WHO is on your Mind ... Why?

bigbutchmistie · 10-19-2010, 08:55 PM

Lately my mom... Its getting close to the anniversary of her death. So I think of her more and more... Sometimes I can still close my eyes and see her face...

Rockinonahigh · 10-19-2010, 09:04 PM

Whats on my mind..My old horse Jet..I know where abouts he is but the paint horse assn wont give me anthing but the name of the owner and town they live in..somehow im takeing a trip to the rio grand cause he isnt far from it..all I want to do is bring hime home and retire him.

sweetfemme247 · 10-19-2010, 09:09 PM

there is lots of people on my mind, now that I am single I think all the time of people I have known and lost and some have came back into my life and for once I am breathing and doing what I want in life to make myself happy,

paposeco · 10-19-2010, 09:59 PM

My mom, I miss her so!

Soudades,
~teu filho~

CherryFemme · 10-19-2010, 10:39 PM

Here's to Van Johnson!

(Clarification: the person, not the cat)

~CF

Nina · 10-19-2010, 11:20 PM

getting back to the gym, I miss him in a whole 'nother way...

I miss my partner, T...

he was a big, and I mean Big body-builder and power-lifter...today at dinner my son and I were talking about him, at the end he said "...and he was Huge"
(and he was)...maybe it was to hold a big heart...

he had a dangerous job with dangerous people, and he ended up getting killed...no time to say goodbye

I am thankful to remember him with such love...to have shared myself with someone who got me, and who loved me in the moment and exactly as I was...(as I did him, of course)

I used to have this thing that I wanted to wrestle with him...he would try and comply...I'd tell him to get into position and then I'd drape myself over him, clasp my hands so that I could take him down (ha!!) and then I'd say "now, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean...go!"...and he's say "nee, how am I supposed to wrestle then?"...and, I'd say, 'you can, it will be fun...but, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean'...he had a Lot of patience...we never really wrestled, it was just something I thought would be fun...in a second he had me down on my back and it was, always, fun !!

we had ups and downs and in between...it was, above all and all the time--real...

so today, I miss my T...and, I'm okay with it...I am really thankful to have what we had...and to know what it's like to be loved and to love with honestly, courage, grace, passion, intensity, and a whole lot of fucking fun!

Sam · 10-29-2010, 10:00 AM

st john is on my mind, shes absolutely amazing

Gaige · 10-29-2010, 10:15 AM

Sandra, my sweet and adorable friend from work. I didn't get see her this morning before I left because she was away on assignment. I knew she wouldn't be at work today yet I still kept listening for her laugh.

Blade · 11-03-2010, 05:05 PM

Mom, she's been threw a lot in the past 2 weeks. She must be so tired, drained both physically and emotionally and it aint over yet.

sweetfemme247 · 11-03-2010, 05:09 PM

alot of people are on my mind

RockOn · 11-03-2010, 05:25 PM

Tim is on my mind today. He is a good man and a good friend, very sweet person. He has had a hip problem for about the last year or so and in severe pain. He had hip replacement surgery a few months back and at first, the surgery seemed to help him but now the pain is as bad as ever. He works and had to get a different vehicle to haul his wheel chair. I saw him the other night and asked him how he is doing. An involuntary tear fell from his eye and as he looked away seemingly embarrassed about the teardrop, he told me he is depressed. I hugged him, kissed his cheek and told him I loved him.

Some people sure have it rough.

T D · 11-03-2010, 05:34 PM

Diva - cause she gave me something to think about yesterday, and I have been thinking about it..... Perhaps there is still hope, just gotta shake the negative (store it away for reference), and get on with the good stuff

I'll work on that.... yes I will.

AtLast · 11-03-2010, 08:28 PM

My Dad. I know he is on my mind (and was) because of the mid-term elections. Although I am down about what happened yesterday, there is this part of me that remembers my Dad was very much like the people in what is being called the Heart Land that have lost jobs in huge numbers and will never see them return. Steel industry kinds of jobs, skilled labor jobs, car manufacturing jobs. Jobs that are hard but did pay well for a long time in the US that have been lost because of cheaper production costs in other countries.

