomplished and lucky. Relieved because nothing of particular note happened while I was staying with my Mom. Accomplished because I hung in there and made it through with compassion and kept my cool. Lucky because folks have been so supportive. Thanks for all your kind words; you really helped me get through.

[FireSignFemme]

Like life is worth living. It helps that I'm no longer on antideppressants. I'm not against medication it's just if they're going to insist on giving me drugs I wish they'd give me real ones.

[Vincent]

I'm feeling Numb
I found out 4 weeks ago my mother passed away,early july.
I don't know the date
my sister lives 10 mins from Mum
It has always been drama as both are narcisists,as my mother aged though,she had become much easier
She contacted me in 2018,to give me money and reconnect and write a new will,with both my sister and myself,co execetors
I begged her to not tell my sister,we had reconected
Well yeah she did and it all started again,by mid 2019,I was over it and discontinued contact.
I did try my best to keep track of Mum,but TBH,it seemed less stressful for her if I was not around.

Well Well
Mon I found out Mum had $100,000 in 2 accounts
and my sister has emptied both,one def after death
without probate.

So now it Continues
My sister BTW is worth millions BUT mainly coz of her husband

So I found a lawyer and he is assesing,if the case is winable and fraud charges laid against my sister

seriously
my life has been one gigantic soap opera

For me I'm like

Well I didnt even know Mum had that much dough

So if I get some
cool

if not
You can't miss what you don't have

N why are wealthy people such misery guts n mean

My approach is
live simply n simply live

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Feeling sad and tired. This is just the result of spending so much time driving and visiting with my Mom. I'll sleep for a few days and do as little as possible and then I'll feel better.

[Orema]

Better than I expected. Got the left knee replaced today. Everything went well.

I’m in the hospital for one night and should go home tomorrow.

They gave me a nerve blocker, and I can feel no pain. It should wear off sometime this evening. I’ve been up walking around and I even went up and down four steps, of course with help from the physical therapist. Things are going well.

Looking forward to getting the other knee replaced in April.

Lucky me.

:bow:

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling mostly okay, but a little unsettled. The day was beautiful; sunny and warm. I had an errand to run and there was a parking space right in front and no line inside. But my nose is a little out of joint because a few things haven't gone my way; I just need to get over them. My doggo has been a little love, and she keeps me on the happy side.

[Gemme]

As much as I dread dealing with the shoveling and whatnot that comes with snow clean up, it sure is beautiful coming down. I feel almost peaceful and nearly content tonight. It won't last but it's nice for now.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I have a slight headache that just won't quite go away. I took a BC Powder, and it helped a little, but I don't want to take another one right before bed because of the caffeine.

I ditched my annual physical with my PCP today. I just did not feel up to it. There's a $25 fine if I don't call two hours ahead to cancel, and I made it by five minutes. They rescheduled me for next week. This is the 2nd time I've rescheduled, so I suppose I will really have to go next week. I got a 4 p.m. appointment, so that should give me plenty of time to get ready and get there.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Kind of blue. My sister and I decided to sell Mom's house as is, after we take a few things out of it that we want. It's really kind of depressing to decide which things I want. But at least we don't have to go through the whole estate sale/Goodwill/take things to the dump rigamarole. My Mom is a neat freak, but also a hoarder. At least everything has a place and it's all put away. There's no clutter. Her house is neater than mine could ever hope to be. It's pretty close to looking professionally staged for sale. Unfortunately, it's also tragically 1980s in décor.

My Sister and I agreed that the easiest thing to do, in order to avoid ending up with more clutter in our own houses, is to make lists in advance of the things we want. Then when we go to the house we should pretty much try to stick to the lists. Other than some gifts I gave my Mom and my Dad, and a few mid-century modern pieces, I don't really want much of anything. I plan to go through the Christmas ornaments for things that we handmade.

Our Mom has most of the photos with her at my Sister's house, where she now lives. My Sister and I thought about just leaving the house intact, so our Mom could visit when she wanted to, but Mom has no interest. The last few times she has been there, she just wanders around and asks my Sister who the people in the photos are. She acts like it's someplace that she thinks ought to be familiar to her, but she can't quite remember ever being there. Also, we just had to pay the taxes and insurance on the place and we really just can't afford to keep it empty.

Thank goodness this is not the house where I grew up, or I'd be a basket case. Mom and Dad retired to this house after my Sister and I left home. And thank Goddess we are not waiting until Mom passes away to do this. I think it is the saddest thing to have to pack up somebody's possessions after they die. It's sad enough as it is; with her dementia, it's like Mom is passing away slowly, a little bit more every day.

[kittygrrl]

nice .....

[kittygrrl]

have the...
O no (its almost)
Monday Blues:seeingstars:

[CherylNYC]

I'm really pissed off. Naked homophobia is on display in a politically partisan column written by an official in THE major motorcycle rights org magazine. The people I work with most closely in that org are upset and have been properly responsive. The President/CEO has not. His lackey answered me with a non-apology that manages to be dismissive AND condescending. She didn't even bother addressing the homophobia.

I hate this. It's supposed to be about riding motorcycles.

