Random Thoughts

LipstickLola · 10-12-2010, 12:02 AM

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Originally Posted by JediMaster

I miss you! I have no other way to say it. I just wish everything could be ok again. I'm really not sure what happened. I know you were holding things together so well but now I feel like you're in the witness protection program. It just isn't the same without you. Life doesn't feel the same without you there. And I know that is really a way that logically I should not feel, but I do. It just isn't the same without you. The only way I know how to put it. And, I hope beyond hope, that today is the day I will get to hear from you. But the days and weeks and months are adding up now and all I want to know is that you're ok........and that I can tell you you're ok. I know how it feels to be alone like this. I don't much like it.

Jedi, feeling the exact same way about someone now gone from my life, and wishing (praying really) for another chance. The days, weeks, months, did add up, and maybe enough time has passed? who knows? Shall I keep my torch a burning??

Maybe a bit longer.

Jedi · 10-13-2010, 09:13 PM

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Originally Posted by LipstickLola

Jedi, feeling the exact same way about someone now gone from my life, and wishing (praying really) for another chance. The days, weeks, months, did add up, and maybe enough time has passed? who knows? Shall I keep my torch a burning??

Maybe a bit longer.

Lola,
I truly believe that if you have faith and you show God you are willing to make the changes for which she is "worthy" that the opportunity will present itself and God will give you back that with which you love. I just did. After months of praying and being depressed and fighting it. I did. And I have to show God this. My new group of friends prayed with me the other night that I find a job. They want to go to church with me....and on the same note they wanna do karaoke and have beers and get silly. They are healthy friends.....I made that change. I let myself go out and face the world. It wasn't easy. And my behavior wasn't always good. But it's better than it was. I'm not perfect. At least that is how I feel about it. I was making positive changes in my life after mourning a great loss...but this one wouldn't be a permanent loss. It's nice to know that someone has some mutual feelings on this journey. I am definitely not alone.....although that was how it felt at the time. I wasn't about to let go.

I hope that makes a little sense to you....because really......only YOU can decide for yourself how long you let the torch burn.

Namaste,

Jedi

LipstickLola · 10-13-2010, 09:17 PM

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Originally Posted by JediMaster

Lola,
I truly believe that if you have faith and you show God you are willing to make the changes for which she is "worthy" that the opportunity will present itself and God will give you back that with which you love. I just did. After months of praying and being depressed and fighting it. I did. And I have to show God this. My new group of friends prayed with me the other night that I find a job. They want to go to church with me....and on the same note they wanna do karaoke and have beers and get silly. They are healthy friends.....I made that change. I let myself go out and face the world. It wasn't easy. And my behavior wasn't always good. But it's better than it was. I'm not perfect. At least that is how I feel about it. I was making positive changes in my life after mourning a great loss...but this one wouldn't be a permanent loss. It's nice to know that someone has some mutual feelings on this journey. I am definitely not alone.....although that was how it felt at the time. I wasn't about to let go.

I hope that makes a little sense to you....because really......only YOU can decide for yourself how long you let the torch burn.

Namaste,

Jedi

Thank you. I believe

ox

Jedi · 01-06-2011, 12:30 AM

You disappeared again. I miss you. I miss how made me feel. I miss talking to you. making you laugh. I miss you so much. All I can hope is that you will come back to me. I look up at the starts at night and wonder where you are and how you are? Are we looking at the same stars? I wonder. It's been months again. And I wish I knew what happened to you. I miss you so. You know I want to marry you. So please don't be gone forever. I don't want to die alone.

Nightshade · 01-06-2011, 04:58 AM

I'm really happy to be part of a forum group who seems to view (as far as I can tell so far) thread necromancy as a positive thing.

The other website that I'm utterly devoted to seems to frown upon it.

<--- getting the lay of the land before barging in.

P.S. If I'm wrong, would someone please be kind enough to tell me so I don't look like an idiot?

Thanks

Jedi · 04-24-2011, 09:23 PM

You mean the world to me...
This is all so complicated....
I just want to be home.....

Andrew, Jr. · 04-25-2011, 01:44 AM

My random thoughts:

* I have really enjoyed this new show on OWN called "Addicted to Food" at the Shades of Hope Treatment Center. Brave souls.

*Dino is a bed hog, and he snores louder and louder it seems.

*I am wondering why my head is just hurting so badly?

01-06-2011, 12:30 AM	#4
Jedi Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: they are my world Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: In a galaxy far, far away Posts: 959 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,002 Thanked 1,731 Times in 544 Posts Rep Power: 12678953	And the torch still burns.... You disappeared again. I miss you. I miss how made me feel. I miss talking to you. making you laugh. I miss you so much. All I can hope is that you will come back to me. I look up at the starts at night and wonder where you are and how you are? Are we looking at the same stars? I wonder. It's been months again. And I wish I knew what happened to you. I miss you so. You know I want to marry you. So please don't be gone forever. I don't want to die alone.

01-06-2011, 04:58 AM	#5
Nightshade Member How Do You Identify?: Stonefemme Preferred Pronoun?: her/she Relationship Status: . Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: here Posts: 125 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 503 Thanked 236 Times in 84 Posts Rep Power: 42018	zombies I'm really happy to be part of a forum group who seems to view (as far as I can tell so far) thread necromancy as a positive thing. The other website that I'm utterly devoted to seems to frown upon it. <--- getting the lay of the land before barging in. P.S. If I'm wrong, would someone *please* be kind enough to tell me so I don't look like an idiot? Thanks

04-24-2011, 09:23 PM	#6
Jedi Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: they are my world Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: In a galaxy far, far away Posts: 959 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,002 Thanked 1,731 Times in 544 Posts Rep Power: 12678953	It's been a long time since I've posted.... You mean the world to me... This is all so complicated.... I just want to be home.....

04-25-2011, 01:44 AM	#7
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,250 Times in 2,217 Posts Rep Power: 0	My random thoughts: * I have really enjoyed this new show on OWN called "Addicted to Food" at the Shades of Hope Treatment Center. Brave souls. Dino is a bed hog, and he snores louder and louder it seems. I am wondering why my head is just hurting so badly?