My Dad wasn't educated, immigrated here, and would do any kind of work he had to make a living. He also supported labor unions back in the day because he saw child labor and sweat shops first hand. My Mom, too.

He became a business owner later in life (garbage collection), and had a good head for it, but was the kind of person that ran it out of his front pocket like so many of that generation. And he kept his word which was given with a hand shake. Honor. He'd give anyone a chance with a job and he always said that you had to pay people good wages and benefits were not a burden for an employer, it was just the right thing to do.

There were huge numbers of voters yesterday in the Heart Land that voted Obama in 2008, but did not now. Made me mad, but I also get it. How many are unemployed now, lost homes, had their retirement taken away? How many can re-train? fear was a big part of yesterday's elections.

I think my Dad would have been scared, too. The business he left behind remains in my family (my son and nephews run it today, 3 generations) and although lay offs have been avoided, how long will that be true? These are real people with real families from administrative, college educated types of positions to unskilled labor. Truck drivers, computer techs and a programmer, garbage collectors, recycling/Green workers and advisors, office workers, bookkeepers, managers, and mechanics. Real people!

Since my dad lived during the Great Depression, I think he would have done everything (as is being done) to not lay people off. But, if things don’t change soon, who knows! It would have troubled him deeply to let people go.

People like him in business do exist and I am tired of them getting lumped into the same categories as the huge mega-billion dollar corporations. Small independent businesses are not the same.

Maybe it's better my dad isn't alive. Damn, I miss him! I miss his horse sense and his honestly and reliability. And his giving a damn about people. I miss his integrity about an honest days work for an honest wage and being responsible for his obligations.

Queerasfck · 11-03-2010, 08:57 PM

Just waiting for Squeaks to get home. Been thinking about her allllllllllll day.

Kenna · 11-03-2010, 10:06 PM

My nieces....
wish I could live closer to them

sweetfemme247 · 11-03-2010, 10:07 PM

someone I have known for along time, and have missed deeply, and new friends I have met and i am enjoying life

Kenna · 11-09-2010, 09:07 PM

My other best friend from PA and her big galoot of a doggy.... she has such a bubbly, fun spirit and we always have so much fun. We especially loved watching her galoot and my half pint wrestle and romp so hard that our laughter hurt our ribs. Her galoot nearly broke my glass dishware once by getting stuck under my dinner table. We had so much fun that night; my half pint even tried to hide his "gator" under my bed to keep the galoot from chomping on it. It was too funny to watch half pint "think about" how to hide that darn gator. Hearing my friend's belly laugh just washed away so much stress from that hard week.

I loved chatting with her today; she makes me smile and think of good times.

Wish I had a good picture of her galoot....this is as good as I can find...

Ravin · 11-10-2010, 09:59 AM

Today I am missing my Uncle..

The one year anniversary has come and gone of his death..

10-19-2010, 09:09 PM	#3
sweetfemme247 Member How Do You Identify?: fem Preferred Pronoun?: femme, she, her, baby, sweetie Relationship Status: holding my heart close and putting back up a wall Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: california, palm springs Posts: 994 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 206 Thanked 719 Times in 350 Posts Rep Power: 4115671	there is lots of people on my mind, now that I am single I think all the time of people I have known and lost and some have came back into my life and for once I am breathing and doing what I want in life to make myself happy, __________________ Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. Jim Rohn

10-19-2010, 10:39 PM	#5
CherryFemme Member How Do You Identify?: .... Relationship Status: On good days, in love. On bad days--well, there are no bad days with hym... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Leeward Posts: 129 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 134 Thanked 246 Times in 60 Posts Rep Power: 1211853	Van Johnson Here's to Van Johnson! (Clarification: the person, not the cat) ~CF

11-03-2010, 05:05 PM	#9
Blade Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: TG Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: once in a while someone amazing comes along...and here I am! Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Down on the farm Posts: 5,501 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,855 Thanked 14,413 Times in 4,058 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	Mom, she's been threw a lot in the past 2 weeks. She must be so tired, drained both physically and emotionally and it aint over yet. __________________ Yeah so what if I'm triple dipped in awesome sauce? The best way to predict the future, is to create it.