[Blade]

Little bit stuffy. Haven't been sick in 3 yrs I don't think. Guess constant hand washing and sanitizing and mask probably helped that.

We have heavy pollen right now so I really believe it is allergies

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Relieved. My dog ran off today, and thank the Goddess she didn't get lost and she came back after about 20 minutes.

[Kenna]

Like my lower spine has been twisted to the left :blink:

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Really down and blue. I don't know if it's just the rain or something else.

[Gayandgray]

I haven’t really felt myself ever since my first bout with COVID-19 back in 2020. Never fully got my memory back or my taste and smell. Then I got COVID again last month. Thankfully not as bad but I’m still tired all the time and I’m really down. My doctor says my memory may never come back, my taste and smell may never come back, and I’m having a really hard time dealing with all this. I just want the old me back……..:blink:

[Stone-Butch]

Feeling pretty good . My brother came into town today and I made us some sirloin burgers with tater tots and battered onion rings. I had ice tea and he had milk.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Better. I've been able to rest a lot this week.

[Orema]

Good and anxious. Ready to get surgery on the right knee. My left leg is so damn sexy now that it's straight.

Have been approved to drive but am still waiting on approval to ride my exercise bike. Go figger. Maybe I'll get approval tomorrow when I go to PT.

I have almost no swelling from elevation and ice (ice and pillows are my friends). That makes it easier to move my knee and ankle when exercising and that makes it easier to reach the goals the surgeon and PT have set.

I'm still using the walker at times, but I need it for my bad knee more than I do for the replaced knee.

[nhplowboi]

I'm running the woodstove tonight which is always a comfort. I am sorry Red about what happened today. The wood heat of a stove is primal and comforting.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Semi-relieved. The boi had a biopsy on hys lung today, and all went well. No anesthesia problems, which is always a concern with hym. The worst thing is hy has a sore throat from the intubation, and hy is grumpy because hy hasn't been able to eat since yesterday morning. I guess that's a good thing - if hy has the energy to be grumpy, hy must be alright.

[Orema]

Good. Got the right knee replaced a week ago and it looks good and is doing well. I don't think it's doing as well as the left knee but I'm not sure because the first couple weeks after surgery on the left knee is a haze to me.

Haze. The Percocet/oxycodone is working well, regulated well, and now I take less than they recommend. Haven't developed an addiction and don't expect to, but this shit keeps me crying. I have cried more in the last 8 weeks than I have in the last 8 years and I'm a cryer who doesn't hold back. Crying is often a therapeutic device that helps me when I need to accept things and move on. On Percocet/oxycodone I start crying if I see a tv commercial with a puppy or a kitty. Will be glad to soon be off these pills.

Apart from that, the knees look sexy as a mf and every time I pass my full-length mirror I stop to gaze at them (g'on girl). And can barely wait to show them off later this summer or early in the fall.

Lucky me.

:bow:

[Soft*Silver]

I am having my right eye operated on Thursday. My macula opened again so that has to be re-done. And then cataract removal. The following Thursday I have my left eye’s cataract removed. I am having insurance problems at this late date which may delay the surgery. The next available surgical date is in August!
AND our house keeper/aid came to our house on Saturday with a full snotty nose and a cough. Guess what I have today? A cough. This too could postpone my surgeries.
I can barely see out of my right eye. I hope Thursday happens. I can feel my worry beginning to take root as panic.

[FireSignFemme]

I am having my right eye operated on Thursday. My macula opened again so that has to be re-done. And then cataract removal. The following Thursday I have my left eye’s cataract removed. I am having insurance problems at this late date which may delay the surgery. The next available surgical date is in August!
AND our house keeper/aid came to our house on Saturday with a full snotty nose and a cough. Guess what I have today? A cough. This too could postpone my surgeries.
I can barely see out of my right eye. I hope Thursday happens. I can feel my worry beginning to take root as panic.

I just found out Monday I'm going to need to have cataract surgery. Well I suppose I don't have to but it turns out that's what it is. The surgery center is backed up so it won't be for awhile. Late July was the soonest J said they could get me in. It's helpful to hear others talk about it.

[Soft*Silver]

I had my first cataract surgery today, and it was easy Peezy! From the time I walked in to the time I walked out it was only two hours. No pain whatsoever. I can’t wait to see what kind of vision I’m going to have as my eye heals. I’m so relieved that it went as well as it dead. I’ve had numerous eye surgeries, and this was the only one I was really fearful of. And there was nothing to be afraid of!

[FireSignFemme]

"From the time I walked in to the time I walked out it was only two hours. No pain whatsoever."

That's a comfort to hear. Glad it went so well for you.

[Kenna]

Like I need a road trip

[Gemme]

Dirty. I swallowed my political views to keep peace with a customer and I'm very bothered by it. More so than usual, anyway.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Deeply sad, and tired, yet unable to sleep due to troubled thoughts. I'm grieving and going through all the motions, like preparing for the celebration of life memorial service, and responding to phone calls and texts. I'm also cleaning my house like crazy, and I'm exhausted when I drop into bed at 8 pm. I'm so, so thankful for all the people who have contacted me with offers of comfort and support. I have shamelessly and gratefully accepted their help, delegating tasks like a pro.