11-03-2010, 05:09 PM	#10
sweetfemme247 Member How Do You Identify?: fem Preferred Pronoun?: femme, she, her, baby, sweetie Relationship Status: holding my heart close and putting back up a wall Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: california, palm springs Posts: 994 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 206 Thanked 719 Times in 350 Posts Rep Power: 4115671	alot of people are on my mind __________________ Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. Jim Rohn

11-03-2010, 05:34 PM	#12
T D Member How Do You Identify?: Person of the trans variety Preferred Pronoun?: He, Sir, Bro, TD, Stevin Relationship Status: On occasion Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: SF Bay Area Posts: 1,165 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,428 Thanked 1,125 Times in 311 Posts Rep Power: 3570339	Diva - cause she gave me something to think about yesterday, and I have been thinking about it..... Perhaps there is still hope, just gotta shake the negative (store it away for reference), and get on with the good stuff I'll work on that.... yes I will. __________________ “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

10-19-2010, 08:55 PM	#1
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10-19-2010, 09:04 PM	#2
Rockinonahigh Senior Member How Do You Identify?: stone butch Preferred Pronoun?: makes no diffrence,I know who I am. Relationship Status: single,maybe looking if the right person comes along. Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: shreveport,Louisiana Posts: 4,907 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,682 Thanked 14,933 Times in 3,938 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Whats on my mind..My old horse Jet..I know where abouts he is but the paint horse assn wont give me anthing but the name of the owner and town they live in..somehow im takeing a trip to the rio grand cause he isnt far from it..all I want to do is bring hime home and retire him.

10-19-2010, 09:59 PM	#4
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10-19-2010, 11:20 PM	#6
Nina Timed Out How Do You Identify?: unmistakably Preferred Pronoun?: dearheart Relationship Status: In love, loved and Happy, thanks for askin' Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: SF CA Posts: 1,720 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,113 Thanked 3,384 Times in 931 Posts Rep Power: 0	getting back to the gym, I miss him in a whole 'nother way... I miss my partner, T... he was a big, and I mean Big body-builder and power-lifter...today at dinner my son and I were talking about him, at the end he said "...and he was Huge" (and he was)...maybe it was to hold a big heart... he had a dangerous job with dangerous people, and he ended up getting killed...no time to say goodbye I am thankful to remember him with such love...to have shared myself with someone who got me, and who loved me in the moment and exactly as I was...(as I did him, of course) I used to have this thing that I wanted to wrestle with him...he would try and comply...I'd tell him to get into position and then I'd drape myself over him, clasp my hands so that I could take him down (ha!!) and then I'd say "now, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean...go!"...and he's say "nee, how am I supposed to wrestle then?"...and, I'd say, 'you can, it will be fun...but, don't hurt me, don't scare me, and don't be mean'...he had a Lot of patience...we never really wrestled, it was just something I thought would be fun...in a second he had me down on my back and it was, always, fun !! we had ups and downs and in between...it was, above all and all the time--real... so today, I miss my T...and, I'm okay with it...I am really thankful to have what we had...and to know what it's like to be loved and to love with honestly, courage, grace, passion, intensity, and a whole lot of fucking fun!

10-29-2010, 10:00 AM	#7
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10-29-2010, 10:15 AM	#8
Gaige Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Stone Butch Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: above my boots Posts: 2,097 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,649 Thanked 3,755 Times in 1,171 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Sandra, my sweet and adorable friend from work. I didn't get see her this morning before I left because she was away on assignment. I knew she wouldn't be at work today yet I still kept listening for her laugh.

11-03-2010, 05:25 PM	#11
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,304 Times in 2,610 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Tim is on my mind today. He is a good man and a good friend, very sweet person. He has had a hip problem for about the last year or so and in severe pain. He had hip replacement surgery a few months back and at first, the surgery seemed to help him but now the pain is as bad as ever. He works and had to get a different vehicle to haul his wheel chair. I saw him the other night and asked him how he is doing. An involuntary tear fell from his eye and as he looked away seemingly embarrassed about the teardrop, he told me he is depressed. I hugged him, kissed his cheek and told him I loved him. Some people sure have it rough.