I'm hanging in there.

[Kätzchen]

I'm feeling pretty good today. :hk20:

[Soft*Silver]

I’m feeling amazed! I had my second cataract surgery. amazed! I had my second cataract surgery. Now both eyes can see perfectly, except for reading! I still have a lot of floaters, really big bold black floaters in my left eye, but my right eye is completely clear. I’m still amazed that after 60 years of wearing glasses, I only have to wear them now to read!

[Orema]

Really good. So glad I got both knees replaced.

Had the left knee replaced 10 weeks ago today and the right one replaced 3 weeks ago today. Stitches/bandages have been removed and am going to out-patient therapy. I drive myself to PT. It’s 3 blocks away and I only take Tylenol (no cannabis nor Percocet) before driving. So far, so good.

They used the Mako Protocol (https://patients.stryker.com/knee-replacement/options/mako-robotic-arm-assisted-total-knee) to replace both knees and I’m amazed at how well things went. With both knees I was released from the hospital the next day. I had neighbors and family to help when I was released from the hospital after replacing the left knee, but I was able to take care of myself without any help after replacing the right knee. I had in-home PT for the first two weeks and outpatient after that.

I start and end the day by elevating my feet above my heart for one hour. That helps to keep the swelling down. And I ice the left knee throughout the day.

It is wonderful to take a shower without losing my balance. My knees were so knocked that I had to negotiate how to stand erry damn time I got in the shower or stood on my weight scale! No more, baby.

I’ve lost about 15 lbs because I cannot eat when I’m on the pain pills. I try to have at least a bowl of soup and a green smoothie when on the pain pills. I’m not concerned there’s any underlying condition. I know my body pretty well and everything is working as it should. I’ll see the surgeon at the end of the month and will discuss with him.

I still miss riding my bike and am looking forward to riding again after my PT approves it.

Things could be worse.

:bow:

[nhplowboi]

Pretty darn good but I bet Donnie is pale white and crying. It's all downhill for you now Donnie.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Fair to middlin', fair to middlin'.

[FireSignFemme]

Tired, stiff and sore but the excercise was good for me.

[Orema]

Good. Had PT this morning. The two people I work with are very good. Most times I feel better when I leave PT than when I arrived and the good feelings last. Surgeon and PTs are please with the progress. I'm a bit impatient and want things to hurry along.

I still have swelling and numbness, but not much pain. It took me awhile to get used to the numbness. I couldn't even touch it at first. Now I can massage it and I do that a few times a day.

I alternate riding my bike and walking, and have just started walking up stairs. I haven't walked up a flight of stairs in years and now I'm really, really feeling it in my glutes each time I climb the stairs.

The weirdest thing is when I get an itch in a numb area. I scratch, but it doesn't help. Ugh. That almost drove me cray-cray a couple weeks ago, but it's not so bad now.

Overall, I'm good.

:bow:

[Gemme]

Small. Very, very small.

[Stone-Butch]

I will be fit into a hyperbaric chamber Monday. My brother is coming to take me.

[kittygrrl]

Just finished gentle Yoga...now it's dinner..Swiss Chard is steaming & thinking of adding pasta & cherry tomatoes

[Kenna]

Ouch. I did too much this weekend.

[Soft*Silver]

Sucker punched. My husband just told me we have a leak in the upstairs bathroom. Well….THAT’S gonna cost!

[Gemme]

Sad. It's Pride Month and the stories that have popped up on my feed lately are about our members being attacked. At parades. At local government meetings. At work.

We're not safe anywhere and it feels like the good no longer outweighs the bad.

[Stone-Butch]

Not very good at all.

[Kätzchen]

I'm feeling blessed and well cared for and loved up (properly).

I truly feel I am the luckiest girl in the world. :stillheart: :kissy: :hk20:

[Soft*Silver]

It’s not even the middle of June, and I’ve been grossly insulted by stupid jokes about Juneteenth and pride month by two of my local friends on Facebook. I had no idea, but either one of them were capable of such actions, let alone belief system. Both of them said that he didn’t mean anything by it, but they were just jokes.


I am feeling insulted, frustrated, just disappointed, and betrayed. I publicly lit into them.

These people know who I am and everything I stand for. Why did they think they could be my friends? Do they think, seriously think, that I want to be friends with people who held beliefs like this? Did they not see the harm they do by telling jokes like this, and passing them off as innocent because they’re “just jokes”?

[kittygrrl]

working on changing my perspective...
https://i0.wp.com/www.themarginalian.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/12/neildegrassetyson.jpg?w=680&ssl=1
Neil deGrasse says "if your a hammer, all your problems look like nails"...

he's right:tea:

[FireSignFemme]

Happy, relieved. It's never a good feeling when a doctors says well it's probably not, but just to be on the safe side let's check for this, but when you ask him well if it's not that then what else could it be? He looks you straight in the eye and says - I have no idea. Now that's terrifying! Fortunately all is well but I definitely could have lived without that scare.

[Orema]

Very good and I'm so thankful for the professional health team (knee surgeon, GP, and Physical Therapy team) that saw me through the staged bilateral knee replacement surgery. They did a great job.

All have signed off on my recovery because I've met the bending and straightening goals. I wouldn't have met these goals without them.

My surgeon is so pleased with my recovery that he asked if I might be interested in being in any advertisements if he starts advertising again. I told him maybe. I think he sees my recovery as really good, not because of the end result, but because I went from this (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genu_valgum#/media/File:Valgus.jpg) to this (https://publish.purewow.net/wp-content/uploads/sites/2/2021/06/standing-ab-exercises-standing-across-toe-touch.gif?fi). I don't think he and my GP expected such good results. Neither did I. I knew things would be better, but not this good.

These are some of things I now do that I couldn't do before:


Ride my bike without my right knee bumping into the frame. I can't even force my knee to do that anymore.
Climb up and down stairs without going one step at a time. I move slowly but it's not one step at a time. It will get even better.
Dance, Dance, Dance (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTCv4xJ6mRo) (granted, I can only do easy line dancing or different versions of the two-step like these women in the video, but it's a start)
Take a shower and get dressed while standing up. Sometimes I sit down but I don't have to, I choose to.
Do chores more easily around the house. Especially vacuuming.
Standing and sitting without having to pop my knee in place (It got to the point that I had to pop it into place each time I stood up and, yes, it's as bad as it sounds).
Standing and sitting without making strategic moves (you'd have to see it to understand it).
I can walk a half mile.

I waited so long to get the surgery because I made other things (work, work, work, and more work, then retirement and the move, then my family) more important. Still, I have no regrets.

Feeling very good. Lucky me.

:bow:

[Gemme]

Anxious. Anxiety presents, for me, much like queasiness does and my stomach has been in knots for several days now. A big, big thing is happening at work this week and, if today is any indication, it's going to be a bona fide shit show.

[Kätzchen]

I’ve been weeping, lately.

Just out of the blue, not often —but twice recently.
Age related stuff.

It’s a seriously humbling experience.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Overstuffed and a little ill.

I made a new pie recipe tonight, and it was so delicious that I had two slices. And I cleaned the bowl and licked the spoon. It was so rich, it was just too much.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Sad, and a little wistful. I went to see Dixon's son today, mainly to pick up a few things he had that I wanted and to get him to sign Dixon's taxes that I prepared. One of the things he had was Dixon's wedding ring, which has been lost since Dix passed away. I thought it was gone forever. I'm glad to have it back, and also sad to have it back.

A friend went with me, and I'm glad he did. He prevented me from getting sucked into a revolving pit of "Do I want this or not? Should I keep this or give it to somebody?" In the end everything fit easily into my car trunk, just four duffel bags. Some of it I'm already questioning why I kept it, like Dix's riding leathers. Hy was just so sexy in those - still, what am I going to do with them? And I don't really want to deal with treating them and maintaining them. Other things, like hys leather vest with hys patches on it, I will treasure. A few things, like some of the toys from hys kinky toy bag, I will give to people who will appreciate them and would like to have something to remember hym by. All so sad, I anticipate feeling sad every time I handle something.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Still kinda sad, and like I want to sleep some more. Actually, it's like I want to dream some more. I had a dream about Dixon, and it was so nice. We were shopping in a K-Mart for some reason. It was closing time and Dixon was helping me find a lock chain for my bicycle. Then it was sexy time (not in the K-Mart, in my house.)

How I wish I could somehow start my new dreams where my old ones left off. I just want to see Dixon's smile aimed at me again.

[Kätzchen]

I’m feeling okay but after my spa visit, I know I will feel better: Manicures, pedicures, hair treatment and body massage— that’s the good stuff. And of course … cuddle time with my honey. ✨✨✨❤️❤️✨✨✨✨

[Bèsame*]

Feeling really good. There was a good thunder storm, so I'm not having to water the garden. My grass is sure looking green. The bougainvillea is blooming again. Sweet pink flowers.

I have the weekend off. No plans as of yet, but I'm sure that will change.

Friday night is good!


https://resources.tidal.com/images/30e50e41/9935/44a7/a7f9/63f804aedd26/640x640.jpg

[clay]

:seeingstars:

I haz Covid. So does my wife. She is much sicker than I am.

We began with headaches & sore throats yesterday, was - for covid.

Today, symptoms worse... Covid IMMEDIATELY +........so FINALLY tonight got prescriptions...me on a Z Pak & she on Paxlovid.

We haz to isolate til Sunday......ugghhhh.

[Stone-Butch]

Sorry to hear you and your lady have covid sending get well wishes.

[Stone-Butch]

I finally got a lift today. My neighbour came over and took me for a haircut. First time I have been outside in 3 months and the sun on my face and the little breeze were a super treat. Long time without a haircut or seeing the sky and looking up at the trees. It made for a good day for me.

[clay]

Sorry to hear you and your lady have covid sending get well wishes.

Hey...thank you so much!