11-03-2010, 08:28 PM	#13
AtLast Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Woman Preferred Pronoun?: HER - SHE Relationship Status: Relating Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: CA & AZ I'm a Snowbird Posts: 5,408 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,826 Thanked 10,827 Times in 3,199 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	My Dad. I know he is on my mind (and was) because of the mid-term elections. Although I am down about what happened yesterday, there is this part of me that remembers my Dad was very much like the people in what is being called the Heart Land that have lost jobs in huge numbers and will never see them return. Steel industry kinds of jobs, skilled labor jobs, car manufacturing jobs. Jobs that are hard but did pay well for a long time in the US that have been lost because of cheaper production costs in other countries. My Dad wasn't educated, immigrated here, and would do any kind of work he had to make a living. He also supported labor unions back in the day because he saw child labor and sweat shops first hand. My Mom, too. He became a business owner later in life (garbage collection), and had a good head for it, but was the kind of person that ran it out of his front pocket like so many of that generation. And he kept his word which was given with a hand shake. Honor. He'd give anyone a chance with a job and he always said that you had to pay people good wages and benefits were not a burden for an employer, it was just the right thing to do. There were huge numbers of voters yesterday in the Heart Land that voted Obama in 2008, but did not now. Made me mad, but I also get it. How many are unemployed now, lost homes, had their retirement taken away? How many can re-train? fear was a big part of yesterday's elections. I think my Dad would have been scared, too. The business he left behind remains in my family (my son and nephews run it today, 3 generations) and although lay offs have been avoided, how long will that be true? These are real people with real families from administrative, college educated types of positions to unskilled labor. Truck drivers, computer techs and a programmer, garbage collectors, recycling/Green workers and advisors, office workers, bookkeepers, managers, and mechanics. Real people! Since my dad lived during the Great Depression, I think he would have done everything (as is being done) to not lay people off. But, if things don’t change soon, who knows! It would have troubled him deeply to let people go. People like him in business do exist and I am tired of them getting lumped into the same categories as the huge mega-billion dollar corporations. Small independent businesses are not the same. Maybe it's better my dad isn't alive. Damn, I miss him! I miss his horse sense and his honestly and reliability. And his giving a damn about people. I miss his integrity about an honest days work for an honest wage and being responsible for his obligations.

11-03-2010, 08:57 PM	#14
Queerasfck Senior Member How Do You Identify?: still ballin' Relationship Status: Triple X Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: west side Posts: 2,544 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,716 Thanked 6,488 Times in 1,638 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Just waiting for Squeaks to get home. Been thinking about her allllllllllll day. __________________ http://www.advertisingarchives.co.uk...28750fb328.jpg

11-03-2010, 10:06 PM	#15
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,192 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	My nieces.... wish I could live closer to them

11-03-2010, 10:07 PM	#16
sweetfemme247 Member How Do You Identify?: fem Preferred Pronoun?: femme, she, her, baby, sweetie Relationship Status: holding my heart close and putting back up a wall Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: california, palm springs Posts: 994 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 206 Thanked 719 Times in 350 Posts Rep Power: 4115671	someone I have known for along time, and have missed deeply, and new friends I have met and i am enjoying life __________________ Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. Jim Rohn

11-09-2010, 09:07 PM	#17
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,192 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	My other best friend from PA and her big galoot of a doggy.... she has such a bubbly, fun spirit and we always have so much fun. We especially loved watching her galoot and my half pint wrestle and romp so hard that our laughter hurt our ribs. Her galoot nearly broke my glass dishware once by getting stuck under my dinner table. We had so much fun that night; my half pint even tried to hide his "gator" under my bed to keep the galoot from chomping on it. It was too funny to watch half pint "think about" how to hide that darn gator. Hearing my friend's belly laugh just washed away so much stress from that hard week. I loved chatting with her today; she makes me smile and think of good times. Wish I had a good picture of her galoot....this is as good as I can find...

11-10-2010, 09:59 AM	#18
Ravin Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: Girl Relationship Status: Otherside Of My Bed Is Empty Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: Coast Line Posts: 13 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1 Thanked 18 Times in 9 Posts Rep Power: 6369	Today I am missing my Uncle.. The one year anniversary has come and gone of his death..