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling okay these days. EXCEPT I went to PT yesterday and the therapist did some massage on my shoulder, and she left visible bruises. But I also got an errand I've needed to take care of out of the way. And, I had a good dinner tonight and now I'm comfortably satiated. And, the Braves beat the Mets 7-0 tonight. So it's been a good couple of days.

[kittygrrl]

Starbucks w a friend...we had a laugh

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Lazy, and pretty good. The boy has gone to visit his boyfriend overnight, so I'm alone with Brittany. This means I can sing at the top of my lungs and not worry about disturbing anybody (and my singing can be DISTURBING. But I love it so much!) Brittany doesn't seem to mind. I haven't done anything else today but watch House and nap and order groceries. It's been lovely.

[Orema]

Not too good. Just heard that Carlos Santana is in agreement with Dave Chappelle when it comes to us.

I am so over these old-ass, tired-ass, not-as-good-as-they-think-they-are, used-to-be celebrities and their poisonous thoughts on us.

And there is NO ONE, not one single person out there to counter this thinking. It burns me up to no end.

I remember when the Bey-Hive made his ass apologize (https://www.jacksonville.com/story/entertainment/local/2017/02/16/carlos-santana-changes-his-tune-beyonce-i-have-utmost-respect-her-artist-and/15742792007/). We ain't even got a bey-hive to rely on.

I'm tossing out any music I own by him. I just got rid of the MP3s and next will be any albums.

[Stone-Butch]

Not feeling much better physically but emotionally I got a lift when my brother called me last night to let me know he was back. I was elated to hear from him and he is coming to see me Monday or Tuesday and bringing my favorite dog. Lots of good stuff lol.

[Gemme]

I'm up in my feels about something that I'm trying to come to terms with and that's creating confliction within myself but, other than that, things don't completely suck, which is my new standard for this world.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm sad and tired. Our little extended family is smaller by one, again. My boy's boyfriend, David, passed away a week ago. He literally died in my boy's arms. I wasn't there, but my boy said that he and David had just had a lovely day together - they played, watched TV and had a big steak dinner - and everything seemed fine. Then awhile after dinner, David started feeling dizzy and nauseated, and agreed to go to the hospital. They never made it to the car. He was already gone by the time the ambulance arrived.

Now my boy is a basket case. He has gone back to work, but only for half days to do the accounting, and no customer contact. Otherwise he alternates sleeping, crying, and drinking beer while watching TV game shows. His grief is deep - he was still grieving from when we lost Dixon in April, and now his dear boyfriend of 20 years is gone.

I'm just trying to hold us together. I am still grieving for Dixon too, and also now David. My boy is inconsolable. I'm trying to convince him to see a grief counselor or a therapist. There's too much death around here.

[Soft*Silver]

I'm just trying to hold us together. I am still grieving for Dixon too, and also now David. My boy is inconsolable. I'm trying to convince him to see a grief counselor or a therapist. There's too much death around here.


sitting down softly beside you, silently, as you sorrow………

[Bèsame*]

Trying to get back to Eastern Time Zone. I just got back from a wonderful vacay on the west coast. Catching up on sleep is just not the same at my age!😮😕😎

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Better, and not so overwhelmed. We have a plan now for attending the viewing and memorial service. Our outfits are clean. We have the address. The boy is still crying at the drop of a hat, but that's appropriate behavior for the memorial. We're going to make it through tomorrow just fine.

[Gemme]

I'm sad and tired. Our little extended family is smaller by one, again. My boy's boyfriend, David, passed away a week ago. He literally died in my boy's arms. I wasn't there, but my boy said that he and David had just had a lovely day together - they played, watched TV and had a big steak dinner - and everything seemed fine. Then awhile after dinner, David started feeling dizzy and nauseated, and agreed to go to the hospital. They never made it to the car. He was already gone by the time the ambulance arrived.

Now my boy is a basket case. He has gone back to work, but only for half days to do the accounting, and no customer contact. Otherwise he alternates sleeping, crying, and drinking beer while watching TV game shows. His grief is deep - he was still grieving from when we lost Dixon in April, and now his dear boyfriend of 20 years is gone.

I'm just trying to hold us together. I am still grieving for Dixon too, and also now David. My boy is inconsolable. I'm trying to convince him to see a grief counselor or a therapist. There's too much death around here.

Better, and not so overwhelmed. We have a plan now for attending the viewing and memorial service. Our outfits are clean. We have the address. The boy is still crying at the drop of a hat, but that's appropriate behavior for the memorial. We're going to make it through tomorrow just fine.

I'm so sorry for your recent losses, and so close together. (w)

For myself, work is the thing that is bringing me down. It's my favorite season, leaves are turning and the temps are coming down. This should be a joyous time but every day at work brings a new problem, new responsibilities and new stress. No new money, though. :eyebrow:

[Soft*Silver]

I am exhausted. Two weeks ago. I was sick for a week with RSV. Last week I worked 40 hours to make up for all the hours I missed. I’m taking the day just to relax. Although I have my granddaughters over here for a pizza party. And I had a couch delivered. And I helped three police save a couple pitbull‘s that were locked in an upstairs bedroom with a litter of pups for two weeks. So…

[kittygrrl]

it's too early ..
i6iBAuwBODA

coffee

[Orema]

Better.

The heat wouldn't come on this morning. Thermostat wasn't working. Called the Heat Lady and she sent someone out. All I needed were batteries. The service guy also gave the furnace a tune-up and changed the filter.

I felt pretty clueless having not checked the batteries, but at least I don't need a new furnace. There is that.

:bow:

[Stone-Butch]

Really super tired today although I slept a long time but pain in my back is concentrating on the R. side and is painful when she would massage that area. She asked how my back was and I told her very bad the last couple of days. Tylenol is not even doing much for it. Oh well, life goes on.

[Kätzchen]

I feel …. Subdued into a state of submission by overwhelming tides of humility— feeling so profoundly grateful for the chance to be present and cognizant of all I am fortunate to enjoy in life. Submissive to my life experience. Humbled by it all, for sure.

[kittygrrl]

i'm having a rough night
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[Gemme]

Professionally, I'm overwhelmed, underappreciated, underpaid and overall defeated. I would leave in a heartbeat if I could find something that will pay me what I'm worth and I could find decent housing. Until they sold out, I was with the same company for 12.5 years and expected to retire from there, honestly. The company they sold to is wretched.

Personally, I feel good about my attempts at better health and self-care. I'm seeing some results and that feels great. I feel like it's not where it would be if I wasn't drowning in a 50 hour a week bath of cortisol when I'm at work but it's better than it was and that's something, I guess.

[Soft*Silver]

I am sore from gardening all weekend. I’m still tearing down the gardens, planting bulbs, putting more garlic in the ground, covering the beds, laying the compost out, etc. every muscle in my body is in pain. Glorious, wonderful satisfied pain! There was a time when I could barely move. My healing has taken years, but it’s finally here! I am so enjoying being in this kind of pain instead of the other kind of pain!

[akiza]

Still stressed out this year has been a long one like I said I won’t be able to breathe until I’m in the plane or already in the new school

[Soft*Silver]

Numb. Shocked. Angry. Grieving. Sad. Overwhelmed.
I was laid off permanently from the best job I have ever had. And now I have to worry about all the senior citizens I took care of.

I feel like I was punched in the gut…

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Temporarily, explicably sad. I say temporarily because the boy is bringing home my antidepressant medication after work. I say explicably because my pharmacy ran out of my meds and I've had to wait 5 days to get them filled. They have worn off and I've been crying for no good reason for 2 days now. At least it's fixable; I hope it doesn't take 2 days for them to kick in once I get them.

[Soft*Silver]

Drowning…..

[Gemme]

I felt a twinge of a strange emotion earlier today. It's been so long since I felt it, I didn't recognize it at first and that's not being overly dramatic; it's true. I felt the tiniest bit of hope. Nothing to lose my mind over, but it gave me a glimpse of a possibility of an alternate universe in which I was paid what I was worth and wasn't under the thumb of my employer (also my landlord). There is a lifetime between now and that place but I see that there is a path. I just have to take the first step and hope for the best.

[Kätzchen]

I’ve got some traumatic stuff going on in my life right now which concerns stuff from early young adult years, which has upended my life but has drawn me closer to my youngest brother. I’m stunned and sad for my brother. His right leg was amputated and now he has “Kevin” his unicorn embossed artificial leg…. But on Monday he returns to hospital to have two stents inserted into his heart. He is 2.1 million in debt. He doesn’t care if he loses his business. I suspect I’m going to lose the only member of my family who cares deeply for me. He told me to take the high road, concerning my traumatic experience.

I just feel so stunned.

And, sad.

[Bèsame*]

I'm feeling like I forgot how old I am.

Last night, had the best time in a long time. I went to Bush Gardens with my boss. ( who is still eyecandy) It was decorated for Halloween.
So there were several haunted houses to go thru. Most of the rides where open as well. She says, will you do roller coasters? I thought how I got nauseated the last time I rode one in California. I also just had a bad bout of vertigo this past week. I told her I'd try.
Take a risk, have fun. We rode 4 different ones! We laughed and chatted with people in lines. We played that phone charades with some girls. Oh, and not to forget, there were several cocktails. We talked today and said coasters and drinks, best time in a long time.

I felt like I was 25. Remember Halloween back then?

How I'm feeling....still smiling.
This was one of them.

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[Stone-Butch]

Feeling very sad. My brother called me and told me he had to have his dog put down today. Very old, sweet, loveable dog but going blind, falling off ramp he built cause the poor thing would not walk steps. Today he was bleeding from his nose and my brother thinks he must have banged his head or nose so he found it had but it had to be done. I loved that dog myself as he was nice to everyone. I feel for my brother as I know it is the hardest thing he as had to do in a long time. Damn ageing anyway.

[clay]

Saw my rheumo yesterday. FINALLY going to start a tapering off of the final 10mg Prednisone! By Dec 15th, I will be free of this nasty drug!

Finally, after 13 months of it, and many, many autoimmune diagnoses that come with taking this drug, I can begin to enjoy more things again. This has been a long, challenging past year, and we finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

My vision has greatly improved, the weight will be a battle....BUT it is happening!

[Soft*Silver]

Today I am above water finally
Less than two weeks ago within a matter of days, I had an accident in our new car, I got laid off from my job unexpectedly, and my dog couldn’t walk and was in incredible pain, and I was terrified because of my job loss. I couldn’t afford to take care of her and was afraid I was going to have to euthanize her.

However, and I have since gotten on unemployment. I worked out if payment plan with our veterinarian, who never ever allows this! And the insurance covered everything and incredibly, we didn’t have a deductible!

I am feeling relief, happiness, gratitude, and hope.

[Bèsame*]

Feeling a little. defeated this morning. I think I can do a lot of things but sometimes I come across something I cant do. I'm sooo not a plumber. I was trying to fix an annoying drip in the toilet tank. I bought the stuff for the insides. But who ever worked on it last used a silicone or something I cant crack!

Mom sees my frustration..just get a new toilet. Ok!

I'll be happy to get rid of the bone colored one for a higher seat white one.

So feeling defeated to ahhhh, thanks Mom.

[ksrainbow]

I accomplished my 9 weeks (3 times a week) of physical therapy goal for a *frozen shoulder* which was a result of my torn rotator cuff injury in April.

I have and will continue to avoid surgery to repair the tear. The tear will never *heal* on its own, but I can prevent further damage. The consequence of my April incident which led to the frozen shoulder incident are reminders to stay active and mobile.

I admit I am stubborn and not the most compliant with restrictions: however Mr. Brett J. who was my therapist/coach/cheerleader and my favorite motivational quote to me was: *Motion Is Lotion* :cheer:

Ks- :thumbsup:

[Kätzchen]

Well… I’m okay. Not feeling exactly good but not exactly bad — either. I don’t have an appetite really, but I force myself to graze on veggies and such.

Not sure when I will feel better, but I’m glad I’m still here.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Kinda sad and blue. I had an appointment with my pill doc today, and it was distressing to recount all the sad stuff that's happened since the last time I saw him. He upped one of my scripts by an extra half dose; we'll see if that does any good.

Later, I sang along to my "sad songs" playlist. That helped a little.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Sorta kinda better. I've been doing stuff today, as opposed to just lying in bed and thinking about how bad I feel. I guess that's an improvement, at least psychiatrists seem to think so. One of the things I did was bake brownies - does that really count as "doing something" though, when I know I will just eat them to comfort myself? As it turns out, I only had two - and I enjoyed them, I didn't just gobble the whole pan down in sadness.

I also played with the dog, which I'm sure she appreciated since I have mostly ignored her for several days. I made sure she had plenty of toys, but of course that's not the same as playing with me. Honestly, if I'm asleep or dozing in bed, she usually just gets in her crate and sleeps.

I did some arts and crafty stuff, too. That's definitely an improvement, as I haven't felt creative at all lately. I couldn't even come up with an idea before. Today an idea finally came to me and I started it.

So yes, "sorta kinda better" describes well how I'm feeling.

[kittygrrl]

a cookie YiVPC8QHsQMwould help

[Soft*Silver]

I am feeling all sorts of ways

I sprained my ankle yesterday. And it might be broken. I had gone to urgent care and they did an x-ray. They said that they couldn’t see a definite break. They wanted me to follow up with my orthopedic surgeon because it seems like more than a sprain. So… I’m in pain and I hurt. And I’m worried that I’ll get laid up again.

I feel relief, because finally after over three weeks and many attempts to correct an initial mistake, I made, while filing for unemployment, I got my first deposit.
But I’m feeling frustrated because I can’t access it. I had to close down my debit card because I lost it!

And I’m also feeling kind of lost. I’ve been laid off from the job that I felt was the best job I ever held, and I am kind of bored and feeling like I have no purpose. I don’t mean that in a low self-esteem kind of way. I mean that in a way that expresses that all my life I have served populations that were at risk and needy, empowering them to get strong and independent. I want to continue doing that, but I just don’t know in what direction or capacity or what population I will do it next.

I’ve had several interviews, all of them wonderful opportunities. But I am 66 years old and I don’t want to work full-time. I am retired. I am doing this to fill my need to serve. And I don’t want to be a Director or a supervisor or a manager… Which is where the interviews always go! I want to work in the trenches with the people.
I have a job interview on Monday. And another one on Wednesday of next week.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

My tooth hurts and I have a headache. Motrin helps, but doesn't really work. I really want a BC powder and a Coke, my go-to for headaches, but I'm not supposed to have either one with this kidney problem I'm having. So I am Crabby!

I hired a dog walker today. The boy is going to a convention, and I am just not capable of walking Brittany three times a day. I'm not even capable of going up and down the stairs three times in a day, without having to spend the whole next day in bed. So I made an agreement with a neighbor that I found on Facebook. She's supposed to come over and meet Brittany and the boy on Thursday. I'm feeling conflicted and full of trepidation, but we'll see how it goes.

[cinnamongrrl]

Excited!

Massachusetts passed a bill that will allow me to go back to nursing school for free! I’m finally doing this!

[Stone-Butch]

Feeling better. Talked to my brother and he is getting it together after his loss, I myself have joined two more chat rooms and I am as busy as a 6 tailed cat in a room full of rockers but happy doing it anyway. This evening is so quiet and still compared to all the heavy rain storms earlier. I just heard the train go over the overpass near where I live and it reminded me of being a child growing up around trains. Yes, feeling much better.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Pretty good! As far as my tooth goes, it still kinda hurts, but I have meds for that now. The antibiotics seem to be working.

But the best news is that my Mom will be moving back from the hospital into her nursing home tomorrow! They say they have her meds straightened out. Hopefully she will enjoy her life more now. Also hopefully, she will not be throwing any more remotes at people's heads.

[Blade]

Pretty pissed off! Planned on fixing part of Thanksgiving meal tonight. 4 pm power went out expects to be back on by 8:15. I know yall think I'm crazy but my bed time is 9. LOL yeah Ima old man now, go to bed with the chickens

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Pretty good! As far as my tooth goes, it still kinda hurts, but I have meds for that now. The antibiotics seem to be working.


Not as good as earlier. My tooth is driving me nuts, and I can't get any sleep. Lying down puts pressure on it, no matter what position I lie in. Even soaking it in whiskey is not helping much. I made a new bite guard today, thinking that might put less pressure on it, but that didn't work. On the other hand, if I sleep without a bite guard, I just grind my teeth all night and wake up with a toothache and a headache. Aaarrgh!

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Sad and tired and overwhelmed.

My mother passed away about 10 days ago. It was completely unexpected. I thought she was getting better, but she continued to deteriorate until she just didn't eat or drink for five days. My sister kept this information to herself, so I didn't get to go see my Mama before she died. By the time my sister came clean, Mama had only hours left. She passed away before I could jump in my car and make it all the way to her nursing home. I missed her by about an hour.

Then I somehow got a kidney infection within days and ended up hallucinating in the ER again. Actually, the doctors aren't sure it was an infection, that was just their best guess. I was in the hospital for a week, but now I'm home again.

I'm too tired to do anything but lie in bed.

[Kätzchen]

On guard. Listening intently. Heightened focus.

[Stone-Butch]

Does not affect me diretly but I am happy for all the gay/lesbians out there that are Catholic as the Pope just gave his blessings to all marriages. I know this is important to lots of folks.

[cinnamongrrl]

Trepidatious….

I accepted a position in an urgent care. The staff openly say that management is inept and they run short on staff on the regular. This was highlighted by the fact that I was supposed to be “shadowing” on my very first day, but ended up answering the phone and helping the other MA as she was completely on her own.

What have I gotten myself into 😳

[cinnamongrrl]

Trepidatious….

I accepted a position in an urgent care. The staff openly say that management is inept and they run short on staff on the regular. This was highlighted by the fact that I was supposed to be “shadowing” on my very first day, but ended up answering the phone and helping the other MA as she was completely on her own.

What have I gotten myself into 😳

My worries were completely validated on my fifth day at work. I arrived and found there were TWO call outs. I was completely alone. The only MA for two providers and not yet trained on their point of care. It was complete hell. But the place has an iron clad team mentality and we got through it together.

Ps: lots of positive flu A today. Get your vitamin C!! It’s gonna be a doozie of a season. I can just feel it.

[Stone-Butch]

Feeling quite uplifted. Saw a lot of video of the Queen and Princess Anne. It was nice to see some of the past history of the Queen from when her father passed to when she passed and how things are going for Princess Anne. Queen of the commonwealth of 62 independant countries 1/3 of the worlds population. Things are changing now that she is gone and the future does not look all that bright for the throne.

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Okay for now. Trying not to dwell on bad stuff. Trying to remember the good stuff.

[Blade]

I'm felling pretty good for an old fart! Started a sinus infection before Christmas but nipped it in the bud. Have been surrounded by flu,COVID, respiratory sicknesses but I have dodged the bullet so far. I am however tired. I'm so ready physically to retire but I love my paycheck and my retirement will not equal my paycheck. So I'll work on a little bit. So I'm feeling pretty spiffy. If Iz any better I'd have to be twins

[kittygrrl]

in a good mood

[GeorgiaMa'am]

I'm feeling . . . annoyed by the fireworks. But not as annoyed as I will be at 1 AM.

[Orema]

Good. The hip is much better. Will give the bike a try this morning. It’s amazing what some veggies and water can heal.

[nhplowboi]

Pretty happy! It's voting day in NH so the deluge of mailed political ads that fill my mailbox daily should soon cease to exist. Well, that is at least until fall.

[Bèsame*]

Riding a high from a super fun weekend! Spent with boss butch at her Mom's house. Disney one day and football the next. Cocktails and snacks were enjoyed by all!

We just have way too much fun, laughs and good times, always!

[GeorgiaMa'am]

Still kinda sad, but a little better.

I've been keeping track of what I eat, and I noticed I don't get enough protein every day. I'm right on the money for carbs and fats, but not protein. I wonder if that's got something to do with how I feel? I don't eat protein at every meal, but I'm going to try adding some.